OCD hell..........?!
Question: I am visiting from the US. I will be going back shortly. Something happened the other night that has got me worried. I was feeling lonely the other night and went to a bar by myself. I think I had 6 or 7 beers and drove around (bars closed, I know I made an idiot choice). Anyway, I drove around, went to Tim Horton's and then home. My OCD will not let me move on. It's been a week and I'm not eating or sleeping wondering if I did something perverted and can't remember. First of all, can alcohol make you do something that you are dead set against? Another thing that is worrying me is I remember thinking (I'm a virgin) what if I let a whore just give me a ********. Surely I wouldn't get any kind of disease that way. I don't remember doing anything here and I am not out of any money (I added up my receipts from the night before with the money in my wallet). But, what if something somehow happened? I'm a virgin but what if I know have a disease because of something I can't remember. My final concern is, I got out of the house to try to get my mind off this hell and went to a hockey game. When I got there I sat down and was off in my own thoughts when I turned and noticed a guy glaring at me. I see this guy at all the hockey games and I remember seeing him at one of the bars on my night of stupidity. Anyway, he glared for quite a while and then stopped. What if I did something that night and can't remember. I am straight but what if somehow I am subconsciously gay and hit on him or worse? I am going out of my mind. Is this classic OCD or am I a whore loving perv? I'm about to go back to the states but am frozen in fear. What do you think? I don't know what I was thinking drinking and driving.
Chad Bauer
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Answers: I am visiting from the US. I will be going back shortly. Something happened the other night that has got me worried. I was feeling lonely the other night and went to a bar by myself. I think I had 6 or 7 beers and drove around (bars closed, I know I made an idiot choice). Anyway, I drove around, went to Tim Horton's and then home. My OCD will not let me move on. It's been a week and I'm not eating or sleeping wondering if I did something perverted and can't remember. First of all, can alcohol make you do something that you are dead set against? Another thing that is worrying me is I remember thinking (I'm a virgin) what if I let a whore just give me a ********. Surely I wouldn't get any kind of disease that way. I don't remember doing anything here and I am not out of any money (I added up my receipts from the night before with the money in my wallet). But, what if something somehow happened? I'm a virgin but what if I know have a disease because of something I can't remember. My final concern is, I got out of the house to try to get my mind off this hell and went to a hockey game. When I got there I sat down and was off in my own thoughts when I turned and noticed a guy glaring at me. I see this guy at all the hockey games and I remember seeing him at one of the bars on my night of stupidity. Anyway, he glared for quite a while and then stopped. What if I did something that night and can't remember. I am straight but what if somehow I am subconsciously gay and hit on him or worse? I am going out of my mind. Is this classic OCD or am I a whore loving perv? I'm about to go back to the states but am frozen in fear. What do you think? I don't know what I was thinking drinking and driving.
Chad Bauer
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chad,
i have ocd so i am tracking with you EXACTLY.
let me tell you what i think, based on all of my knowledge of OCD and its doubting quality, fear of losing control, fear of illness,....basic doubting onesself.
i think...you probably drank a bit too much, probably acted a fool at the bar, drove around( i dont know what hortons is) and came home. now your OCD is kickin.( did you know that alchohol exaserbates OCD?)
anyway, no you didnt do anything that you normally would have been adamantly against. and no you dont have any disease. just trust me on it ok?
enjoy the rest of your time away from home.
one good thing to tell yourself 1.STOP thinking like this
2. ill just have to take that chance( then carry on)
get some help when you get home ok? meds and therapy can do wonders.
all the best :)
Consult a doctor, and get yourself checked for STD's. Avoid the hockey for a fair while, and don't drink/drive!!! See section 7, at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris on OCD.