Im so deppressed i dont even wanna live anymore?!
Question: i dont know where to start im 15 and my life is so screwed up last year i had to quit school b/c of my anxitey and hopeing it would be better well a year later its not its worse and no i have deppression i lost all of my friends i have nothing to look forward to...my life consist of the only thing i have to look forward to is the next tv show..for the past few months iv had all of these weird things liky my body jerking and twitching and headace and stiff fingers i always feel tired but im scared i have some horrible crippling deasise..i feel like im going to be crippled..my life is goign down the drain..my bodys falling apart i let myself get fat.and havent taken care of myself iv seen drs been on meds..nothings helping..i have no life..and i have nothing to look foward to im a huge failer and all i wish is that i was someone else..i wish i could leave this horrible horrible..life..i just dont know what else..to do please help me
Answers: i dont know where to start im 15 and my life is so screwed up last year i had to quit school b/c of my anxitey and hopeing it would be better well a year later its not its worse and no i have deppression i lost all of my friends i have nothing to look forward to...my life consist of the only thing i have to look forward to is the next tv show..for the past few months iv had all of these weird things liky my body jerking and twitching and headace and stiff fingers i always feel tired but im scared i have some horrible crippling deasise..i feel like im going to be crippled..my life is goign down the drain..my bodys falling apart i let myself get fat.and havent taken care of myself iv seen drs been on meds..nothings helping..i have no life..and i have nothing to look foward to im a huge failer and all i wish is that i was someone else..i wish i could leave this horrible horrible..life..i just dont know what else..to do please help me
Look, I;m really sorry about your life. I know that things suck sometimes. But, from your picture it looks like you just had a baby, from the baby picture. If it's your baby or not the child is beautiful! If it's your then that is something to look forward to. 15 is a really hard age. When I was your age my grandmother; one of the few people I trusted died due to cancer. Then a few weeks later my parents drop the bomb, They're getting a divorce. I felt very depressed as well, my mom got mad at me and kicked me out of the house. Then my dad had a huge drinking problem and a crapy *** girfriend who he moved in with. So, I was left to work three jobs just so I could pay the bills so my sister and I could live. Life sucked! But, you know what now I'm married and I have two beautiful children despite of all the bad crap that happened in life. Just remember that God give you nothing that you cannot handle so always remember that. That saying was the only thing that kept me going some days. I would go to the doctor and get that medical problem checked out. Look I don't know how close you are to God, but he has helped me through so much! Without him I felt like I was nothing. I had no friends too because I was too busy trying to pick up what my parents didn't want to handle. For years I thought it was my fault for everything because my father told me that it was. Then get this I joined the Marine Corps because I wanted out of my town. Well, the first time I went to Iraq he steals all my money and opens credit cards in my name and almost gets my truck repoed! I almost lost everything. Look, I'm not here to talk about my life I am just here to tell you that my life sucked at that time too, but I got through just like you will. You are not a failure by any means. You are important. There is someone that truely cares about you. Just remember that God loves you and he is someone. I thought everyone hated me for the longest time. But, one day I woke up and realized I did do things in my life that I can say I was somebody. I suggest getting to a counseler and talking with them. There is something that I know you must want to do. Well, go to the mirror and tell yourself that I am someone. The key is to say it outloud. Because you are someone. I care I mean I did answer your question right. So there are people that care. Tomorrow you should go and do something that you feel good about. Make yourself feel good. Get a journal and write how you feel. Let it all out and remember that you are someone.
You're only 15 so your life is just beginning - who you are now insn't who you will be a year from now.
What you are going through sounds hard - I've been there - but it does pass.
Maybe you haven't been on the right meds or maybe you need to find the right person to talk to.
Try to take it one day at a time or even one minute at a time and believe that things will get better for you. I think you have a lot to look forward to since your life is just beginning and you have no idea how good it will get.
Try to find help - maybe a different doctor or talking to your parents or a psychologist.
Good luck and hang in there okay!
Nevre give up on yourself, fat is a matter of opinion, anxity would make anybody worried enough to quiet anything, friends come and go (Even after10 years), you can still make this year better, if you like tv write your own show (It may be fun), deasise can be falsly induced by the mind which releae chemicals, you have a life if you are alive, and nobodys afaliur (Enstine was a drop-out), and think of positve times. I care and hope you get better.
P.S. a journal helps if you can't talk to sombody.
Your profile says you are 16. Nonetheless, your age can be very difficult. There are a lot of things going on with you. But, I can tell you that it will all work out, it always does. Try to get some exercise, even if it is just walking every day. Focus on one way to make yourself feel better and do it. You need to find a doctor who can help you through the anxiety. You will be fine. There are some issues to deal with but you are still wonderful!
I see that you are a top contributor and that must mean you like to help others, so now it looks like you need the help...
I want to say it will just go away, but I know it doesn't. Who is the baby in the picture, could that be a reason to live, brother, niece, your kid? I hope you know that depression can be fixed with time, meds or just simple things.
Change your life style.
Start with a 10 minute walk outside everyday, the sunshine will help to improve your mood.
You may only have arthritis so get your stiffness checked out and don't think the worst.
You know some meds are not right and it takes time to get the right one so do not give up.
I know you said you quit school, but maybe trying a different type of school program might help.
I hope you realize you have helped a lot of people with your answers and you must have a purpose so don't give up on yourself.
it is not unusual for someone your age to have these feelings. the teenage years are hard but they do get better. there is a lot that life can offer you but you have to seek it out-- it won't come to you while you are on the sofa watching t.v. shows!
here is my advice to you:
1) keep seeing doctors to get the meds you need. your body is changing which means you will have to experiment some with different kinds and doses. just hang in there until you find something that works.
