Werid outlook of my life need opinions?!
Question: I first want to start off by saying i'm a normal teen i play lacrosse and do cross country for my high school i have a lot of friends and a good family background but this past couple years i've noticed that i've been experimenting with a lot of werid stuff and i just realized that it feels like i'm searching for something i do drink but that gets old then i did marijuana for a little bit then i tried nutmeg cuz i heard that gets you high then the worst of all that i did which was really stupid was huffing gasoline-- i am a dumba ss for trying that--then i tried sleep deprivation for a couple days, this has all been in the span of a year like i didn't just do this in a week a lot of this was strung out of a couple months the question that i find myself asking..myself is why i feel the need to be in a different or altered state of consciousness and what am i looking for? why can't i enjoy life sober? please don't tell me ho stupid i am for doing the stuff i did believe me i know
Answers: I first want to start off by saying i'm a normal teen i play lacrosse and do cross country for my high school i have a lot of friends and a good family background but this past couple years i've noticed that i've been experimenting with a lot of werid stuff and i just realized that it feels like i'm searching for something i do drink but that gets old then i did marijuana for a little bit then i tried nutmeg cuz i heard that gets you high then the worst of all that i did which was really stupid was huffing gasoline-- i am a dumba ss for trying that--then i tried sleep deprivation for a couple days, this has all been in the span of a year like i didn't just do this in a week a lot of this was strung out of a couple months the question that i find myself asking..myself is why i feel the need to be in a different or altered state of consciousness and what am i looking for? why can't i enjoy life sober? please don't tell me ho stupid i am for doing the stuff i did believe me i know
I'd say you are trying these things as experimentation to see if the world the "users" live in is better or worse than the life you now lead. The thing you have going for you is that you have the sense and insight to recognize that the feelings these substances create is not an improvement and, in any event, not a state in people can live without self-destruction. Your insight into your own behavior will help you through this. Good luck.
me to i drink and i don't need to i get so tense in my brain it relazes it well meditation realy does you should learn how to meditiate you will find thats all you need the rest of the stuff is just a false way to getting what you need
Have you ever seen some of those Where's Waldo books? Well sometimes life is a lot like those books.. except what you REALLY must be looking for in your mind altered experimental deviations is to achieve some relief (albeit a very temporary and therefore false relief) from some of your internal demons. Sometimes very healthy, unaltered minds can go sick with over repetitious circular thoughts. If this is your situation then I suggest you try to find another way to break free of yourself rather than doing these dangerous and health depleting activities because you are doing things that WILL impair your regular mind and body functions even if it doesn't cause you DIE instantly.
Its like that one song by Smashmouth that goes like this.."Put away the crack before the crack puts you away. You wanna be there when your baby is old enough to relate".
First off: You probably know, or not, that drinking & drugs are someone you trust, or talk to? Listen to what they tell you, unless they are drunk/high.
This is gonna sound crazy, psicotic, insane, suisidal, whatever, but when you're back's up against the wall, TALK TO DA FOLKS. No, you're not blind. Yes, you read right. that is my word and hopefully not the last one.