How can I get back on track?!
Question: Okay so I know I am depressed (for about six months now). I finally admitted to it to my guidance counselor last Wednesday because she was concerned about my grades falling. Then I met with the school shrink who met with my mom who is supposed to get me a shrink but hasn't yet. She is bad at making appointments but she says she'll do it tomorrow.
As for right now, I am so lost. All weekend I've just been alone in my room. Online and watching tv. I try to do my work but I cant concentrate because of all the crap going on in my brain and my depression. I really want to try to do some work right now but I really just want to die. I've attempted suicide before but my mom and sister were so angry at me that I haven't again I've just been having suicidal thoughts but I feel like doing it for real right now. What can I do right now to help me hold on?!
Answers: Okay so I know I am depressed (for about six months now). I finally admitted to it to my guidance counselor last Wednesday because she was concerned about my grades falling. Then I met with the school shrink who met with my mom who is supposed to get me a shrink but hasn't yet. She is bad at making appointments but she says she'll do it tomorrow.
As for right now, I am so lost. All weekend I've just been alone in my room. Online and watching tv. I try to do my work but I cant concentrate because of all the crap going on in my brain and my depression. I really want to try to do some work right now but I really just want to die. I've attempted suicide before but my mom and sister were so angry at me that I haven't again I've just been having suicidal thoughts but I feel like doing it for real right now. What can I do right now to help me hold on?!
God has a plan for your life and suicide is not it. He loves you. Pray. (just talk to Him). 1 Peter 5:7 says you should cast all your cares on Him because He cares for you. Phlippians 4:6,7 says "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication,with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God and the peace of God which passes all understanding will keep your heart and mind through Christ Jesus." Try asking the Lord into your life. I did many years ago and He has helped me and blessed me a lot. Read the Bible (New Testament first). I'll pray for you.
I know your mom has to make the appointment-but show her how important it is to you. Nag if necessary. In the meantime, get out of the house more. Sitting alone in your room is only going to compound your depression. Get into an activity-stir up the juices. I know how your mom and sister felt when you attempted suicide. They must care about you if they could get that angry. Try writing down your feelings too. Play an active part in pulling yourself out of this depression. I know it cant feel good. Now-get on your mom to make that appointment and be honest with the therapist. I'm not saying that everything will fall into place, but at least you'll be doing something positive. One thing-never give up trying.
Try finding a local hotline in your area that you can call and talk this through with tonight until your Mom makes an appointment for you.
You need to see somebody who can start you on a program, with a therapist and possibly meds. Depression isn't easy and it can be worse this time of year. Find a good support system so even when you're alone you can call someone to talk it out with.
Just get help soon and be strong.