Anti-Hero Complex?!
Question: I have always felt a great evil inside of me. not a demon or something like that, but my own self.
I've been watching Smallvile lately, and Lex reminds me of myself in a lot of ways.
Ever since I was little, I felt like I was destined to go down the wrong path.
Like something I can't change.
I understand evil, and bad, but yet when I watch movies I'm always rooting for the villains, even when I think what their doing is wrong.
when I was a Christian I feared I would someday be the anti-Christ.
I don't ponder on these thoughts daily, but every once in awhile They come up.
It doesn't feel like I'll be a petty criminal, or a mass murder either, but it feels something large scale, something everyone would see as bad.
What are your views on this?
What do you think it means?
Answers: I have always felt a great evil inside of me. not a demon or something like that, but my own self.
I've been watching Smallvile lately, and Lex reminds me of myself in a lot of ways.
Ever since I was little, I felt like I was destined to go down the wrong path.
Like something I can't change.
I understand evil, and bad, but yet when I watch movies I'm always rooting for the villains, even when I think what their doing is wrong.
when I was a Christian I feared I would someday be the anti-Christ.
I don't ponder on these thoughts daily, but every once in awhile They come up.
It doesn't feel like I'll be a petty criminal, or a mass murder either, but it feels something large scale, something everyone would see as bad.
What are your views on this?
What do you think it means?
The more you think that something is wrong with you, the more it will become a reality. Try not to think about it, and if it does, try to think about why you want to be feared. Maybe childhood issues? I know whenever I watch a movie or play a game, the villians always seem so badass, but in reality, the nice guy finishes last :] I think everyone has that side of them, where they want to be "bad", but when I see people I used to hang out with that went down that road, they just seem pathetic. Learn to love life and don't worry too much!
This is just like when an alcoholic realizes after years of denial, "Oh sh*t! I may have a problem with booze."
Many people w/ antisocial tendencies (Bundy, Dawmer) knew early on that there was something wrong w/ the way they wer thinking.
If this is a REAL question becuz of dark thots that u may b having, then get counseling b4 u find yourself w/ a bunch o bodies in yer back yard.