I'm seriously contemplating suicide...?!
Question: I am going through such a hard time! I am 17 and have been married for a year and a half. I love my husband, but he is the only one who works and I think he resents me because I don't work. I have dogs who I love so so so much, and recently I thought about fostering dogs and that it would be nice for a dog, so we did it and now I think it gave my dogs distemper!!! I am scared to death!! I hate it!! I am overweight, I have JUST been diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. I just want to end it all so so much!! The only thing that is holding me back is the fact that I don't want to hurt the people I love (My parents, My husband- My dogs!) I don't know what to do! We are flat broke because of medical expenses and the recent death of my other dog in December, we can't pay for my dogs to go to the vet- and it is HURTING me so bad inside to worry about them!!
Answers: I am going through such a hard time! I am 17 and have been married for a year and a half. I love my husband, but he is the only one who works and I think he resents me because I don't work. I have dogs who I love so so so much, and recently I thought about fostering dogs and that it would be nice for a dog, so we did it and now I think it gave my dogs distemper!!! I am scared to death!! I hate it!! I am overweight, I have JUST been diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. I just want to end it all so so much!! The only thing that is holding me back is the fact that I don't want to hurt the people I love (My parents, My husband- My dogs!) I don't know what to do! We are flat broke because of medical expenses and the recent death of my other dog in December, we can't pay for my dogs to go to the vet- and it is HURTING me so bad inside to worry about them!!
Brittany, You need to worry about you first and foremost. I know that by you putting this question out there for all to see, you are crying out for help. I understand that things seem tough right now and you think that they wont get better, but they will. Are you going to school? There is a coucilor there. You really should talk to someone. What about your parents? You say that you dont want to hurt them so they sound like they are good people. Are they available for you to talk to? I am sure that they would be willing to do whatever they could to help you out. Do you have a minister or a priest that would be able to council you?Sometimes life doesnt seem fair, but please just hang in there and try to find some help. Keep your chin up.
you can do it
call a suicide hotline. they can help you out!
You're only 17. You have your entire life ahead of you. Weight, diabetes, and other issues aren't enough to end it all over. I'm not saying your feelings aren't valid, because I understand how real they can be and how overwhelming life can feel. However, you've got to remember that every day is a completely new start. Make a list of the things you'd like to change and then take small steps toward those goals. One thing I can tell you, though, is that no matter what changes in your life (drastically improved finances, extreme weight loss, perfect health), none of it will mean anything unless you're content with yourself. Contentment comes from within, believe it or not. You can message me if you need to talk.
Don't commit suicide,I'm suicidal too,but to a point where I don't care if someone blows my brain out,I hold on to every little thing that I have.To many people commit suicide before the door of hope opens.
please dont do anything. everything will get better you just have to perservere. praying helps a lot. i will be praying for you.
pray to god and do not hurt yourself that would make alot of people you love hurt more than you do right now good luck and god bless
Sounds like you have had some bad times, but things will get better, if you can manage your diabetes you can change your weight, but if that is your stomach in your pic you do not look overweight to me. You are young to be married but you have a lot ahead of you. Do you have medical coverage to help with the bills? If not apply for medical assistance and make an appt to talk to someone.
Hunni . . . dont. i was there once too, and i kno i wouldn't hav believed anyone but it does get better. i'm so happy now i cant imagine what could ever be worth risking what i ended up with. i also kno what its like to lose a dear friend to that and trust me no matter what went wrong in his life he never made any worse mistakes than the last one. if u need to talk i'm here. home sick so i've got all the time in the world. :)
First off if you need to talk to a professional call 1-800-suicide.
If you are overweight try going on a diet and eating right. If you lose weight most likely your type 2 diabetes will not cause you many problems. Having dogs is a good way to get exercise if you walk them.
If you have to give up the dogs for awhile do it. Nothing says when you get on your feet again you can start up a dog business. It isn't fair to the animals if you can't take care of them.
