My cocaine vs. My family?!
Question: alot of stuff has been going down in my family, and the fact that i have been a cocaine user for about 4years is hitting me hard. the fact is im completely addicted, but unfortunately i can keep it under wraps, unfortunate because nobody can find out and help me. i was recently using crack cocaine, but my wife basically said if u dont stop we're done and im taking the kids. i was able to quit somehow because her responce hit me hard. but the coke, i can somehow control and not have it noticed. i really really want to be able to say i need to quit and get back to my family, but deep down, its hard for me to realize whether i want the coke or family more. i know which one is obvious, the famliy, BUT I JUST CANT STOP. i need help but i cant bring myself to get it
Answers: alot of stuff has been going down in my family, and the fact that i have been a cocaine user for about 4years is hitting me hard. the fact is im completely addicted, but unfortunately i can keep it under wraps, unfortunate because nobody can find out and help me. i was recently using crack cocaine, but my wife basically said if u dont stop we're done and im taking the kids. i was able to quit somehow because her responce hit me hard. but the coke, i can somehow control and not have it noticed. i really really want to be able to say i need to quit and get back to my family, but deep down, its hard for me to realize whether i want the coke or family more. i know which one is obvious, the famliy, BUT I JUST CANT STOP. i need help but i cant bring myself to get it
two quick observations
1. you personalized cocaine by calling it "my cocaine" and
2. you put it before your family in a sentence, it's obvious you've done the same thing in life.
most people will say get help. I will say this. Get some self control and show some will power. If your family really means that much to you, you'd quit cold turkey. Rehab is for *******.
crack is wack!
Obviously you need help, whether it be from your doctor or some sort of psychiatrist. Imagine how you would feel if one of your kids got ahold of your stash and overdosed? You have a huge issue that you need to take control of immediately.
Goodluck.
Go to rehab man. Good Luck. <3
rehab man its the only way. your new life will be spendt with exaddicts party time is over. no other way.
Cocaine is a serious addiction. You may need some help getting off it. I would look up addictions in the yellow pages. Many are free or your work may have a program for you. I wish you the best of luck on this long road!
Go to a rehab center. Do it for your kids. I grew up in a home with substance abuse and to be very honest--you will scar your children for the rest of thier lives. In ways you cant even imagine. You have to stop!!! I know there are things my mother felt that I will never understand during her addiction but there are also things my sister and I endured that we should never have had to at very young ages. The repercussions are still here today, many many years later. get help
either commit to a life on the run, living in dark, damp, ugly places doing things with dark, damp, ugly people that when you where a child would have horrified you....or....seek help from a clinic, hospital, there are free ones from the state, just walk into any E.R. at the hospital and ask for help getting into treatment. Then your life can be what you imagined it might be as a child. It's only up to you.
Dude you are just going to stand up and be a man and admit that you have the problem. Then go to into rehab for your kids and wife. They are way more important then any drug. You dont want your kids growing up knowing that they have a Dad that is addicted to an illegal drug. So you need to go and just got to decide do you want a happy family. Or do you want to keep using. You need like an intervention.
I don't really know what to say but I have to say something; you must stop no matter how hard it is. Find the support and help you need to overcome the addiction and you will survive if you really want to stop. Your family should be the most important thing in this world. Do it for them.
Helooooo Loser! If you really wanted help you wouldn't be here asking us all OBVIOUSLYYYYYY (great word) you care about the Coke sp move on and leave your family in peace they don't need you Once a crackhead always a crackhead and with that goes all sense and reasoning as you know but it doesn't matter does it? I feel sorry for the kids not your wife she is an enabler or she would have left long ago!
Three words: Rehab And Church =) Good Luck Man!
Then stay out until you lose the most precious thing to you, your life. I was married to a crack addict. His addiction cost him his family, job, home, vehicle, and finally his health. He is having severe health problems. His children have missed their father, I missed my husband. He was my soul mate. He has cleaned up and been straight/clean for quite a while. I wouldn't give him a chance until he cleaned himself up. Go to an NA meeting, get a sponsor, go to rehab. If you aren't willing to stop, you will die, go to jail or both. Only you can do this for yourself. Make a decision and stick to that. You are weak now but you will be stronger for the conflicts you face.
Good Luck.
You really need some help...that is the "coke" talking when you say you don't know which you want more. Try and go to some N.A .meetings.(narcotics Anonymous) They have them in every town ,generally held in churches,but,not always.
At least that will be a start and you can talk to people that have been where you are now. Good Luck
get counseling for your addiction. It might be good to involve your entire family so they hear you also. Rehab is another alternate but DO something before it's too late.
You said it in your statement.
Is it worth losing your kids???
Cocaine you can quit with enormous self control and I am sure if your wife saw you were serious and taking a very proactive role she would most likely be supportive as its no fun living with someone who puts drugs before life.
Good luck , hope you make the right decision...
It has been my experience: you have to want it. Not for your kids. Not for your wife. Or any other reason. You believe that you have this "under control". Until you can realize that you are powerless over the drugs, you're never going to find recovery. My suggestion is to call Cocaine Anonymous or Narcotics Anonymous. Find a meeting, preferably a beginners meeing. Just listen if that's all you can do. Raise your hand and let them know that you don't know if you are an addict. That may be really hard and that's OK. If you can't, grab someone after the meeting and simply introduce yourself and let them know that it's your first meeting. I promise you that's all you have to do. The rest will fall into place. I believe that only an addict can understand another addict. good luck!
the best thing for u to do is go to rehab