I think i'm depressed!!?!
Question: It seems like every other day i'm sad, seriously!
and i'm in high school and i have to start planning for college and i'm not sure if i even really wanna go and it seems like every day i'm worried about something and i want to die and i think about death at night when i'm in bed. i'm being serious. and i feed myself these negative comments like "i'm ugly, stupid, unwanted, etc"
some days i feel like giving up on life, but at school i don't act sad because it's like i put on a mask and hide my feeling from everyone but inside i feel so sad....
Answers: It seems like every other day i'm sad, seriously!
and i'm in high school and i have to start planning for college and i'm not sure if i even really wanna go and it seems like every day i'm worried about something and i want to die and i think about death at night when i'm in bed. i'm being serious. and i feed myself these negative comments like "i'm ugly, stupid, unwanted, etc"
some days i feel like giving up on life, but at school i don't act sad because it's like i put on a mask and hide my feeling from everyone but inside i feel so sad....
I sometimes get bouts of depression and anxiety so i know how you feel. For example, now and for the past few days i've been feeling down and it gets annoying too. DON'T take meds for it though. Studies have shown that taking meds to get better just further increased negativity in people and suicidal thoughts. I never took any myself. Just take deep breaths and tell yourself over and over that everything will be okay and that you'll get thru this temporary phase. Listen to music, sing, read if you'd like. Even taking a hot bubble bath with calming bath salts like lavender can help calm your nerves and yourself. Or if you just feel like you want to talk to someone, feel free to email me.
Also, here is a 24 hour hotline crisis center # 240 777 4000. They can help you deal with your psychiatric situation and help you get better as well.
I know how you feel. I was an expert at disguise...at least till I had a complete breakdown in my counselor's office.
You should either talk to your school counselor or your doctor.
Either of them should be able to tell you where to get help. If necessary your doctor can prescribe antidepressants to even out your mood and block the suicidal thoughts.
You aren't alone in this.
I've felt something similar. Is there anyone at all in your life that you can talk to about these feelings? Someone close that you trust? I ask because in my situation I didn't have anyone like that and kept those sad and negative thoughts to myself. My life just went on that way, acting "okay" in front of everyone, but feeling like garbage behind closed doors. The thing is, it just goes on that way, because nothing changes.
So I would suggest talking with someone. You could talk to a teacher you like, or even your family doctor. Just tell them what you said here - you can even print it out for them. You're at a time in your life where things are changing, and that can have an affect on anybody. Don't keep it to yourself. Let someone you trust know. Take care of yourself.
I used to feel the same exact way but i tell myself positive things like "I'm going to get far in life" and "I'm going to do good and im going to college" you should never put yourself down because that'll only make it worse. Just look in the mirror and say "i am beautiful" you're God's child. You should never give up on yourself. Try to get into some after school activities to keep yourself busy or go out with some friends and hang out and enjoy yourself so that it will take your mind of of this negetive stuff. I'm sure you will be ok! everybody goes through this every once in a while. So keep your head up and be strong! I know you can do it! :)
It's important to understand that depression is not just feeling sad all the time. You may or may not feel suicidal. You are demonstrating some of the symptoms of depression, however, and this should be checked out.
It's also important to understand the difference between depressive episodes and clinical depression. A depressive episode is one having many symptoms of clinical depression, but not as long-lasting. Most people have at least a few episodes like this during their lifetimes, and most of the time they eventually come out of them on their own.
There are a few simple self-tests you can do right now. Go to www.depression.com or a medical site such as drkoop.com or webmd.com. They either have these tests or a link to one of them. After taking it, it will calculate a score giving you a rough estimate of the extent of your depression.
Then talk to a health care professional. Since you are a student, see your school nurse. Or make an appointment to talk over your feelings with social worker or therapist. You can also see your family doctor.
When you see this person, tell him/her everything you mentioned in your question. Also mention you took this test and what the results were. Tell him/her you were concerned the results pointed to the fact that you might be depressed, and what you should do. He/she can make a general evaluation and if necessary refer you to a specialist who can make an accurate diagnosis.
I wish you well and am rooting for you. You don't want to carry this with you to college if at all possible. I hope you can find some answers before then.
you need to seek help...you are in depression...you are so young and have so much life to live yet....you are one of many who doesn't have a clue what they are going to college for...that is why they start you out with generals....my last child changed her major probably 4 or 5 times....your not ugly and you sure arent unwanted...you have a family don't you....there are probably more people that care for you than you realize...talk to someone and get yourself some help....if you don't want to do it for you do it for everybody else in your life that cares..Mom of6
Weclome to the Club! I feeled the same way when I was in your Shoes! I made it! the same way about the Feelings inside.
I readed an Great book that helped me the bible I might have to reread it. Will I hope you give all what you have inside you to the Lord because he'll show you the Way.
will god Bless
Dougie
Wow I relate... I am 38 now and still go thru boughts of depression that are very severe at times, but in high school, everything seemed so big, important and I felt trapped. Trapped to be what everyone around me expected... I eventually dropped out and got lost. Instead of talking to someone about my feelings - I felt alone - felt no one would or could understand - I was tired of hearing trite meaningless verbage. I just withdrew.... I tried to deal with my feelings on my own and looking back I so wished I had the courage to keep trying talk to someone til I found someone who got it, even if it was a stranger...
Being older and hopefully wiser now, understand its ok to be sad and even have thoughts of suicide.... just don't let these feelings own you. Get some help if you need it... seriously... You are young and life is full of so much adventure and times ahead your gonna cherish... its ok you don't have all the answers right now or have the certainty of what direction you want to take... thats normal... It's the ups and downs in life that shape who we are...
I have a son who is in high school and he too is planning for college and his future... and I see his beauty within all the time... yet he gets real scared at times that he won't measure up... I tell him this...
" You have the strength to go as far as you desire too. Your gonna have successes and your gonna have failures... every path will lead to somewhere new... believe there is purpose behind everything and know something better is on the way for you. Take no lesson of life for granted... Your gonna learn, grow and bloom as you get older - don't put so much pressure on yourself to have all the answers now... just stay true to you, your heart and your dreams and the rest as they say, will fall into place" Just believe...
Keep your head up darling... your gonna be fine... be proud of who you are and what's around you...
Get help if you need it... but remember your life is very important and worth preservation, regardless of the trials and tribulations that lie ahead... you are precious...
Hugs and Kisses
~Wiqued