Any ideas?!
Question: I know mania is normally associated with being full of energy and sometimes reckless behavior. But can it also be the other end of the spectrum? I can go from just being depressed to yelling and being incredibly angry to the point no one wants to be near me and sometimes even suicidal. Which lately has been for a week to two weeks, but then I'm 'okay' for a few weeks. Somtimes I just flip for no reason and then a few hours later I'm okay again. Ever since I was treated for depression a while back I've been hallucinating. The doctor gave me lithium and a few other medications used to treat bipolar disorder. I've since quit taking my meds a few months ago but still hallucinating [which I never did before taking these meds].
And I'm finished rambling now.
Answers: I know mania is normally associated with being full of energy and sometimes reckless behavior. But can it also be the other end of the spectrum? I can go from just being depressed to yelling and being incredibly angry to the point no one wants to be near me and sometimes even suicidal. Which lately has been for a week to two weeks, but then I'm 'okay' for a few weeks. Somtimes I just flip for no reason and then a few hours later I'm okay again. Ever since I was treated for depression a while back I've been hallucinating. The doctor gave me lithium and a few other medications used to treat bipolar disorder. I've since quit taking my meds a few months ago but still hallucinating [which I never did before taking these meds].
And I'm finished rambling now.
Most of my hypomanias have consisted of extreme irritability and anger (I do have a horrible anger problem as it is) and simultaneously the beautiful elation. Sometimes it is just raw, confused anger, and other times it is pure elation... and sometimes both (frustrating as hell.) And there is always the crash following the mania, and it is worse when you were primarily experiencing anger... it warps into a very scary thing. That would explain the suicidality.
I've tried quitting my meds, but I am unfortunately chronically suicidal, and my parents have now been administering my meds and watching me take them. I'd (I can't believe I am saying thing) go back on some meds for a while. Lithium has worked best for me. I've had hallucinations in my hypomanias, (and SUPER bad on sleep aids...) so getting on a mood stabilizer should help calm it down again.
Good luck to you!
Anna
Yeah, mania doesn't mean happy moods. It can be an angery mood. Lot's of people get that way. The depressive suicidal thoughts are prob. just the result of swinging out of the depression. Go get it looked at by a pro.
The hullucinating along with it could also mean ( Im going to misspell this lol) Schitzophernia. Sometimes that causes extreme mood swings along with it. Go get re evaluated soo. Good Luck.
actually bi -polar is where u get unusaull highs and when u becomemanic u get very depressed and very suicidal can change in a minute .seek a psyciatrist