Failed suicide.?!
Question: Humphh, har. Yep, I'm talking about me, can't even get that right. No, it wasn't a cry for help, neither was it attention gaining, I truly wanted to die and very nearly succeeded. At the moment I'm trying to deal with the consequences of what I have done, face the music as it were. Please, please, does anyone have any encouraging words to give me? I've been battling with depression on and off for most of my life it seems, suicide was the "default" setting in my head and obviously I fought it off most of the time. However people can only see the times when I have succumbed to it and I understand completely that they judge me as weak, inadequate or whatever. They haven't had to live with the on-going nightmare of depression which is like a loop-tape of a horror film with no intermission. Is there a way back when a person has made themselves so contemptible in the eyes of others? Is the way back not to care what others think at all, to prove them wrong or something else entirely?
Answers: Humphh, har. Yep, I'm talking about me, can't even get that right. No, it wasn't a cry for help, neither was it attention gaining, I truly wanted to die and very nearly succeeded. At the moment I'm trying to deal with the consequences of what I have done, face the music as it were. Please, please, does anyone have any encouraging words to give me? I've been battling with depression on and off for most of my life it seems, suicide was the "default" setting in my head and obviously I fought it off most of the time. However people can only see the times when I have succumbed to it and I understand completely that they judge me as weak, inadequate or whatever. They haven't had to live with the on-going nightmare of depression which is like a loop-tape of a horror film with no intermission. Is there a way back when a person has made themselves so contemptible in the eyes of others? Is the way back not to care what others think at all, to prove them wrong or something else entirely?
hey there ,you didn't fail suicide. life failed you. and God didn't fail you. i have had real attempts too. i can't say i know what you are going thru. but i do know what it feels like to want to put an end to the pain in my life. i sufferred depression for many years. yeah like a horror film. as far as,is there a way back to a happy life yes. i lived for the lives of others all my life. i have strong faith in the Lord. the Word says "judge not less you be judged" that means, don't live on the judgement of others and the judgement of yourself. God loves you and so do i. ok yesterday was suicide but today is a new day i will pray for you and please pray for those who have the thoughts that you had yesterday. we need each other in this world. and i am sooooooooooo glad YOU ARE HERE. KEEP LOOKING FORWARD AND NOT BEHIND .
LYNN M
you had survive ,see it as a new begining and a signal that wasnt your time to part....that you survive didnt mean youre cure from your illness(depression,anxiety?) ....seek for profesional help and look at your everyday life this is something you could have been missing.....happend to me...
I know exactly what you mean. I've only had depression for about two years now, sometimes it's less intense, sometimes I find myself walking in front of cars hoping they'll drive over me.
I don't know how to get out of it (I would have gotten rid of it if I knew how) so I'm hoping to find some ideas by reading the answers you get. So far, the only successful ways I've found to snap out of it, if even for a moment, have been illegal.
Edit: From the replies so far it would seem that most people have no idea what depression is.
so I am a little confused.... are you wanting to get on with life and live? See a therapist and a doctor, and get set up with seeing them regularly.... maybe even seeing the therapist 2 times a week if you can. Journal... listen to relaxing music, take a class in DBT and that usually last 12 weeks...but it can be very helpful...
I failed a suicide attempt in 2002.... I still struggle... Life is about trials and those struggles. We have to make a new tape to play in our heads that suicide is NOT the answer....
Make a list of positive things about you....
you can email me if you want... I will be a listening soul.
Buy, borrow or hire the film 'It's a Wonderful Life'. Watch it, then get on with your life. I promise it will get better, you just have to give it time. I have lived with depression for the past 25 years, sometimes it is worse than other times but it is always there. You just need to do one day at a time, if that seems too much, then one hour at a time.
What bothers you? Completely avoid what bothers you. Only do the things you like.
hey listen suicide is not the answer. god does not want you to be a waisted creation plz. dont kill yourself you need a out of school activity i have thought about suicide almost went through with it but i didnt i thought to my self wait this is my life i can change the way i live it. by living...... because i saw the light i have helped alot of peope. my motivation. i see posters and memorials of people who have died for there country it warms my heart knowing that somebody that doesnt even know me is out there fighting for my right to live free so i help others i bring smiles to peoples faces i have walked out of the darkness and into the light laugh when you feel like crying live when you feel like dieng snd never foret there is someone who loves you and cant live without you
i had trouble with depression for a long time. I found comfort in music and that really helped me to realize how to get out of depression. The things that help me the most are some songs and quotes by tupac. I use to worry about people judging me until i fully understood the song Only god can judge me by tupac. It made me realize that suicide isn't the answer because it doesnt matter what people think of you its just what god thinks of you. "i know it seems hard sometimes but remember one thing.
Through every dark night, theres a bright day after that.
So no matter how hard it get, stick your chest out, keep ya head up.... and handle it.