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Question: Last year i was drugged then sexually harassed when i was vacationing to Dominican,
and recently my dad doesnt have a job, so my parents have been fighting alot latly, to the point my dads walked out, and i lock myself in the bathroom. I take painkillers for fun to make my pain go away, but ive began to cut myself...
a couple days ago my mom found my scars, my booze that i hide for parties(including a booze list), and a really bad letter with my friend joking about getting the "pill" my mom didnt find it a joke. She yelled alot and cried. and then told my dad which made everything worse. I hurt my family but they hurt me. I just dunno what im so sad about, getting raped or fighting family
Im 15 and i dunno, i think im depressed. Lately i just dont want to be here anymore, i cant find any joy in stuff i use to love.
im sorry to dump this on whoevers reading this but i dont know what to do. I havent told my parents about getting sexually harassed and im not planning on it anytime
Answers: Last year i was drugged then sexually harassed when i was vacationing to Dominican,
and recently my dad doesnt have a job, so my parents have been fighting alot latly, to the point my dads walked out, and i lock myself in the bathroom. I take painkillers for fun to make my pain go away, but ive began to cut myself...
a couple days ago my mom found my scars, my booze that i hide for parties(including a booze list), and a really bad letter with my friend joking about getting the "pill" my mom didnt find it a joke. She yelled alot and cried. and then told my dad which made everything worse. I hurt my family but they hurt me. I just dunno what im so sad about, getting raped or fighting family
Im 15 and i dunno, i think im depressed. Lately i just dont want to be here anymore, i cant find any joy in stuff i use to love.
im sorry to dump this on whoevers reading this but i dont know what to do. I havent told my parents about getting sexually harassed and im not planning on it anytime
I know a lot of people answered this all ready, but I was at my limit yesterday, sorry.
I can't say I know exactly how you feel, but every one has their struggles, I've had mine, and this is what I've learned.
Now all those pain killers you take and that booze you drink and the cuts you make, thats all just a distraction its temporary, your just trying to distract yourself from the real problem, your parents, and of course being sexually assaulted. Further more on the cuts, your hoping, subconsciously that they'll find your cuts which she did and see your pain on the outside, because they don't notice whats going on inside your mind and inside your heart. So the pain you feel with in, manifests itself on the outside of your body, crying for help, but they didn't see your pain, they just focused on their own pain like they always do. Now I'm not saying this is all exact, its just my theory and I hope it helps you understand why you do the things you do, and its not to make you feel bad about it, cause you all ready feel bad enough. I think its clear to see that your parents aren't going to be much help, NoBody is. This is a problem that You Alone can fix, Booze, Pills, Cuts, None of that will help you, all the comfort you need is within. And all you needed was for someone to tell you that, to reassure you that, you are all you got and in the end when your 90 years old and dying, your still going to be all you got. and thats not a scoff at God or any other Deity, its just the way it is, you know? You've all ready made it clear that not a single person has helped you, that online you can just say what you feel. You don't know whose typing this and thats the point, it doesn't matter. So from now on, when your parents fight, either ignore them and accept that theres nothing you can do, or butt in and fight back, cause when they fight, they can't help but ignore the rest of the world, and thats their fault, not yours. Or find another distraction that isn't self destructive, find anything that makes you happy or brings you pleasure with out pain. And next time they say run along on the beach with some stranger, say "F*ck that" don't accept any drinks from anyone and don't be alone with sketchy guys on the beach in an unknown place, don't leave yourself vulnerable like that, cause like I said your all you got, you have to look out for yourself, especially if your parents aren't going to. Learn self defense, pressure points and stuff like that, and the next time some one trys to sexually assault you, Kick Them In The Balls!! And if none of this helps at all, don't give up, just keep trying to find better ways to cope, better ways to deal with all the F*cked up problems in this life, and if you ever need to talk to someone, just go to my profile and email me or message me or hit me up on 360, I'm always willing to help someone in need, and I promise I'm not a creepy Internet psycho, though you may think that now just because I denied that I am. but hey its a double edged sword, the Internet that is, well and honesty.
Again I hope you feel better, with all these answers theres gotta be something that helped, at least I hope there is.
I'm glad I helped, and I hope your feeling a lot better. Again if you ever need to talk to an impartial 3rd party just let me know. I really hope things work out for you, Good Luck.
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