You can look online for jobs even if you are just 17. Try these sites. http://www.snagajob.com/ and http://www.allretailjobs.com/
Give yourself time. Start working on a budget to save money.
You can make it. Starting off getting married at a young age is hard but if you sit down and plan it out you will see it can happen. Take one day at a time.
why don't you turn to your parents, tell them the situation, get a loan from them? You could also just get a job, give away the dogs to someone you know will care for them and that will let you see them any time you want. Millions of people are overweight, don't worry about it, i used to be one of those millions, but i was dedicated and i exercised constantly and ate right, that's all it takes, be dedicated to it and it can help your weight and your diabetes. As for work, start off small, do something at a grocery store or fast food place, you could even be a dog walker: it pays, you get exercise, you can spend time with dogs, and if you give your dogs away, you could be hired to walk them everyday. sound good?
look, for every problem there is a solution, you just have to work for it. Work HARD and you will be rewarded. Don't give up. i'll be praying for you.
Take to me I'm 17 and have been there http://www.myspace.com/mistfit_toy Maybe I can help. Please don't kill yourself.
thats crazy.... you are not planning for suicide but you are planning to increase the hardship of your husband ... thats selfish, you want to leave the trouble to your husband and even increase them by doing such a stupid act
You are 17 and married...well therefore we have a problem. And you have been diagnosed with type 2 diebetic...I think you need to get help really quickly. Mostly i think that you are projecting right now. There are all avenues for help in your case.
Suicide is NOT THE ANSWER. Things may seem difficult & all, but killing yourself is not going to make things any better. Just like you mentioned your loved ones, I'm sure they'd be completely destroyed inside if you were to kill yourself & that'd be on top of ALL the other problems. You just need to RELAX & talk to your husband or parents & I'm sure they'll be able to help you out just fine. Good luck!
Please don't. It may seem like things can't get better, but it will work itself out eventually. Suicide doesn't hurt the person like it hurts their loved ones. Talk to your husband about what's going on, and try to work out some things. So many people love you, don't do this to them.
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There is always hope, its never too late to turn your life around. Talk to someone about it and go get help. No matter what you do do not do it. My dads best friend commmited suicide about 2 months ago and it really hit everyone hard. My dad blamed himself for a while and his family was devistated. Nothing is ever worth ending your life over.
I know what you are going through. It isn't as bad as it could be. I am a young father who has had to watch friend and family die. File bankruptcy, loose everthing. All I can say is that you sound very depressed. Everything goes in cycles. I am a pesimistic to a degree I can't even explain, But things will turn around. You need to look at different opportunities that present themselves. I know nothing is there for the taking right now, but it will be. I have thought the same way you did until I caught a break. Everyone does. As for you husband, he doesn't resent you. He is under just as much pressure as you are, I guarentee it. My wife also doesn't work. We are a low to middle income family aswell. Nothing will make it better unless you and him take the initiative to change. As for your weight, that can be fixed as well. I see you have a cpu. Use it to your advantage. Nothing is more valuable than your life. If you think everything will be ok because you will be in heaven you're wrong. How do you even know if there is a God that will accept you with open arms. All i'm saying is there's no proof.
Please accept this answer< I've been in your spot aswell.
It all takes time.
so, did you get married aged 16? that`s very young when most people of your age group would be at school. You would have lost a lot of peer support. How old is your husband? Are you happy with him? I`d suggest seeing your GP, and asking if they`d be able to suggest counselling on the NHS, which is completely free. It might be an idea to contact your local College / community centre, and ask if they have any courses / groups you`d be interested in (even something like a local dog-walking group, where you could tackle your percieved weight problem, and boost your confidence). Take care, things can get better, believe me.
