I am at the end of my rope- I wont do it but I want to?!
Question: I have been pushed to my limits this week. And i know this is my third question about suicide and i am probably just a bunch of talk but I am soooooo done with this crap.
I just want to jump off the face of the earth.
You know there is only so much a person my age can take. And I know you will say "oh your young, you are fine" but the pressure on me is sooo intense. I can't stand it any longer.
Any words of encouragement?
NOT A GOOD MONTH!!!
Answers: I have been pushed to my limits this week. And i know this is my third question about suicide and i am probably just a bunch of talk but I am soooooo done with this crap.
I just want to jump off the face of the earth.
You know there is only so much a person my age can take. And I know you will say "oh your young, you are fine" but the pressure on me is sooo intense. I can't stand it any longer.
Any words of encouragement?
NOT A GOOD MONTH!!!
Hi Lizzie... not a good time in your life right now I can see.
I shut your question telling myself that I don't share personal stuff on the internet with complete strangers, but then went searching for it again feeling guilty that someone's life might be miserable when I am so very capable of helping.
I'm quite young aswell - I'm fifteen. I've been going through alot for over six months now, and things got alot worse a couple of days before Christmas. The past month has been a nightmare for me. I had the same feeling as you - I knew I wouldn't kill myself, but the feeling was definately there. I've always been pro-life, I know I couldn't kill myself, because life is just too precious to waste, but one night I was in bed, bawling my eyes out, having those bad thoughts. I knew I wouldn't do it, but I needed help. I knew one of my best friends was online, so I got up and talked to him, and another bestie, who helped me out of my downward spiral. All of a sudden I was shot up into a high. I ended up adjusting pretty well to that sudden high mood. And y'know what? That night when I felt so down, and really needed help, was only Wednesday night last week.
Encouragement? A lot of people will probably say counselling, talking to family, stress management, writing down your feelings, and things like that. I tried all of that, but nothing worked. For me, I worked myself up from my down mood realising that I have so much ahead of me. I don't like being a teenager - adulthood looks much better to me, and I am aware of all the responsibility that comes with it, but as a teenager, I feel worthless. It's not until I'm an adult that I think I'll be a benefit to the world, and to myself. I'm looking forward to being an adult so much - marriage, travel, career, friendships, and independence, so I always think of that when I'm feeling bad.
For you, maybe a counseller or psychologist will work. Maybe anti-depressants will work (however, I haven't known of anyone on anti-depressants who actually seems like they're not depressed!). Maybe managing your thoughts will help. Maybe talking to family will work. You're a different person to me, so these things may work, but for me, they just didn't, and I tried very hard. In the end I got myself out of my messed up mindset with the help of a couple of very close friends. I'm still going through a very rough time, I know it's not the end of what I'm going to go through, but I'm working towards making things better, and focusing on the future.
Also, remember, if you ever feel like crying, don't hold it back. If you keep it bottled up inside, you'll only have a deep sinking feeling in your chest, and you will still feel horrible. Don't be afraid to cry if you feel like it.
Best of luck. =]
got a myspace?
hey now life has its ups and downs next month might be the best month you ever had.
get off yahoo answers and get some mental help.
I hate it when people say "you're young and therefor fine." I have a good friend that comes to me and sounds a lot like you. I tell her to pamper herself. Watch a favorite movie. Listen to good music. Run out in a field and scream f u c k you world! Or listen to Hold On by Good Charlotte. http://youtube.com/watch?v=qCqIaglNEb8
Hang in there, I was the same way when I was your age. You'll get over what is bothering you. Everyone has a rough month or week every once in awhile. Just think about past happy times and all the happy times you have yet to experience. Or dance around to some music! :)
I could give you a "life is worth living, no matter how bad it gets" speech, but instead I'm going to give you some more useful advice.
FIND SOMEBODY TO TALK TO. Find a therapist if you are serious. It would be irresponsible of us to try to help somebody we don't know. A therapist can be somebody with a PhD, a friend, a lover, a parent, a sibling. Find somebody to help shoulder the burden you are feeling.
when you get to the end of your rope you tie a knot in it so you can hang on.
if you kill yourself, you make the people who hurt you happy. if you live a very long time, it makes them mad.
and you will only hurt yourself jumping off the earth. you cant jump high enough to get away from gravity, so you fall on your butt.
