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Question: iam 30 now with BPD and PTSD- ive had a very rough time in my life and in the process have missed out on life in a big way.
ive made mistakes, have a minor criminal record,.....never been employed...never built up ANY relationships with male or female...never got any qualifications...never lived basically.
the systems failed me in a big way as in only in the last couple of months i was assessed and diagnosed with BPD....and my psychiatrist has said i need psychodynamic therapy.......i agreed with this and said i want therapy to.
the problem is for a long time ive wanted to completely break away for a fresh start, go my own way....leave britain, which i dont like because ive had bad experiences and been victimized by alot of people....i just want to either move back to europe or outside the EU.
but i know im unable to leave the uk right now but i did want to move to another part of the uk, in a nicer area, away from old remiders...away from antisocial youths...& social stigma
Answers: iam 30 now with BPD and PTSD- ive had a very rough time in my life and in the process have missed out on life in a big way.
ive made mistakes, have a minor criminal record,.....never been employed...never built up ANY relationships with male or female...never got any qualifications...never lived basically.
the systems failed me in a big way as in only in the last couple of months i was assessed and diagnosed with BPD....and my psychiatrist has said i need psychodynamic therapy.......i agreed with this and said i want therapy to.
the problem is for a long time ive wanted to completely break away for a fresh start, go my own way....leave britain, which i dont like because ive had bad experiences and been victimized by alot of people....i just want to either move back to europe or outside the EU.
but i know im unable to leave the uk right now but i did want to move to another part of the uk, in a nicer area, away from old remiders...away from antisocial youths...& social stigma
It sounds like those who care about you don't want you to run from your problems. That is why they want you to deal before you move. There is nothing wrong with a fresh start, but I don't know if moving will help you achieve that. I can understand if you've been abused or taken advantage of by people in your area why you would want to get away and maybe ultimately that may be what you need to move on with your life and learn to live. It does not sound to me like anyone is trying to trap you, but in life you have to learn to deal with the things that happen, good and bad-running away will not solve anything. I think they are trying to help you come to some solutions before you move on. Good luck and God bless.
a wise man once told me: everywhere you go- there you are.
meaning: everytime you try to run from your problems, they just go with you.
Im not saying you cant leave or even agreeing with your docs and mom. I'm just saying, think about it first. Although, a move away from the triggers you spoke of might be good. Just make sure your move is for the right reasons. I wish you the best of luck.
I've been dealing with a similar problem, im a bit younger than you but i have bpd and ptsd. symptoms of both of those disorders are impulsive behavior. and it sucks ***. and while getting help etc dosen't seem like the best plan at the moment, it probably will help you be able to deal with what you're feeling and help you to plan out where to go, what to do, and how to "experience" life.
One of the problems you will have is that wherever you go your head goes too and your condition will not improve or go away by itself. I am so sorry you have been victimised and abused by people that is hard, but why not try and stick it out for a bit longer, if you don't react to them they will son get bored and ignore you. At least where you are now you have people around you who understand your coandition nd can give you the medical help you need.
Please do not do anything rash.
You do realise that everything that has passed you by, is of your own making, i think when you stop blaming everyone else, and start accepting that most of your problems are of your own making, then you will get some where.
In a way you're right, they do want to keep you there, but for the simple reason that that is where you will get the best help. Now you're embarking on the right therapy, it would be sad to burn your bridges and move away to where people may not be able to help you so well.
Are you taking your medications properly? I worry about you often.
I think....... maybe..... you could benefit from a short break away, someplace nice......
You wanna get outta here for good, live somewhere else, I know, but how does just a little holiday away sound? Seriously, you deserve it. Please, just consider it. It's not impossible to arrange and can be expensive or cheap, whichever you like. I went to a really lovely, relaxing place up near Devon a while back and I haven't forgotten it, it was so peaceful. I could just... breeeathe. You know? And you can totally go on your own too - in fact, I think it's way better alone than with company, you get to be yourself much more and do whatever you want to.
Anyways, take care hon.
BTW go on msn sometime ;) xx
It does not matter where you go. " You " follow....
As much as you want to move I think therapy first. Then when you make the move you will be so much better prepared.
Well done mate asking and accepting help is the road to recovery good luck