I have suicidal tendencies, i don't want to be put away?!


Question: But i'm afraid if i tell anyone they will put me in a mental home. Usually they are spur of the moment and i swear if i had a gun i would already be dead. I have tried to hang myself, i've overdosed on pills, i harm myself frequently to deter my mind away from the pain. I'll punch something until i break a knuckle, or i will make myself bleed until i am too weak to tell i'm even alive. I feel so stupid for all of my actions and i keep it hidden as best as i can. I've been getting stress rashes all over my body that have been open bloody welts for years from me scratching them when i'm upset. For the first time in 13 years i'm going to the doctor. I know they are going to find my self injuries all over, and it's going too embarrassing for me to handle a response to. I don't know what to do here???


Answers: But i'm afraid if i tell anyone they will put me in a mental home. Usually they are spur of the moment and i swear if i had a gun i would already be dead. I have tried to hang myself, i've overdosed on pills, i harm myself frequently to deter my mind away from the pain. I'll punch something until i break a knuckle, or i will make myself bleed until i am too weak to tell i'm even alive. I feel so stupid for all of my actions and i keep it hidden as best as i can. I've been getting stress rashes all over my body that have been open bloody welts for years from me scratching them when i'm upset. For the first time in 13 years i'm going to the doctor. I know they are going to find my self injuries all over, and it's going too embarrassing for me to handle a response to. I don't know what to do here???

It sounds like you are going to see a doctor for something other than your suicidal issues and that you don't want the doctor to know that you are having psychological problems.

If that is the case, then I can relate to your situation. I don't think that it is uncommon for a person to try to hide their psychological problems and try to deal with them by themselves. I did this for years and years until I reached an all time low that I just couldn't pull myself out of.

Please don't be embarrassed to tell your doctor about your problems, they are trained to help you or refer you to another doctor who can.

I was very nervous to go to my first psychiatric appointment and had an anxiety attack right in her office. I was terrified of being sent to a psyc. ward. As it turned out, she just prescribed me some anti-depressants and I was amazed at how fast and how well they worked.

If you have depression, it is not your fault, it is just a chemical imbalance of seratonin in your brain. My doctor told me that if a person has diabetes they take medication for it and there is no need to be embarrassed about it. The same is true for people with depression. It is an illness that they did not ask for and did not bring upon themselves by their own negligence.

i know how you feel its good to get all that off your chest if you need someone to talk to you can email me i am going throught the exact same thing right now i don't feel comfortable discussing it over yahoo answers so if you need to talk just email me at mklinowski@yahoo.com don't worrie everything is going to be ok i promise

EASY!!!!!!! You are seeing a doctor and that is a HUGE step!! Remember your symptoms are the same as OTHERS too.....it may not be a HUGE population of others but DOCTORS have seen it and MOST are there to HELP you get well......Why be embarrassed? It is something horrible that is happening to you and you are SEEKING HELP.....everything else will be much easier once you start talking to the MD.......tell him your fears though.....GOD BLESS!

If you can't tell anybody, why tell us?
Your doctor will NOT do anything.
Never.
S/he CANNOT break patient doctor confidentiality unless you out-right say "I'm going to kill myself tonight."


And you never know. A hospital may be the best thing for you.
I've been in one and I met the nicest, most supportive people EVER. It's a place to sleep and not be judged.

The best thing you can do is admit that you are feeling how you are feeling. Tell your doctor. They wont nessassaraly lock you up. And if they do want you to spend time in a ward it would only be to make sure that you are safe while they find the right antidepressent that will make you feel less like ending your life. The best thing you can do for yourself is seek help. Someone to talk to when you're feeling life is pointless.

Go get some medication, youre severely depressed. Dont worry about being put away-- just go talk to your doctor and get on some medication, youll have to try different ones till you feel better. Trust me its better than the alternative, and they wont put you away. You have to do some pretty fked up **** to get put in a nut house, so just get on meds before you do something crazy.

Don't be embarrassed. That fact that you are tying to find help is a good sign. Sometimes you can't do it all by yourself. We all need help from time to time. Seeing a doctor is the next best step.

