Suicidal tendancies - anybody got them?!
Question: Sometimes I feel so helpless and so alone it feels like despair and the bottom keeps on dropping. Some days I will feel so happy I could kiss the moon, but then one comment from someone who should love me can set me on the path of thinking dark thoughts again. Logically, I know, I should just feel it out and let it pass... but it's hard to stay focussed on what I should do when I feel so "blurry" and non-real. I have thought about cutting myself or doing myself harm, but when it comes to the crunch, I never have the guts. And I hate myself even more for being without courage.
Does anybody else ever feel this way? How do you get rid of it? Or do you embrace it?
Answers: Sometimes I feel so helpless and so alone it feels like despair and the bottom keeps on dropping. Some days I will feel so happy I could kiss the moon, but then one comment from someone who should love me can set me on the path of thinking dark thoughts again. Logically, I know, I should just feel it out and let it pass... but it's hard to stay focussed on what I should do when I feel so "blurry" and non-real. I have thought about cutting myself or doing myself harm, but when it comes to the crunch, I never have the guts. And I hate myself even more for being without courage.
Does anybody else ever feel this way? How do you get rid of it? Or do you embrace it?
I think you need to seek professional help. Seems like you fluctuate between highs and lows and if it were me I would want to know whether it was a mild form of manic depressive illness - if it is then it can be fairly easily treated with lithium or similar medication.
I know what it feels like to be on the receiving end of hurtful remarks or criticisms and particularly when it comes from your family it is hard to deal with. Why you are like you are will be the net result of how you have been raised, or it could be an underlying medical condition.
Perhaps your self esteem has taken a tumble, in which case some therapy will be good for you but please don't feel that you are weak because you have resisted self-harm, in fact it is quite the opposite, you have shown strength and you need to continue to show strength because however low you feel now I can promise there will be good days ahead - and sure some more bad ones too, but that is life dear!
You need to surround yourself with positive people - yeah I know you cant choose your family but you can choose your friends, so take a look at your circle and see what changes you need to make.
Good luck and happy new year
Mark
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this happened to me a lot a couple of years ago. i didn't cause any self harm, but i did develop an eating disorder. so, now i see a a psychiatrist and she helped with the suicidal thoughts in addition to the anorexia. so, even though you are only having thoughts of cutting you should talk to someone before it gets worse. because the worse it gets, the harder it gets to tell somebody and get help and you could end up really hurting yourself.
I simply outgrew those feelings. I had them till I was in my mid twenties then they simply go away. Keep going just to see what kinda crap you have to deal with next. It worked for me.
Instead of harming myself without purpose I donated blood. It's quite the catharsis. Hey c'mon I'm being serious!
Hugs from me. I know how it is, depression is an illness, it can be dealt with using medication, you need strong family and friends that have an understanding, i think when you are out of a depressed state make sure that you let others know that you love and appreciate them and for there tolerance, it is just as hard for them as it is for you.
avoid things that will make you sad, but not possible to do all of the time, find what does make you happy, before or out of a depressed state,
think even about the decor of your house,
really really take the time to talk to someone about your worries and your frustrations
take time for your self and time to enjoy others company
and last of all here is another >>>>>>>>>>>>>>hug<<<<<<<<<<<<<
Mine aren't as bad as they used to be, but it lingers in the back of my mind kind of like a security blanket. My meds help a lot, but just knowing I need them pushes me a little bit closer. It sounds like you could benefit from some therapy, if nothing else. Generally derealization is based in anxiety, which can be helped greatly by therapy.
I have been there, i went to my dr. and she was totally understanding, she put me in touch with someone to talk to and medication that helps you through the tough times. you are not alone, alot of people go through depression and there is help, seek it, you will feel better. people care and love you, even if you don't think so.
I started by googling depression-to get the symptoms & i had them
See suicidal thoughts, and self harm, at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris in sections 5, and 16. Practice daily, and when needed, one of the relaxation methods in section 2, (read that section) 2c, or 11. "but it's hard to stay focussed on what I should do when I feel so "blurry" and non-real." at those times, gaze at your hands, without judging, for at least several minutes.
from when i was 16 i had these feelings.then the good days come and they pass.i always felt that i would hurt the ones who love me more[like your mother ,dad brothers and sisters]and if you truly love your family in your heart you just can't do it.my dear i was married for 25yrs when my wife divorced me i was devistated,i felt like iwanted out.a doctor told me it will pass go to church your god will see you thru this.if you got to make a life change by joinning a a religious group do so,go to a doctor.my daughter at 13 was a cutter,she went for therapy and all is fine now.it's not courage your lacking ,in your heart you love life.suicide is not an answer it's the end and not a good ending at that.
Try, always to give yourself something to look forward to, either short term or long term, such as going out for dinner with a friend, going to the cinema and planning a weekend break or a holiday. Share your problems with others, because that lightens the load. Stay as active and as busy as you can and don't give yourself time to get depressed. Get some pets, especially if you live alone, animals love to depend on humans and it's rewarding when they appreciate you - (cats are very therapeutic). Try to avoid depressing people and people that will take advantage of you. Go for gentle walks in the countryside and take up a leisurely sport such as cycling or swimming for fun. Most of all, stay positive and focused.
'Do not let the buggers grind you down'!
God bless you, and I hope you have a Happy New Year.
Hugs.Yes i had suicidal thoughts some time ago when i was 18.And most of the time was connected to love problems.But then when the life moved on and new love come then everything was sunshine.Recently i had those suicidal thoughts for a while again but i dismissed them very fast when i looked back and realised how much my life changed for better and that made me optimistic.Despite the fact i get depress very often same as you even from one bad word came from someone we love i am trying to be optimist.I think we have to consider ourself for lucky ,because look how much pain there is in that world.In some countries people don't have food,don't have where to live.There is wars and people kill them brothers and sisters.So every time when you feel depressed think about how much suffering there is in that world and concider youself for lucky you are not there.
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