Call someone for help, it seems lousy right now but things will change. When you get older you will be amazed at how much things have changed over the years, I also was recently diagnosed with diabetes, and I can tell you that for me the expenses leveled off after the first year. As you get older the money will get better and many other things will change, many way faster than you expect. So hang in there and get some help, either a hotline or go find some counseling, counties usually offer it on a pay what you can afford basis.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
17 is so young to be married. Did you finish high school? If not, start thinking about getting a GED. If you finished high school, start looking into additional schooling so you have a career, a way to help contribute with finances in your household, a way to help rescue and care for the dogs you obviously love.
You can lose weight...it can be hard but it's not impossible! Also, the fact that you were just diagnosed with diabetes may be adding to depression and sadness. Talk to your doctor.
And you are right, it would cause untold pain to your human family and possibly life in an animal shelter to your dog family. I hope you stopped rescuing for now at least. Put your dogs first. Call up vets and tell them your situation...maybe one of them would let you make payments or let you work there to pay off the bill. You can contact Dr Warren Eckstein and describe the symptoms to him. www.thepetshow.com
Good luck~~I'm rooting for you~!
dont comitt suicide, really dont. im going thro a really rough time too,(maybe it happens w/ all 17 y.o) not really the same things as u are, but there pretty bad. but u jus really need to talk to ppl about it and make sure that they noe how u feel. and if u want to, u can always IM or emial me....... i love to help ppl, and i would be happy to help u. i really hope that everything gets better for u! good luck hun!!!
don't kill yourself,I personally think you are very good person because you care about people you love.You know,sometimes we all have these "rainy"days but remember after every rain,someday,somehow sunshine appears...
Ah dont do anything stupid! Your 17 years old, your still a young girl with your whole life ahead of you. I can tell ya from the bottom of my heart, its not as bad as it seems. If I had time to tell you my life story, you would think your problems are very,very small. Take a lot of hot showers and get a grip on things, one baby step at a time, and I promise,10 yrs from now you will look back and thank God you stayed with us.Your here for a purpose, it will come in time.Remember,there are lots of people that would love to trade places with you anyday.You have family that love you and just think what you can someday do for them. We love you, take care.
hi well for some reason i got online and ur letter was the first thing i read. well i dont know you but i do know that u have some much to live for. if it makes ur feel better my sister got married at such a young age and had to grow up fast... bills and responsiblity and all the hard times that come with that... she now has 3 beautiful girls and is doing much better. as for me i have pcos its and its been hard for me... but i try to make the best of it.... u can look it up its not the best thing for a gurl to have.....my husband has diabetes and thats been tough on both of us......everyong goes through it ..... some worst than others just be greatful for ur family husbands and dogs.. it will all work out.....some times going to church too..... just try ur hardest to do good things... and think good thoughts....... we just got back from the vet ... flip my brothers dog was feelin sick.. seems like we all go threw the same kinda problems.... i really hope that u dont think about takein ur life again it would really make me feel bad too..... life is a great thing....well take care.....
your life isnt as bad as you think it is - you're just going through a tough time and theres no need to kill yourself. try and get a small job or something while you get your life back on track, just to help pay the stuff that needs to be paid. i think if you and everyone around you, your husband, your family, your dogs, if you stick together then you'll be ok.
don't kill yourself that will just make worst just ask someone you trust to take care of all of this
hey Brittney, don't be foolish, you are just 17. There's no problem in the world which cannot be solved. I suggest that to counter your weight and health problems you must eat right and get some exercise too like going for a walk twice a day (you can take your dogs along to make it a joyful experience).
For the money part, you need to work, it's obvious. More important is what kind of work. My suggestion would be you should do something which truly excites you, something in which you find pleasure. By now I am sure you must have guessed it, since you love dogs you can start a dog care center. To make it more enriching you can also look at the prospect of a dog breeding center, where you can raise pups and then sell them for money. I see them as potential businesses where good money can be made. Such a work will also take care of your health and I am sure will bring a good future to you and your family.
For heaven's sake don't kill yourself. That will make life miserable for everybody around you especially for your husband. Think about it, with just a bit of conviction I am sure you can make it, like many others who have done it.
dont kill yourself stupiud