What it my purpose in life?!
Question: What it my purpose in life?
I know that know one can really answer the question for me but I just thought that I would just express my emotions on here in hopes that it would relieve me from my pain. Well I have a problem... I have trust issues. It started when I was about 11 along with depression. Now I am 20 years old, I am losing interest in my ambition. I am losing interest in my family, friends. I am more withdrawn that I have ever been. I don't know why. To make matters worst, I hate the school that I go to. I hate so bad that I want to quit. I even found a way that I can graduate a semester early. But at this point I don't know if I'll be able to continue. Right now I feel purposeless, I hate everything, I just want to quit school. leave everything I've ever known to start my life anew somewhere else because I can't do this anymore. I'm so tired of it all. I don't even care about school that much anymore. I don't know what's wrong with me
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I've tried several psychologist but the sessions did not work. I've even been hospitalized for about a week. I hate it there and I don't plan on going back. I am suicidal and sometimes I feel like it is the only way out. I just want to end it all. I'm so very tired and I don't see what my purpose is in this life. I feel like I am a waste of space and someone else could have a better use of it.....
Answers: What it my purpose in life?
I know that know one can really answer the question for me but I just thought that I would just express my emotions on here in hopes that it would relieve me from my pain. Well I have a problem... I have trust issues. It started when I was about 11 along with depression. Now I am 20 years old, I am losing interest in my ambition. I am losing interest in my family, friends. I am more withdrawn that I have ever been. I don't know why. To make matters worst, I hate the school that I go to. I hate so bad that I want to quit. I even found a way that I can graduate a semester early. But at this point I don't know if I'll be able to continue. Right now I feel purposeless, I hate everything, I just want to quit school. leave everything I've ever known to start my life anew somewhere else because I can't do this anymore. I'm so tired of it all. I don't even care about school that much anymore. I don't know what's wrong with me
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I've tried several psychologist but the sessions did not work. I've even been hospitalized for about a week. I hate it there and I don't plan on going back. I am suicidal and sometimes I feel like it is the only way out. I just want to end it all. I'm so very tired and I don't see what my purpose is in this life. I feel like I am a waste of space and someone else could have a better use of it.....
this is a horrid thing that happens to a lot of us i have suffered with this for a long time since i was about 7 and im now 24 it was very diffucult when i was a teenager and you feel it will never stop and you just whant to end it all but if i had i wouldent have my own home a 4 year old daughter a loving partner a dog and 3 cats , this might mean nothing to you but it does show that ending it will get you no where you will miss out on all the good things life can give us im not saying its perfect and it never goes away compleatly but it does get better i promise you can do great things and do you know but is ussualy very intelagent people that suffer with this so u r worth it.
you didnt say how old you are but hey get a grip its life there are good days and bad and its like that for everyone whos here so your no better off than everyone else . and we are getting by so can you
Oh the agony of horrible, horrible depression...I know...I am the same way..
So, you've already been to a psychologist...well at least you are trying to straighten out...and this sounds like a desperate cry for help to me....good for you...there is nothing wrong with that..
Before you do anything rash or harmful to yourself...consider this: go and see a PSYCHIATRIST...not a psychologist...the difference is the psychiatrist can prescribe some medication for you to level out the imbalance of the chemical serotonin in your brain...low seratonin levels are a major cause of depression and can be leveled out with medication...
So try that first...also, you might want to just research depression and find out all that you can about what is going on with you...sometimes, this horrible way we feel can make us feel so powerless over everything...so arming yourself with knowledge will not hurt you, but rather it might help you...there is a lot of information out there, on the web and especially in the libraries....these books that you can check out have the illness outlined in great detail and can give you some really good coping skills on how to deal with depression and suicidal thoughts...
So if you are willing to help yourself, then by all means, do it...and it sounds like you are willing...
Keep in mind though, depression CANNOT be cured...it can only be managed...with medications, therapy, and coping tools...
good luck to you...keep your chin up...stay in school...just try to think how horrible you would feel if you absolutely quit on yourself altogether...so don't do it...knowledge is power and it may give you some control over yourself and your dilemma.
I think most people go through feelings like this at some point in their life. I know that I have also. The only thing that you can do is try to think more positive. You hate school so try not to think about it so much. Its difficult, but you can do it. Do more things that you enjoy and make sure you get out enough. Make a list of things that you like about yourself and your goals for the future. You have a goal to graduate one semester early. That is a positive goal because once you graduate you won't have to worry about school anymore. Maybe, you can switch schools.
First off, you have my sympathy. I'm much older than you, but never even thought I needed a pupose to live. I just thought that things would fall into place eventually as long as I didn't do anything foolish and they did.
I think that right now you are too depressed to be even thinking that far ahead. If you haven't found the right therapist for you, keep trying. The same with anti-depressants; there are so many choices, you may have to try several with your doctor's help before you get the one that does the trick.
do not give up and when you had enough can't you take a break from school a mini vacation talk to your school counselor i think a person knows when they need a vacation before they lose it completely and the time is now .You need time to re-cape on things and figure things out go some were that there is not much of any thing but nature your soul can not think with every thing around it thinking for it .It gets exhausted fighting noise
seems to me maybe you need to get away from what you are used to doing day by day and try something diferent for awhile then when you are ready to go back to the norm you will feel better myself i try to let god in my life as much as possible i am 44 now so i quess it work good luck to you love and peace my freind