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Question: childhood: mum was so strict, im hit until now (severly).. until now we have a (naughty spot- room) actually its the bathroom where i spend the night if did sth bad... mum always mistrusts me... when i was 6 yrs old i stole things from ma friends but stopped whn i was severly punished(hit) 4 this attitude...I HATE MY MUM..dad is alwayz away travelling...
im now 19 . i am used to SEVERLY self harm, for the last 3 yrs ,(cut,burnt,pierced maself..overdosed.. i traverse streets without looking...im on a YOYO diet either i eat toooooo much or i starve myself..i never had a set weight....im am a danger seeker..for example i walk in dark streets instead of safer ones, i disobey laws..etc
my problem is: i cant have a BEST friend... im friendly,, ppl say im cute n sweet,ive lots of non close friends...but whn i get close to anyone & share with her all my problems @ the end i turn against her,though she was caring- and i say tht i want distance, i hate u , plz leave me alone...then i regret that deed n ask for her forgivness, but it is too late and they go away because the say i hurt them badly...i did that with 4 people before and im looking at my friends as if they are toys or sth and im trying to search 4 the (target) i mean the next girl who i will show deeeep love and care then ill turn on her @ the end...but i swear i dont mean to manipulate their feelings actually i feel tht hatred towards them @ the end.then i deeply regret it and i self harm myself deeply as a punishment..
i used to be successful but 4 the last coouple of years im not consentrating on ma studies,im always daydreaming.im either very happy n cheerful.or depressed crying with no reason..or im overexcited & "crazy n funny"..i really have no exact personality im too flexible iam what matches with the others...when im talking with a group its a mess i cant be myself coz i dun kno how to act.
i love being with my friends,i hate to b alone especially when i know ma friends are having fun together and im grounded or mum doesnt agree to the outing... im oversensitive. very easily hury and also forgive very easily
plz help me... mum doesnt believe in mental illness though i tried to kill myself and she witnessed and stopped this, two times ma friends cant help me...and i dont know what to do..
PS: in egypt i cant leave home and live bymyself i live with my parents untill i get married and i cant seek medical help alone....plz plz help me(crying)thanx
Answers: childhood: mum was so strict, im hit until now (severly).. until now we have a (naughty spot- room) actually its the bathroom where i spend the night if did sth bad... mum always mistrusts me... when i was 6 yrs old i stole things from ma friends but stopped whn i was severly punished(hit) 4 this attitude...I HATE MY MUM..dad is alwayz away travelling...
im now 19 . i am used to SEVERLY self harm, for the last 3 yrs ,(cut,burnt,pierced maself..overdosed.. i traverse streets without looking...im on a YOYO diet either i eat toooooo much or i starve myself..i never had a set weight....im am a danger seeker..for example i walk in dark streets instead of safer ones, i disobey laws..etc
my problem is: i cant have a BEST friend... im friendly,, ppl say im cute n sweet,ive lots of non close friends...but whn i get close to anyone & share with her all my problems @ the end i turn against her,though she was caring- and i say tht i want distance, i hate u , plz leave me alone...then i regret that deed n ask for her forgivness, but it is too late and they go away because the say i hurt them badly...i did that with 4 people before and im looking at my friends as if they are toys or sth and im trying to search 4 the (target) i mean the next girl who i will show deeeep love and care then ill turn on her @ the end...but i swear i dont mean to manipulate their feelings actually i feel tht hatred towards them @ the end.then i deeply regret it and i self harm myself deeply as a punishment..
i used to be successful but 4 the last coouple of years im not consentrating on ma studies,im always daydreaming.im either very happy n cheerful.or depressed crying with no reason..or im overexcited & "crazy n funny"..i really have no exact personality im too flexible iam what matches with the others...when im talking with a group its a mess i cant be myself coz i dun kno how to act.
i love being with my friends,i hate to b alone especially when i know ma friends are having fun together and im grounded or mum doesnt agree to the outing... im oversensitive. very easily hury and also forgive very easily
plz help me... mum doesnt believe in mental illness though i tried to kill myself and she witnessed and stopped this, two times ma friends cant help me...and i dont know what to do..
PS: in egypt i cant leave home and live bymyself i live with my parents untill i get married and i cant seek medical help alone....plz plz help me(crying)thanx
it sounds like you may have Borderline Personality Disorder. One symptom of this, is reckless behaviour for example risk taking and going down the dark dangerous streets instead of the safer ones.
here is the link for Borderline Personality Disorder, it fits your symptoms perfectly
http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publicati...
Also remember because you are still young your hormones are still playing havoc and have not settled down yet, which may explain your mood changes.
i don't know any organisations in your country that can help you since i am from the uk, but do you have a charity organisation that helps youngsters with mental health issues that you could phone or go visit?
You need to see a therapist and the sooner the better, I am not a doctor but what you describe could be Bi-polar
Talk to your mom. Tell her you're not ok.
& You need t realise that self harm is NOT the answer. trust me.
I did it for about 4 years & I'm only now realising that it is not a clever thing to do. I'm left with scars and you will be too if you dont stop cutting yourself.
I think you need help... & You need to try and get thehelp. Go to the doctors and explain whats wrong.
& whats to say you stay with your parents till you get married.
You're 19. You're old enough to go out andd make a living for yourself. Carry on with your studies and work at it.
You'll be fine. (:
& when you start feeling angry at your girlfriend. Stop and ask yourself why you feel this. Tell yourself that she's done nothing wrong and you don't want to hurt her.
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You do people what your mother did to you. You also do to yourself what your mother has done. for example if you feel like something you did was wrong, you automatically punish yourself, because thats what your mom would have done...if you cant seek outside help you need to just do the best you can in school and in your life. try your very best to avoid your mother. I know this will be hard but for your sanity you must..get involved in after school things so you spend less time at home. and as far as friends go, when you tell them your problems dont expect anything from telling them, tell them just to tell them. they can later decide what to do with the information. if they abandon you, then let it be. someone will eventually come along who is willing to help, even if it is only on the internet...You def need some medical help for the self harming and suicidal thoughts. There has to be one adult, aunt, uncle, grandparent, teacher who have the resources to help you. good luck and best wishes
maybe there is another way to get out. Are you in school? maybe transfer to a school farther away from home so you dont have to live there. I know all cultures are different and moving out may not be so simple. is there another family member you could go live with? (married sibling, cousins, aunt/uncle?) the situation you describe is no good for you and you may have to risk alienating your parents to get out and get some medical help. best of luck to you