Considering Suicide?!
Question: I have bad Bipolar Disorder. I'm usually on meds, but I'm out of the country on business and ran out of my pills right before I left and now I currently can't get any more. I've been away from home for about a week now and it's going to be a while before I can go back.
I'm sure that if I would be happier if could talk to my wife or friends, but I can't call my wife because of the great difference in our local times. She's asleep when I'm awake and I can't wake her up because she needs all the sleep she can get. My friends just don't know what to do in situations like this.
Without my meds and the important people in my life, I'm feeling awful and strongly considering suicide again (I've attempted twice already). I can't get myself feeling normal again and it's extremely difficult to drag myself out of bed every day to go to work.
Help?
Answers: I have bad Bipolar Disorder. I'm usually on meds, but I'm out of the country on business and ran out of my pills right before I left and now I currently can't get any more. I've been away from home for about a week now and it's going to be a while before I can go back.
I'm sure that if I would be happier if could talk to my wife or friends, but I can't call my wife because of the great difference in our local times. She's asleep when I'm awake and I can't wake her up because she needs all the sleep she can get. My friends just don't know what to do in situations like this.
Without my meds and the important people in my life, I'm feeling awful and strongly considering suicide again (I've attempted twice already). I can't get myself feeling normal again and it's extremely difficult to drag myself out of bed every day to go to work.
Help?
Where you are visiting--can you go to their mental health clinic (with your empty prescription bottle) to request a refill? They can call your physician / pharmacist in your country...
Here are some other things to consider:
"Understanding Mood Disorders..."
http://watchtower.org/e/20040108/article...
"How Precious Is Your Life!" "http://watchtower.org/e/20050201/articl...
"You CAN Fight Pessimism!" http://watchtower.org/e/20040422/article...
Do you ingest caffiene or chocolate on a regular basis?
<How Much Mental Illness is an Allergy to Caffeine?>
CAFFEINE ALLERGY:
Past Disorder or Present Epidemic?,
by Ruth Whalen, Medical Laboratory Technician
<Dangers of Caffeine Intake>
Caffeine Induced Anaphylaxis--Progressive Toxic Dementia
(with references) Copyright 2002 Ruth Whalen, MLT, ASCP
The uppers in coffee, some teas, & chocolate / cocoa have reportedly been shown to cause Major Mental Problems for some, and just eradicating them from the diet has helped such ones a Great Deal. I don't doubt this a bit, & suggest that you do a Web search for the <articles> above.
Share this next one with those you want to ask for help,
and don't hesitate to ask!:
Understanding Mood Disorders:
- How Others Can Help http://watchtower.org/e/20040108/article...
They would be Extremely Dissappointed if you didn't ask for their help! You ARE important to them! Especially to your wife!
"A Cry for Help"
- Soon--A World Without Despair!
http://watchtower.org/e/20000915/article...
You Can Find Help! http://watchtower.org/e/20011022/article...
oh jesus! just wake up your wife ..she doesnt want a wake up call from the morgue you can bet on that dude
concentrate on your wife when you're feeling bad. how would she feel if she had to go on in life without her husband? basically, keep your mind occupied.
Find something to do. Go for a walk or read a book or something that you enjoy doing. Never try to commit suicide, that doesn't solve anything. I can't explain how it feels to be in your situation, because I don't have that illness, but I do know that in order to get rid of the feelings that you have, you need to keep your mind busy. So like I say read a book, or go for a nice walk.
You should be able to refill the prescription at a pharmacy, depending on the country your in. You could also try sending video messages to each other to get some kind of communication, even if it is delayed
Become a Clown or a Carney. Those jobs are good.
You are depressed.You should find out why and get yourself out of and far away from the rut. Killing yourself isn't the answer, remember if you do it then you will be killing a part of your loved ones as well. Rent some porn then get some sleep. Just generally try to keep yourself entertained
Well I'm sure your wife won't mind a midnight conversation to help the love of her life stay happy and alive! I'm sure she knows you better than anyone so wake her up and tell her how you're feeling and I'm sure she can comfort you. Just hang in there. Watch movies all the time to keep your mind preoccupied or something.
