Ugh. Just wanna end it.?!
Question: I have this like, depressed mood right now. I get it often. Why?: Because I feel like theres no point in life. I hate school, and I don't want to go to my next school cause I have no idea what kind of job I want to be stuck in for the rest of my life. I want to be a good guitarist, maybe get somewhere with that, but I jsut suck. i try so hard, but I don't seem to be getting any better. I just hate life. Its completely pointless. I feel like I want to die.
Answers: I have this like, depressed mood right now. I get it often. Why?: Because I feel like theres no point in life. I hate school, and I don't want to go to my next school cause I have no idea what kind of job I want to be stuck in for the rest of my life. I want to be a good guitarist, maybe get somewhere with that, but I jsut suck. i try so hard, but I don't seem to be getting any better. I just hate life. Its completely pointless. I feel like I want to die.
First of all, don't smoke pot that just makes it worse and I am speaking from experiece. Try talking to a professional. You may have a chemical imbalance and some type of medication will fix that. As far as not knowing what you want to do, don't worry about it. I did not figure that out until I was 26. The good thing about college is there are so many basic classes you have to take that it gives you time to figure out what you are interested in. As far as guitar goes, try finding a new source to learn from. You may need to find a new mentor or stop trying to self learn. Life is not pointless. It may be pointless right now at this moment in time but that does not mean it will be that way forever.
It's a quasi normal feeling. You just have to find a vice. Mine is video games. Nothing makes me feel better than coming home and killing a bunch of people in CoD4 or Halo 3. Life's not great, but I forget about everything when i immerse myself in the on-line world. I also can forget everything when i watch movies.
You also might like to try med's. Paxil, Zoloft, or Welbutrin XL might help you get a little bit of sunshine in your life. You will find that it is much easier to get through the day with artificial happiness. You will probably even be more productive. You might enjoy learning how to play the guitar.
If you really want to learn how to play the guitar, buy those Esteban videos. They really help a lot.
The reason video games don't do a thing for you is because you haven't found the right video game. There are video games out there for everyone. If you like music, try Guitar Hero 3, Rock Band, or Dance Dance Revolution. A lot of non gamers love these titles.
Last case sceneraio.
When life is completely down and you really are thinking about ending it. And you refuse to get help. Try smoking pot. It will balance you out. It isn't the best idea, but it is better than suicide. It is certainly better than alcohol. You get more depressed on alcohol, and more irrational too. You are more likely to do something stupid on alcohol. So if you drink, you need to quit now. Put down the bottle and pick up a joint. Even if you still feel depressed, you will be too lazy to do anything drasctic. You will lose all motivation to kill yourself. You will be like " I'll do it tomorrow."
listen to "just give it time" by jon mclaughlin.
hang in there!
hey look at my page and send me an email or something. I know I can help you!!!
for this depressed mood, have you tried talking to anyone about it? a school counselor? friends? teachers--adults you can trust?
how much time have you given this whole guitar thing?
are you just into guitars or music in general? maybe there's another instrument that you're better at if you don't think you're getting better at guitar?
life isn't completely pointless. it's supposed to be about fun and experience. would you ever consider being a teacher?
what other interests do you have?
I'm sure you'll be able to find something else that you're just as interested in.
good luck! : )
You sound just like me.
I'm 16, a musician who's trying hard, and feels that school is pointless.
It sucks, but you kind of just have to go with it. Although certain times suck, there are times in your life that can make you the happiest person alive, and those are the ones that are worth living for.
Please, i/m me on Yahoo messenger (somesayxo) or AIM (at245am) if you need to talk.
You have described depression perfectly. The good news is that it's treatable. Please go find a doctor and describe the symptoms so you can get some medication to assist you.
I promise you will begin to feel better if you do this.
It's extremely important that you follow up on this, because suicide is "a permanent solution to a temporary problem." This trite saying is very true. Please do not delay. If you have someone you trust who can go with you, use that helper, but even if not, just go, please.
And then, if you could, would you be good enough to write back here later and let us know you are OK? I am serious. I will be thinking of you and wishing you well.
dont give up, you must deal with whatever life throws at you, and not to be afraid of it even though it can be a little frightening looking into the future. try your hardest, and trust me, you will succeed. just dont give up.
(the point in life is to enjoy it)
God loves you and does not want you to kill yourself. talk to your parents / school / doctors / any other adult, but please get checked out by some doctor so you can get help. you are a human and GOD has plans for your life. please learn to love yourself and brace life as a challenge and you will win and overcome any and all obstacles. good luck. hang in there and let us know you are doing okay.
The secret is simple: Never, Never Give Up. Things will turn up to be fine as soon as the most boring part of your life is over. Just wait and see!!! It is very normal to get depressed once in a while especially when your not a small child anymore but you are not a grown up yet either. Be patient. Do everything the right way. The rewards will be awesome.
I know where you are coming from. I've been extremely depressed too lately (recently failed two classes in school, having rough times at work, started fighting with my mom again) and it feels as if the world is coming down on me as well.
In fact, the other day I went into work and saw they gave me the same assignment they've been giving me for weeks now (and I get constantly ratted on and complained about and at because of the way I do it) and without another thought I just walked out of my job and went somewhere else. I had a total blackout. It was a miracle I was able to find somewhere to go and someone called concerned for me.
I hated school too. I got picked at on a daily basis. In fact even in college I get a few rats who have a problem with me for God knows what reason. What's kept me around is spirituality. Yes, it sounds cliche'. But why don't you try reading some of Sylvia Browne's books, especially regarding Journey Of The Soul Series, Lessons For Life and Life On The Other Side. They are beautifully written books and offer some hope and insight to things you never thought possible and makes life worth living and gives it a point. (Yes I know I'm going to get comments about her validity but if nothing else she does teach some very good lessons).
I want to write, I'm good at it but being a college student I have no degree, having a hard time getting my degree because I'm required to take classes I suck in (a.k.a the evil gremlin known as math), I have a mother that I still to this day have a hard time standing up to, I can't get a good date for the life of me, and I have a hard time relating to my family or people my own age.
There's times I feel like I don't want to live anymore but I know taking the "easy way out" solves nothing. I'm sure there are people in your life who love you dearly (no man or woman is an island, there's always somebody out there who loves you whether you realize it or not). Think about how depressed and hurt they'd feel if you were gone. Think about the opportunities you'll miss, and I know it seems far away, but that "years from now where you can look back", it will come for you. It did for me years later after a particularly hellacious sophomore year in high school.
My prayers and blessings are with you. Don't lose hope. Clear your mind and guidance and direction will come. :-) Smile.