I sabotage myself?!
Question: my default is paralysis with fear - social situations - i've dated but still don't know why because I can't open up to anyone anyway - it is always traumatic being around people, feel stupid and like i need to prove something to exist - what people would consider normal societal relationships with people strike terror in me, have all my life - I used to deal with it by being drunk but I quit that - so now I opt to isolate just on my own - i've tried being social but it is just too exhausting - for anything more than maybe an hour
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Answers: my default is paralysis with fear - social situations - i've dated but still don't know why because I can't open up to anyone anyway - it is always traumatic being around people, feel stupid and like i need to prove something to exist - what people would consider normal societal relationships with people strike terror in me, have all my life - I used to deal with it by being drunk but I quit that - so now I opt to isolate just on my own - i've tried being social but it is just too exhausting - for anything more than maybe an hour
I like pho
It sounds like you have social anxiety disorder, but I'm not an MD, so you would have to see a professional to be properly diagnosed. I think you should definitely consider seeking help from a licensed professional. You've already made the first step by realizing that you have a problem! So you're definitely on the right track. There are actually alot of people with this disorder to varying degrees, so don't feel like you are a freak or something.
get help.
well, you may be a classic introvert, but it sounds like it is having a really negative effect on your life and happiness. as if you have moved on, into social anxiety, maybe even social phobia. You will need a therapist or counselor to help you with this - you can't get out of it by will power alone.
get help...and pray