Any doctors Phyciatrist Help me understand my problems?!
Question: I cant control some thoughts motorway doing100mph & I get urge 2 grab the wheel which would put the car out of control another one is I will look at my door then get the urge to open it and fall out both urges would cause serious harm even death but Im still unable to control these thoughts
Ever since I was a child I always had thoughts of how I would be killed!! and how it would be like in my funeral over a million times now. On the other hand I get thoughts of me being sucessfull and happy in future
Im very depres I can sleep for hours once I slept for 19 hours
Then rarely I can feel very happy excited alot of energy during these times Im a very funny person
I also have a rage of anger inside of me which can come from a little thing and has only came out once when I allowed myself to one day I had a hammer and caused damage in my house.
I started smoking weed at 14 and when Im high it helps me be normal so I smoke everyday i also sometimes feel shivers of pain run through mybrain
Answers: I cant control some thoughts motorway doing100mph & I get urge 2 grab the wheel which would put the car out of control another one is I will look at my door then get the urge to open it and fall out both urges would cause serious harm even death but Im still unable to control these thoughts
Ever since I was a child I always had thoughts of how I would be killed!! and how it would be like in my funeral over a million times now. On the other hand I get thoughts of me being sucessfull and happy in future
Im very depres I can sleep for hours once I slept for 19 hours
Then rarely I can feel very happy excited alot of energy during these times Im a very funny person
I also have a rage of anger inside of me which can come from a little thing and has only came out once when I allowed myself to one day I had a hammer and caused damage in my house.
I started smoking weed at 14 and when Im high it helps me be normal so I smoke everyday i also sometimes feel shivers of pain run through mybrain
A Psychiatrist will be able to diagnose you if you have a condition & can prescribe medications, that's where you need to start, then get a refferral to a Psychologist experienced in Dialectical Behavioural Therapy or Acceptance & Committment Therapy. I have suffered from Borderline personality Disorder & Bipolar Disorder for 25 years, I became a drug addict & I was a very angry person, I'd often smash things in fits of rage & damage property, I had weird & disturbing thoughts, with a big fear of my own emotions, with self-destructive behavior patterns, self-harming & many suicide attempts, in & out of the psych ward, rehabs, counselling-I tried everything to get my life back on track. But nothing worked, however, when I started this therapy, my life changed. I stopped taking drugs, (marijuana or any drug will contribute to messing your thoughts up) & I haven't been back to the psych ward since. I had 65 admissions in a 5 year period, I've not had 1 admission in over a year now since I started therapy (my therapy was 12 months). I participated in a group therapy once a week for 6 months & also an individual therapy session once a week for 9 months, then an ACT Therapy Anger Management class. I learnt so much about understanding my thoughts, feelings, & emotions & that I may not be able to control these but I can control how I behave in response to my thoughts, feelings & emotions. They teach many methods to enable you to deal with the most unpleasent emotions & feelings, yet still react & behave in an acceptable way. I went from drug addict/basket case to a fully functioning, respected citizan who is now studying Drug & Alcohol Counselling & running support groups myself now, I've become a role model-YES my life has improved dramatically!! Go for it! you will learn so much, just remember it takes time to change & it won't happen overnight but just keep practicing everything you're taught & you'll be amazed at the results. Also remember that if you do have BPD, it is not a permanent condition, I was tested & rediagnosed recently & have no BPD symptoms at all, when they once were very severe. I am closely monitored by my doctor & take my medication as prescribed, but if it wasn't for the therapy I wouldn't be the person I am today. Good Luck.
Stopping smoking marijuana would be a good start. That will be screwing your brain up for sure!
a psychiatrist would be a good start, also some cognitive behavioral therapy would be helpful for you as well.
As someone who has and will suffer from bipolar disorder, I must say your risk taking thoughts are a clone of my own, as is the intense inner rage. The only problem is that Marijuana only treats some symptoms- It will not take away the roots of the problems. I would suggest that you indulge your risk and anger issues-while using marijuana as a coping aid. I fire high powered assault rifles at cheap t.v.s with the news on them-Hit the Volcano and let it rip-There is a reason it's called manic depression-I would venture to say that your personality will benefit far more from being a little out of the box than to try to medicate yourself into "normality" which does not exist. Bottom line- avoid psychiatrists and doctors they are no help and have no understanding of the chemistry going on in your head. And unless you live in california there will be no medicina-Self medicate you know yourself...
Hon, you need to get yourself under some control, see the doctor yourself, get on right medications, enough rest and sleep, eat right, exercise, and most of all take care of your mental health!
Yes u need to see a psychiatrist. U got an obsessive Syndrome! which can be cured.Good luck