I've been there. Just know that everything happens for a reason and that you were meant to go through these particular challenges at this point in your life; and, just as importantly, you were meant to get out of them! IT WILL get better. In the meantime, go out and do something you really enjoy. Also, it really helps to meditate asking for whatever it is that you want to happen. Do it with a purpose, and wait for the subtle answers you've been looking for. Acknowledge them, and you will feel much better when you come out of meditation. Do this every day for ten minutes.
hey, when you find where you cn jump of the face of the earth, tell cristopher columbus...........hes been looking for it..............life throws you a curve ball some thimes, its called life.........i say if it wasnt for bad luck, id have no luck at all..................dont do any thing retarted, fix urself..................
Stop! Think! Look around!. Life's not that bad.
I've ODed and not on purpose, because I have a problem. It isn't fun don't even joke about that.
And you are young... you haven't even experianced life yet to ***** about it. Have you had a job? A car? A serious relationship? A marriage? Kids? NO.... didn't think so.
If you really wanted to die you would have done it now... you really would have.
You have low self esteem... a lot of people do. You are young and trying to find yourself... a lot of people are. You are the same as everyone else... except you are depressed.
Don't talk about suicide with us... what can we do? You just want to be cheered up, so please go talk to someone who cares. No offense, but we don't know you. Talk to your family, 'cause they care about you and what you have to say. I don't know you, so I don't have any feelings toward your situation... esp... if it involves your emotions.
Trying to be honest, so there you have it
Don't Quit
Author Unknown
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When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road your trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and its turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When they might have won, had they stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victors cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when your hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit!
Hope this helps! Memorize it and apply it to your life. I did, and every time I get down it helps to bring me back.
"Suicide sometimes proceeds from cowardice, but not always; for cowardice sometimes prevents it; since as many live because they are afraid to die, as die because they are afraid to live"
Don't be afraid to live ... life is full of surprises, you just haven't found them all yet.
Hugs
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It worries me that this is your third question about suicide. You need to have an honest discussion with your parents, school counselor or another trusted adult about how you've been feeling lately. They will know the next step to take for your well being. Suicide is a very serious matter and should never be taken lightly. Good luck.
Well you've got a mixed bag of answers here don't you!
You actually seem to be handling your situation and are just venting your frustrations. I don't believe you actually want to end your life, you really want your life to be better.
Either way, you definitely need a break. Perhaps go live somewhere else for a while to collect your thoughts. There are so many opportunities, but you have to find the answer for you. I get such a strong sense from your question, I think you are going to be one kick a..s person when you get older, very strong and capable. Make me right!
It is important to know how to de-stress, or it will affect your health, eventually. See stress treatments, at *ezy-build, below on page 42. Practise daily, one of the relaxation techniques on pages 2, 11, 2c, or 2i; whichever works best for you, but the mindfulness breathing for 15 - 20 mns is ideal, although the progressive muscle relaxation can be learned quickly, and takes only several minutes, if pressed for time. Employ the EFT version for use in public, for which you can reasonably claim that you have a headache, as you massage/tap your temples, but it may be advisable to restrict yourself to subvocalising (saying it to yourself, in your mind, not aloud). Section 53, and pages 2, 2.q and 2.o refer. "Even though I sometimes suffer from stress, I deeply and completely accept myself". You can also multitask, using the gazing technique, as you walk/jog or exercise, by focusing on a distant object, noting any thoughts which flash across your mind, without pursuing any particular train of thought, just gently redirect your focus to the gazing. Yoga, or Tai Chi may suit others, better. Take 4 Omega 3 fish oil supplements, daily, replacing 2 of them with cod liver oil supplements, or a teaspoonful of the oil (I spread mine on toast, and mask its strong taste with fishpaste, and pepper), in the winter months only, and eat healthily, in accordance with your "nutritional type" as determined at http://www.mercola.com/ SEARCHBAR. http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris*
Hello from England, Lizzie. This is both a poignant and a heartrending posting, and it was brave of you to post it, in my opinion.
I am sure plenty of genuine people on here will say the same thing, but you need to talk this through as soon as possible.
Please feel free to contact me if you think it will help. Trust me when I say that it will!
See you.
Tomorrow may bring you happiness.