2) find something you love and invest your time in that. if you like to hike, join a hikers group in your town. if you are an avid reader, join a book club. sign up for an art class. then you can meet new people who share your interest.
3) try out a youth group. i'm a christian and have personally found that a relationship with christ fills any kind of void in my life. it is so comforting to know that i have a heavenly father who cares about me and loves me even when the people on earth let me down. also, youth groups always have fun activities and are welcoming to newcomers.
4) join a gym and stay active and healthy. even if you only end up walking on a treadmill. this will make you feel so much better about yourself. honeslty, your tiredness can come from a lack of activity.
my secret: find a treadmill with a t.v. in front of it and go during your favorite reality show. the workout flies by!
i hope this helps. if things don't get better, find an adult or a counseling service that you can talk to.
Firts of all.....TELL YOUR PARENTS!!! And then RUN don't walk to the nearest mental health center or ask your regular doc to recommend a good psychiatrist/therapist/psychologist. This is serious! I have suffered with depression since I was a teenager......I was not diagnosed until I was in my early 30's (I am now 46 & have bipolar disorder). In the years before myself or anyone else realized that there was anything other than me "just being a teenager" or (after I was grown) being "moody" was wrong with me, I attempted suicide, developed an eating disorder, attempted suicide, became an alcoholic, attempted suicide. A friend at an AA meeting (who happened to be a doctor) suggested to me after a meeting one night, after hearing me say that even though I was now sober and I was still miserable, that I might be clinically depressed or bipolar. He was absolutely right. PLEASE take this seriously. Depression CAN affect you physically as well as mentally and emotionally. Talk to your parents IMMEDIATELY (if not sooner) and have them get you to a doctor!!!!
i was literally facing the same problem. once upon a time .pls don't under -estimate ur self u still have life to live.find solution by urself ,just think urself where r u going wrong n pls take good care of ur health coz it is also imp.it's just a passing phase.have faith in God.don't worry b happy whatever come may.goodluck
get up off the couch first of all second find a good therapist.
i suggest a psychiatrist because they are trained in both psycology and physical medicine. try a support group or if you must contact a crisis line right now. dont do anything to harm yourself. you are very young and this time off your life can be very emotional and confusing. talk to your parents or mabe your school councillor go out and make a freind and dont forget your bible it can be a great source of comfort and guidance. the churches in your area are another good source of safe social contacts. God bless you and keep the faith god loves you just the way you are so you must be alright ...alright alright get out of the house in the morning and look around its a beatiful world and a beatiful gift weve all been given. email me at bonnaarooo@yahoo.com ill email you back
things will get better for you again God bless you
There is hope.
Depression's symptoms are sneaky, growing like a vine, in time it will wrap your whole life - mind- body - perceptions. ....But, it doesn't have to end there.....that's only one piece of the story.
Let's look back at your question - reading it again.
15yr old girl. -- about the most stressful of all the teen years, with wacky hormones ontop of it all. Most common year for major life crisis in girls.
ANXIETY -- part of anxiety is fear
QUIT SCHOOL - LOST FRIENDS - NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO -- LOW SELF IMAGE -- life was snowballing and one thing lead to another now it all feels out of control, and feels like you're stuck
SUICIDAL THINKING!!! -- Major warning to address tonight
by calling a Crisis Hotline or 911
Please Help -- you are asking if there is hope! And there is!
And there is another piece or 2. Your body has strange symptoms of body jerking, twitching, headache, stiff fingers, tiredness. -- This sounds very familiar to me. This is about what happened to me as a bad side effect of one of the medications the Dr. asked me to try. My symptoms were totally out of control for 3 days, then lessened and some of the symptoms continued with lesser intensity for a very long time. This is not normal. It is very important to see your Dr. right away when you experience these symptoms.
Getting beyond depression and fears / anxiety can be hard work, but it is possible. A year from now you have the opportunity to live with a smile on your face and a song in your heart, and a friend by your side. Call your County's Mental Health clinic -- 1st tell them you are suicidal.
-- 2nd ask how they can help you. Chances are, they have a group of teen girls that meets each week...other girls like you that are feeling stuck and are looking for hope.
-- 3rd at Mental Health there are Counselors / Therapists who are there to listen, to coach you as you identify your fears and your stress. Work with the counselor to get your stress under control, to work on your issues, and the things in your life - relationships - traumas - situations that can be behind your fear anxiety and stress -- and get your health and life balanced. Counselors are not there to be angry, not at all, they come alongside of you to help you figure out where you are "stuck" and why, then work on solutions together.
4th -- Find a church in your neighborhood where other teens go for music and fun and to learn and hang-out. Get your body out of the house, spend some time there, find people who will genuinely care about you. Seek the love of God for your own life. -- It will open up a whole new world for you.
5th -- try giving 1-800-NEWLIFE a call. You might be surprised to find people who are so caring. They can recommend counselors in your area, or even do phone counseling when nothing else will work for you.
I will have to save this question because it is four years too early. You went too fast in life and now it is all confused. Hold on because this depression time is all part of life just like baby time and old age . You absolutely have to go through this. We all did but we were not allowed to tell the world about it when we were twenty years old. Keep asking more questions as it will help you to organize your thoughts into a story you will be able to remember and then figure out. Deal with one subject at a time.