How can I dig myself out of this emotional hole?!
Question: I have been really depressed over the last few years of my life. I have always had a somewhat sad disposition, but it has never been this bad before. I've been in several relationships with people who cheated on me and about a year ago I found out my longtime friend was sleeping with the man I loved. I haven't quite recovered since then. What makes it worse is that many of my other "friends" kept the secret for her. I feel so angry and betrayed. I really don't feel like I can trust anyone and have isolated myself. I pray for the ability to forgive them everyday and sometimes I think I have, but I really feel crippled in life. I feel so hurt and unworthy. I try my best to be a good person and a good friend, but it never fails that I get trampled on. I have no one to talk to and I feel like nobody really cares about me. Everyday I think about committing suicide and each day becomes a little harder to live, a little harder to get up and keep going. Somebody help me please
Answers: I have been really depressed over the last few years of my life. I have always had a somewhat sad disposition, but it has never been this bad before. I've been in several relationships with people who cheated on me and about a year ago I found out my longtime friend was sleeping with the man I loved. I haven't quite recovered since then. What makes it worse is that many of my other "friends" kept the secret for her. I feel so angry and betrayed. I really don't feel like I can trust anyone and have isolated myself. I pray for the ability to forgive them everyday and sometimes I think I have, but I really feel crippled in life. I feel so hurt and unworthy. I try my best to be a good person and a good friend, but it never fails that I get trampled on. I have no one to talk to and I feel like nobody really cares about me. Everyday I think about committing suicide and each day becomes a little harder to live, a little harder to get up and keep going. Somebody help me please
Oh, man. So sorry. There's nothing worse than being truly depressed, completely hopeless, and feeling like you're just sinking more into isolation and hopelessness. I think at this point, the little things are going to count to help you out of this, and more importantly, WANT to get out of this.
You need to realize the thoughts that are going through your head, and the words you are saying to yourself. Really be aware of yourself, and be aware of the actions you are doing. You need to keep on saying that you are going to get out of this, that you CAN, and will. believe you will. imagine the kind of life you want, and know you will have that. make small goals, that you can do now. go outside more, even if only for a few minutes in the morning. try doing a positive thing for yourself (start excercising, stop smoking, eating better etc), to make you realize you're worth living, that you are worth something. see a therapist, you need to talk this out, and have someone to help you see clearly (depression breeds distortion). Also, to help you pick men better. Were your parents unfaithful? Your father, perhaps? You're probably attracted to men who cheat on you, and don't make you feel very good, right? If you meet another man you feel absolutely crazy/lustful about, you can probably trust that he's not a good man for you. find men who are healthy, and can accept intimacy/commitment, and who will nurture you, physically, verbally, emotionally, etc.
Think about a life where you have new people - friends who care about you, a non-abusive lover, a contented life doing the things you want to do. good luck.
some people are cruel. we try to trust people and then we get screwed. and everytime we get screwed it gets harder and harder. if you want to talk i'm on aim now. my screename is TheBTPYoda
depression can take over your life very easily but you have goals and dreams that you need to go for as far as your friends go we all make mistakes and you cant always take them back you need to get out and do things you enjoy life is short to short and you need to think of the good not the negative and you probley schould see a therapist where suicide is in your mind but thats not the way to go because there is someone waiting for your help and understanding there is a reason your here your personal life will get better seek the help
I am in the same position 4 sure. Add me to your friends and maybe we can chat sometime. I can relate a lot!