Let the doctor know what is going on with you. You need to talk to someone who is qualified to help you understand why you want to do these things to yourself. You need someone who is going to be objective and who will listen to you and what you have to say.

Even if you have to go stay in a hospital who's to say it's forever. You may need that to get away from some of the negative influences in your life. A lot of people put themeselves into hospitals until they can get better. Once you get some help might see that life is not so bad afterall.

Hello. :) Taking the step to go to the doctor is fantastic. You best bet is to be honest with him. If you want to keep some things to yourself, this is fine, but anything irrelevant doesn't need to be said. He doesn't need to know every detail of your life if you feel uncomfortable talking, ( but it's okay if you want to talk to him a lot) but he needs to know enough to determine how he can help you. Don't hold anything important back and don't pretend to be someone you aren't because you are afraid of what he will say or do.

I think it would be beneficial if you were to talk to a therapist of some sorts, however you want to label it. For me, it's always felt good to talk to someone about how I feel and what I think, because I can get positive and useful feedback and opinions. Or I can just rant.. lol. If you choose to follow this path as well, the best thing you can do is to keep in mind that you won't like every therapist you meet, so don't give up hen you find someone you don't like, because you'll eventually find someone who you feel comfortable with, and give it some time. I've been through so many, it's crazy.. but there's nothing wrong with it. :) If you have access to one and can afford one, you should take advantage of it. You can't lose anything. I wish that I had taken advantage of the times when I was able to go talk to someone, is why i say that.

everyone has their demons - everyone has something they want to hide, cover up, pretend never happened.. but it's life, and life isn't changing - no matter what, don't hit yourself up for it, because maybe not everyone is having things happen in the way they are to you, but everyone trips on stairs sometimes and no one should ever look down on someone's mistakes, especially when they are trying to seek guidance (doctor) - Everyone has their black clouds.

I am Catholic, and I find that praying helps me - For years I never prayed, but I find it helps greatly. Meditation may work too - I do not know your beliefs, nor do I cast judgement on what they are if they differ from mine - i recognize that no one is the same as the person beside them and everyone should be respected for the individual person that they are.

I really hope that your visit goes well! I don't know if I could necessarily help you but i'm open to sharing my experiences and listening to your thoughts and ideas; if you wanted to talk further, my email is shetiger21@hotmail.com and that's my msn messenger too.

They don't put you away in a mental home if you are suicidal. They give you medication so you can cure it.

I'd strongly suggest you talk to your doctor about this honestly. Remember that everything you tell your doctor is confidential, and doctors see this type of thing a lot more frequently than you think. Every doctor sees 2 or 3 of these cases during their career at least, so it's nothing unusual. You should get a referral to a reputable psychiatrist so you can get the proper medication and get this cleared up. It's not worth it to live like this for the rest of your life just because you were too embarrassed to ask for help.

Good luck with everything, and feel free to email me if you have further questions or need someone to talk to.

BEFORE you try the doctor ( and something must be tried) go to an acupuncturist, (highly recommended) a church group, a priest, a self help group (or start one), co-counselling, a regular activity that is lighthearted, emotional freedom therapy, other alternative therapies ( there are plenty of them do some research) examine what you need in your life on a physical, emotional, and spiritual level and take steps towards realising them, take up an emotionally expressive hobby such as poetry, art, photography. Make sure you get out into the beauty of nature on a regular basis, with others would be best. Dont buy a gun. Dont put yourself in the way of temptation, even mentally. In a bad moment, discipline yourself to think of and count 10 blessings in your life, however small,however long it takes to think of something. Talk to the Samaritans or equivalent, you don't have to be in a suicidal moment to do so. In the UK they are the only helpline that is 100% confidential. The source of these types of problems you experience are usually emotional, past emotional trauma perhaps and lack of love, so try and be loving towards yourself aswell as lookng towards types of therapies etc. and activities that will help emotional release of the pain. Try to cultivate confidence in the future. Any action you take may well take some time to bear fruit. Try and be patient and stick with it. You are probably a sensitive person with many talents, worthy of the best in life. Whatever you decide to do action needs to be taken to help yourself. Don't put it off.





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