How can i get over feeling like my lifes being controlled by people unseen/ unkn!
Question: i know it sounds mad / far out but please, hear me out :
im 30 years old, ive been extremely unfortunate in my life so far, suffered a great deal of trauma that i can confidently say not many people would've survived.
every year thats passed by since the age of 15 has been filled with misery, dispair, trauma, & this is no exageration.
i was sexually abused as a kid, bullied ' throughout secondary /high school '...suffered assaults / head injury...been homeless....been in a psychiatric hospital...just a little summary.
ive never been employed, never had a girlfriend..or partner....never made a single friend...don't have qualifications etc.
every person ive made contact with on the internet so far has always ended up rejecting me...ive had the net for 2 years...never maintained a single friendship....most girls reject me through the social network sites, dating sites etc.
where i live in england, everywhere i go i see hoodies, gangs of intimidating youths.
Answers: i know it sounds mad / far out but please, hear me out :
im 30 years old, ive been extremely unfortunate in my life so far, suffered a great deal of trauma that i can confidently say not many people would've survived.
every year thats passed by since the age of 15 has been filled with misery, dispair, trauma, & this is no exageration.
i was sexually abused as a kid, bullied ' throughout secondary /high school '...suffered assaults / head injury...been homeless....been in a psychiatric hospital...just a little summary.
ive never been employed, never had a girlfriend..or partner....never made a single friend...don't have qualifications etc.
every person ive made contact with on the internet so far has always ended up rejecting me...ive had the net for 2 years...never maintained a single friendship....most girls reject me through the social network sites, dating sites etc.
where i live in england, everywhere i go i see hoodies, gangs of intimidating youths.
You have a very negative personality. Acceptable, given what you went through as a youngster. Get on some meds and you might find that you'll become more amicable to others. Geographic relocation combined w/ the correct meds might allow you to reinvent yourself.
Sounds like it's time to take yourself seriously and find a bit of introspection. You're too old to be living an empty life. Please get some help. And, trust me, you're not alone. Help is out there, all you have to do is find it.
Good luck, God bless.
i know this sounds insensitive but, you sound as if you are suffering with clinical paranoia. see your doctor, and ask for advice.
you've suffered more than anyone i know, so i think you've done really well to be so honest.
my prayers for you.