Why is this happening to me?!
Question: I used to be a cutter two years ago. i only cut for two years, but it became an addicton. i completley stopped when my mom had a stroke from all of the stress. why is it that ive been wanting to cut soo bad after this long, and its all i ever think about? nothing is going wrong in my life at this point, and i am very happy with my boyfriend. i dont want to start going to a counsoler again, because i'm afraid my mother and family will think im going down hill again. what do i do, and why is this happening?
Answers: I used to be a cutter two years ago. i only cut for two years, but it became an addicton. i completley stopped when my mom had a stroke from all of the stress. why is it that ive been wanting to cut soo bad after this long, and its all i ever think about? nothing is going wrong in my life at this point, and i am very happy with my boyfriend. i dont want to start going to a counsoler again, because i'm afraid my mother and family will think im going down hill again. what do i do, and why is this happening?
cutting is an addiction, just like alcoholism, drug addiction, overeating, etc. i would suggest that you go to a counselor and don't tell your family unless you have to. get the help you need!!!
I used to be a cutter too, I did it to feel pain, to stimulate myself and ensure that I was 'real'. Could you perhaps be feeling the same way as I did?
The fact that you cut for two years could have given you a 'dependency' for this, it's normal, you just need to outgrow it.
Tell your parents you want to go to a counselor again because you think it will prevent worse problems down the line. Tell the counselor about your urges and your concerns about your mom. You and s/he can make a plan for how to communicate with your parents so that you minimize the damage, and you can hopefully minimize the stress on yourself (you count too!).
There could be any number of reasons the urge is arising. It could be that it's the only way you know to deal with everyday stress, or it could be some deep-seated stuff you can't really perceive inside yourself. I find that emotional symptoms can come and go, and you don't always know why. It's awful because you want to just make it go away, but as you know, that can make it worse. You may always have some emotional symptoms like this but if you learn to manage them, they won't make you so anxious and worried that you're "going downhill." Also, you can work with your counselor to figure out why this is happening now and how to deal with it.
I'm SO glad you are identifying the urge to cut before you actually do it. That is a great sign of mental health!!
Not getting help because of what others may think it ridiculous. Get help dear before it gets out of control because I am very very sure your loved ones want to see you happy and healthy and not suffering.
First of all, how wonderful that you recognize the urge to cut and are seeking help!
That said, PLEASE go see a counselor. I know you don't want to upset your parents, but this is an addiction. Many alcoholics periodically attend AA meetings to help control their urge to drink and successfully avoid liquor their entire lives because they recognize when they need help.
Be brave and tell your folks that you need to see a counselor as a kind of tune up, so you can get these feelings under control!
Good luck! You can do this!
There may be many reasons why, but what to do might be a little easier to answer.
People think they have absolutely no control over their thoughts and actions. This is not true. You DO have the ability to control your thoughts and actions. Apparently you have been able to conrol yourself for two years now.
To reinforce your control you can try meditation. Clear your mind of ALL thoughts. When one tries to "invade" your head- push it away. Let it all go away. Do this every day for about a week. Start out doing it for about five minutes and work your way up to 15 or 20 by the end of the week.
Once you can keep all invading thoughts out of your head for 15-20 minutes at a time, after you come out of meditation tell yourself you love yourself and will not inflict harm to yourself.
This is reconditioning your own way of thinking. It is far more effective than any pills or counseling. Antidepressants and the like are made companies who are controlling the masses with chemicals- they pay Doctors to prescribe their drugs!
"The pharmaceutical industry is among the largest lobbying interests in Washington". http://www.publicintegrity.org/RX/
Counselling can be beneficial, but in the long run only YOU have control of yourself.
5-6 times a day????????? wowww
Go to a counsler, You don't have to let them know that your going. I've been there, it's hard! But now I couldn't dream of doing that to myself - But I have the scars to prove it.
Get help.