I need help. Suicide?!
Question: Obviously, I can not put everything in my mind into yours to understand how I feel. My parents are completely embarassed and disapointed of me. I'm fifteen and I have gotten two parafanalia charges in the last month, the most recent one today at school, it was my foil they found. Anyways, it's not that I dont like the way I look or totally hate myself. I just don't think I can handle this. I don't think my parents should be having to go through any of this, and I blame myself. I'm not counting on facing my stepdad tonight. If I don't kill myself now, its about a 99 percent chance I will after that.
Answers: Obviously, I can not put everything in my mind into yours to understand how I feel. My parents are completely embarassed and disapointed of me. I'm fifteen and I have gotten two parafanalia charges in the last month, the most recent one today at school, it was my foil they found. Anyways, it's not that I dont like the way I look or totally hate myself. I just don't think I can handle this. I don't think my parents should be having to go through any of this, and I blame myself. I'm not counting on facing my stepdad tonight. If I don't kill myself now, its about a 99 percent chance I will after that.
you can handle a lot more than you think you can. you should consider also that putting your parents through this is nothing compared to how they will feel if you do what you are thinking about. ask for help, from any one you feel safe enough to ask. by asking this question you have shown a will to survive this. your thoughts of suicide are probably just because you are more scared of the other options. take some time to think about everyone who loves you and what possible solutions there are to you problem and compare them to the finality of ending your life. you can get through this wand when you have you will feel good because you were strong enough to. and you are, you just don't know it yet. i have done a lot of things in my life i never thought i could do, until i did them, everyone does. good luck
Also, I did get diagnosed for depression/anxiety about two weeks ago, and have started taking meds. Report It
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