Dear Considering Suicide, I am sure the country you are in have some sort of medical clinics or hospitals. Please find one. Remember if you do kill yourself you will never see anyone again. I do not know if you are a christian or not but it would be hard to ask forgiveness for taking your own life. Think of your family please. You would not want them to carry such a burden. Please call your wife , I am sure she would not mind talking to you no matter what the time. I will be praying for you .
I agree with the first person's answer. As someone who has gotten "the word" that a loved one has committed suicide, PLEASE think of how your wife and other family/friends would feel. In my opinion, suicide is the "easy way out" and somewhat selfish. I would love the opportunity to tell my loved one that. But I never will. I would hope that your wife and your marriage are worth a bit of a fight on your end. If you need meds in another country, you CAN get in touch with either your own doc or someone over there. The longer you wait though, the longer they will take to get into your system (2-3 weeks usually). You are not out of options, you just need to take initiative to take care of yourself. Please get help.
You need to stop making excuses and get some help. I realize you are really, really depressed and how hard it is to even think straight when your that way (been there), but CALL YOUR WIFE OR MAKE A LONG DISTANCE CALL TO YOUR DOCTOR HERE IN THE STATES!! Your wife can tolerate being awakened one time in an emergency. I'm sure she would rather get a phone call from you about needing help than a phone call from authorities saying you are dead from suicide.
Call your wife or other family members (brothers? sisters? cousins?) even if the time is different. They have your best interests in mind and one night of interrupted sleep is not the end of the world.
I'm not sure how much longer your trip is lasting but if its more than about 2 or 3 days, I would schedule a return flight. Work is not more important than your personal well being
Best of luck! And report the users who are calling you a "loser". It violates the community guidelines and is unfair to you who cant control your bipolar disorder
please keep yourself safe... You matter to more people than you will ever know. What would your wife and friends do if they didn't have you anymore?? Think of the grief and the pain that would bestow upon them...I care about you, and I don't know anything about you. I do know one thing though...you have already made an impact on my life by posting this message. I want you to be ok. I want you to be happy.
That being said, can you call your wife, say, 10 minutes before she goes to bed or something like that? Send her an email or text message or something. Just get in some kind of contact with her. Talk to somebody.
You should be able to call your doctor's office and have them send a perscription to a pharmacy nearby. It may take a day or so to fill it, but you will have it.
Another thing about your wife and her sleep schedule...You sound like a very caring and sensitive guy to be worrying about her mental state before your own. BUT, do you think she would rather talk to her husband and perhaps save his life, or get the extra 10 minutes of sleep??? I bet she would want to talk to you.
I hope you are ok.
http://www.mcmanweb.com/article-225.htm
Here you go, buddy, it's an article about Abraham Lincoln's constant struggle with crippling depression. He had it rough, but he kept it together. Hopefully you can draw some strength from it. Good Luck.
Please don't do it. Your life has value and think of your wife and loved ones. While I see that you don't want to disturb your wife, she is the exact person you need right now. You are probably feeling this way because you are in the depressive stage and without your meds. Maybe your wife or a relative can talk to your doctor at home and someone could pick up your meds and have them shipped out overnight. This is an emergency. Please try and don't worry about bothering your wife or those who care about you, because they would want to know and help you. Try this ASAP and if not, then whatever you are doing out of the country, I would get back to home ASAP under a medical crisis. Talk to your boss or whomever is in charge. I hope your boss or whomever will not scrutinize you and they don't have to know what it's for either. Even knowing your wife is ill is reason enough. I hope one of these things works. You need help NOW. If you feel like you are going to kill yourself now, go to an ER or some hospital, call a suicide prevention or crisis hotline if available. I will pray for you and pray that you get help and live. Call someone NOW. +
I just lost my daughter to suicide, Do not do that, It destroys you totaly, Destroys all around you, Your wife can never talk to you again. Alos do you want your suicide to be a message to your wife and child to do this as well. Stand for life not death . the feeling is not you.. live on for life
The way I see it, you have two viable options (suicide isn't one of them):
1. Report to the nearest Emergency Room and disclose what you've mentioned here. They should be able to find an interpreter if you can't speak the language.
2. Book an immediate flight back home, informing your company/clients that you have to tend to important personal issues.
Next time, be better prepared before you leave the house!!!
you loser... you think suicide solve them problem? think again my friend. live your life.