Perfectionist? OCD? Just regular symptoms of High Functioning Autism?!
Question: I work at least 3 hours on homework a night and I always do my homework. I obsess over a question to the point I'll get into tears. I worry about my teachers next year, about grade 11, grade 12, about university, about whether my child will have High Functioning Autism like I do, or something fatal, or maybe I'll have a boy (Which would be a nightmare), or I won't be able to help my baby because of my disorder, or my mom will die of cancer, or my sister will get in a car crash, or I will die. (I'll stop here, but I have many, many more worries) I also have to straighten my pencils before I take a test, and if I tap one finger with something I must tap the rest. I also find patterns in everything, and I'm obsessed with numbers. My arms and legs shake whenever I'm really stressed out (which is about once every two weeks since I've been on depression/anixety mediances, but usually much more). Who am I?
Answers: I work at least 3 hours on homework a night and I always do my homework. I obsess over a question to the point I'll get into tears. I worry about my teachers next year, about grade 11, grade 12, about university, about whether my child will have High Functioning Autism like I do, or something fatal, or maybe I'll have a boy (Which would be a nightmare), or I won't be able to help my baby because of my disorder, or my mom will die of cancer, or my sister will get in a car crash, or I will die. (I'll stop here, but I have many, many more worries) I also have to straighten my pencils before I take a test, and if I tap one finger with something I must tap the rest. I also find patterns in everything, and I'm obsessed with numbers. My arms and legs shake whenever I'm really stressed out (which is about once every two weeks since I've been on depression/anixety mediances, but usually much more). Who am I?
It sounds like this is more than being a perfectionist and could very well be OCD. Talk to your doctor about this because it appears to be interfering with your life. Hopefully they can get this until control better with a change in medicine or behaviour therapy. Good luck!
Generalized Anxiety Disorder (i.e., GAD).