How can i get over my life is complete garbage and turned out nothing like i wan!
Question: im a 30 year old bpd sufferer, i live alone, on sickness benifit, never been employed...never studied or gained qualifications......never had a spouse or girlfriend....never made any friends.....i have extreme low self esteem due to all the bullying i suffered.
i have missed out big time.
i feel hopeless, worthless, directionless...unworthy of others....
i feel angry, embittered, resentful, jealous of other people lives and their happiness......angry and aggressive that ive missed out
iam slightly overweight....bald...aged in the face...dark lines under eyes...2 missing teeth...torn ankle ligaments in my ankle that need surgery....being tested for diabetes because ive been thirsty alot as of late....i have a crooked little finger...damaged nerves in my right knuckle.
honestly what is there to be happy about ?
i have a criminal (minor) and mental health record...no employment history....no direction.
my only goals is to move back to europe, build a new life, but as you can see
Answers: im a 30 year old bpd sufferer, i live alone, on sickness benifit, never been employed...never studied or gained qualifications......never had a spouse or girlfriend....never made any friends.....i have extreme low self esteem due to all the bullying i suffered.
i have missed out big time.
i feel hopeless, worthless, directionless...unworthy of others....
i feel angry, embittered, resentful, jealous of other people lives and their happiness......angry and aggressive that ive missed out
iam slightly overweight....bald...aged in the face...dark lines under eyes...2 missing teeth...torn ankle ligaments in my ankle that need surgery....being tested for diabetes because ive been thirsty alot as of late....i have a crooked little finger...damaged nerves in my right knuckle.
honestly what is there to be happy about ?
i have a criminal (minor) and mental health record...no employment history....no direction.
my only goals is to move back to europe, build a new life, but as you can see
Use your isolation as an opportunity, and use your frustration as a motivator. Look into self-improvement and you can change your whole life.
Regardless of your physical condition, you can do Meditation, and that goes for Yoga too. These are time-tested methods of turning a life around.
Just do it, and when you start noticing improvements, you will know what you are to do with the rest of your life.
That kind of Spiritual growth is the highest goal anyway.... so why not use your situation to go for the highest first.
There are a number of links on this website and a book or two that may help you. The first on the list is especially interesting and helpful
ok, bad start to your life. I understand,
But who said you need qualifacations to do EVERYTHING?
What did you want to be as a child? Where did you want to go? Well , try getting there and being that person. A hard start only gets better! ;)
You have not been cheated out of anything. You are where you are because you are lazy, stupid and made bad choices in life. Blaming others is a sorry excuse for a lousy life, Get off your fat *** and get back in the game.
alli i hear is negatives, wheres the postives?? u and only u can sort your life out why do u feel angry?? whats stopping you from going to a pub to meet people ?? whats stopping you from going to college
i have a really bad ctiminal record and yes i wanted to kill myself but someone told me to stop feeling sorry for myself and to get my **** out of bed and start taking control of my life.
so u have a mental health problem??? i havent had one i know but u have good and bad days ask your c.p.n for a support worker,
thats what i am u do sound like u need to stop feeling sorry for yourself and to get out there.
You may read this and think u the hell does this guy think he is? u need people to tell u to get out and sort your life out and u know how to do that.
im not going to say i feel sorry for you cause i dont as ive gone through the stuff u have but prob worse.
I am sorry that you feel so sorry for yourself...but you have no right to assume that you have it worse than anyone out there...we ll have problems and things that have been laid in our path ...its how you chooose to deal with them...and you sir would rather ask the same rap over and over just to get it out there so some one that has not heard your sad story will feel sorry for you...get over it ...maybe you would like to step in my shoes for a while...
life is what you make of it....you will never get the answer you want or the one that you need to hear on here...you reject any kind of contrctive critisism...as people wanting to belittle you or come down on you or that they have some kind of personal agenda against you...
go fix yourself we cant do it for you..sorry for being so forward but DAMM IT MAN.....
OK.
You sound precisely like my friend 1:1.
So, first of all know that that's bpd that make you feel all the bad things about yourself. It's not you, it's disease. As every disease it has it's recovering path.
I have only suggestions, since they worked for my friend and it worked better than HE expected.
Don't know much about diabetes, but you must avoid the candy loads by all means ( they kind of make you feel better on your lows but in fact they do not. My friend used to eat bags of them saying : Oh, they make me feel SO MUCH better) keep your crisis candy in pocket, if it's really diabetes. You better munch on fruits.
Galons of tea (especially green tea will help not only keep sugar in control, but also will help you with your weight problem). it may take up to 2-3 months to start seing the results, But it's nothing compare to what you are going to acomplish :)
I also notice that ou are blaming yourself. It's just such a waste of energy. You are not only the meat you think you are. There is mind, soul, heart. use your anger to lift fallen trees (go volunteer in your area).
I know, you think, there is a guy who has never had depression or bpd. No, I haven't. But I also never pityed my friend. I look at this disease as fricking trouble, so i look for all possible ways to find it's core and I deal with it.
You also should approach it as disease, and start somewhere.
let's say, write a plan that for all coming months, no metter how terrible you feel, you will brush your teeth in the morning ( yu see, I know what you are talking about - it feels impossible, that such tiny tasks would ask for any effort, but it does) so do that. remind yourself that you DID that, and if you were able to do that, you can do more - in a month add another chore - say, take a shower everyday.
I'm not lying, this how I had to work to dragg my friend out of desperation.
Small, constant steps, It is hard, but you can do that.
How about, let's talk more tommorow - call yourself 30 year old bpd recoverer ,and I will know, it's you.
Promise to write back, my word..
We all have deficiencies ,but that doesn't mean your a loser .Try counting your blessings .You could be in a wheel chair ,or bedridden or blind ,ect.