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Question: Hello, some of you may remeber my last question
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I was very scared and did end up taking another overdose, and took myself to A&E, and had a security guard posted on me until I promised the doctor that i wouldn't run away. Well they let me back out again, and just gave me some sleeping tablets that didn't work.
Well I the following day to the group assessment for a therapeutic community still wearing a hospital band. they turned me down saying I wasn't ready yet, but have to go to a prep group instead. I don't want to go back, as I was more honest than I had been before, and ended humiliating myself, because I thought they could help me, and they didn't and now I have to go through the assessment again. I don't know if I could put myself through that again. I feel low about this because every time I ask for help or am honest something bad happens, or I'm turned away.
Answers: Hello, some of you may remeber my last question
http://uk.answers.yahoo.com/question/ind...
I was very scared and did end up taking another overdose, and took myself to A&E, and had a security guard posted on me until I promised the doctor that i wouldn't run away. Well they let me back out again, and just gave me some sleeping tablets that didn't work.
Well I the following day to the group assessment for a therapeutic community still wearing a hospital band. they turned me down saying I wasn't ready yet, but have to go to a prep group instead. I don't want to go back, as I was more honest than I had been before, and ended humiliating myself, because I thought they could help me, and they didn't and now I have to go through the assessment again. I don't know if I could put myself through that again. I feel low about this because every time I ask for help or am honest something bad happens, or I'm turned away.
Mia, you have no idea how lucky you are to have even the possibility of getting into a therapeutic community, and the suggestion of the prep group, far from being a rejection, was pretty standard practice for many therapeutic communities. It requires commitment to participate in a therapeutic community and have it work for you, so the prep group is to help you and them decide if you're at the point where you could really benefit from it, and benefit the other people in it. Please, go to the prep group - it could be the turning point.
They really DO want to help you, but they know from experience that they cannot help you until you get to a certain point. I know how terrible and crushing it feels that you didn't get what you needed from the assessment, but if you can pick yourself up and get to the prep group and go through the next assessment, you could be on the road to something like recovery. Therapeutic communities are not a bed of roses, they require incredible integrity and hard work and willingness to experience what seems like humiliation on a daily basis at first...... but it will change. PLEASE give it a chance - it's so painful to know what you are going through, and to know how tantalisingly close the possibility of change is.
Right.....this may sound hard hearted....but if you want to commit suicide, why on earth aren't you thinking of the people you leave behind???????
It might solve your problems on this side of life, but creates so many more!! The people you leave behind find it hard to get over. If you want to leave them feeling guilty...then just do it!!
Now I know what I'm talking about....my brother-in-law did exactly this leaving a number of children and family behind. That was 10 yrs ago.....these children are still suffering all this time later....life is not the same for them. It probably never will be.
It was just a while before Christmas, with the burial just days before Christmas Day. So now every Christmas they all suffer the same quilty feelings.....should they celebrate Christmas or not!!
I'm sorry, but I feel those who commit suicide are cowards....leaving the rest of us to cope with life, when they do exactly as they want. Exit all their problems!!!!!!!!!
If you are feeling low (and believe me I've been as low as you can get!!) then you just have to believe in yourself!!
Now what I'm saying is you have to believe that when you are at the very lowest, that, that is the lowest you can get, you can only go up from there....and you do go up from there!!!!!
Suicide is not the way out.....9 times out of 10 it's just a cry for help.
Go back to your prep group....build your life and that's the start......be honest with them AND yourself!! Work your way back up....you can do it!!
Nothing bad will come of it...and you are NOT humiliating yourself.....it's a start, grab it with both hands, and for goodness sake, welcome life!!!!!!! xXx
Hunny I know what you mean, i'm the same age as you, i love in oregon though. I have overdosed so many times I can't even count. I have been hospitlized 4 times this year. Evertime I open up somthing always happends, then I feel at ground zero again. But I know where you coming from 100% I know how it feels like you have no support and not wanting to feel like a burden. This last time i was in the hospital, i did not even tell me bf because i did not want to put her though again. If you need to talk please feel free to e-mail i'm always on her, i will help you anyway i can. Please take care of your self. Be safe. I hope you have happy hoildays.