Am I insane?!
Question: at night when I'm about to go to sleep I always get mad, because I realize how much I've been disrespected when I am a very respectful person, and constantly fantasize about killing those who have disrespected me,today I sat there and I thought to myself... Who in here has disrespected me? Who in here was not welcoming at all when I was new at school? and more then 80% of the class was on my to kill list. I dont give a damn about the people I hate and I really hope for bad things to happen to them. I am always getting mad at myself, I usually look at myself in the mirror and wanna punch the mirror, because I hate the guy I see in the reflection. I recently realized I may need help and decided to find the Lord and o he has helped me, but sometimes there are people that make me so mad I forgot the God I recently got connected with, and go back to my own hateful self... What is wrong with me.. I hate myself and hate many others.. Do u think the Lord will help me or am i mentally ill?
Answers: at night when I'm about to go to sleep I always get mad, because I realize how much I've been disrespected when I am a very respectful person, and constantly fantasize about killing those who have disrespected me,today I sat there and I thought to myself... Who in here has disrespected me? Who in here was not welcoming at all when I was new at school? and more then 80% of the class was on my to kill list. I dont give a damn about the people I hate and I really hope for bad things to happen to them. I am always getting mad at myself, I usually look at myself in the mirror and wanna punch the mirror, because I hate the guy I see in the reflection. I recently realized I may need help and decided to find the Lord and o he has helped me, but sometimes there are people that make me so mad I forgot the God I recently got connected with, and go back to my own hateful self... What is wrong with me.. I hate myself and hate many others.. Do u think the Lord will help me or am i mentally ill?
I had quite similar feelings when I was 15. This is a very large amount of hostility, and it will probably spill over into your life unless you tackle it head on. I'd go to an ER and tell them you want to kill others and yourself, and that you have a plan. This will get you admitted. Usually the inpatient treatment is brief, but you can go to outpatient treatment after that, and hopefully someone will give you meds to help calm you down.
Don't suffer with this alone.
i didn't read it but yes
You're not insane, you