Am I the only one with bipolar who always has severe symptoms?!
Question: I am so frustrated with having bipolar symptoms all the time. I have had mixed moods nearly continously for 4 years, with only a couple days here or there that are OK. I have had bipolar since I was 12 and am 43 now, and I just can't STAND it anymore. (it's been all the time since I was 30 or so).
I have been thru all the meds & my doc says I need a university research hospital, but they are always full & I need someone else to drive me 150 miles to the ER & then I probably can't get in. Otherwise she says to go to NIMH national institute of mental health in washington DC & she would help me get there (not that she can help me get into the university hospital!!) My hubby is blind & I can't leave him so long.
I can't work even part time. I can't do my hobbies, most of the time. Volunteer jobs are too stressful. I can't stand leaving home or having people come here or call on the phone. It's appalling how much my life is restricted now.
So I am wondering, am I the only one?
Answers: I am so frustrated with having bipolar symptoms all the time. I have had mixed moods nearly continously for 4 years, with only a couple days here or there that are OK. I have had bipolar since I was 12 and am 43 now, and I just can't STAND it anymore. (it's been all the time since I was 30 or so).
I have been thru all the meds & my doc says I need a university research hospital, but they are always full & I need someone else to drive me 150 miles to the ER & then I probably can't get in. Otherwise she says to go to NIMH national institute of mental health in washington DC & she would help me get there (not that she can help me get into the university hospital!!) My hubby is blind & I can't leave him so long.
I can't work even part time. I can't do my hobbies, most of the time. Volunteer jobs are too stressful. I can't stand leaving home or having people come here or call on the phone. It's appalling how much my life is restricted now.
So I am wondering, am I the only one?
If there is any comfort to be found, it would be that you are definitely not alone! I am 27 and have been bi-polar II for too long. It has gotten out of control. This freakin disease has cost me so much, and just won't quit. My descision maker is kaput, and I am so very tired of living this way. I am starting to lose all hope. My job, my family life, my love life, my everything is in ruins. It is so depressing to have this as my reality. I have been on too many med's. and am now down to one (Abilify). It worked wonders, yet at this time (and I'm sure this is due to the fact that I abruptly stopped taking it, and just started again 2 months ago) my life has turned to sh!t. So, enough of this depressing stuff. There's got to be hope for us. There has to be. I just wish all of us sufferers the best and wish you can find a way to get all the help and answers you need. I know I need something more than this stagnating crap of a life that I'm living now. Thanks for letting me vent.
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no, you aren't. I am 37, diagnosed at 35, symptomatic since my teens. Pretty much all the time symptoms for me too. A few days that I am better. Don't enjoy much these days. Tried alot of meds, I have problems with severe adverse reactions. I was FIRED from a volunteer position - so... yeah. Are you in counseling? This might help some. I know you probably don't want to go, but, trust me, it's for the best! Wishing you much happiness and praying for you!
Nope you are not the only one suffering with this problem. I am 57yrs old and have suffered since i was a child with Anxiety, Depression, and Adhd. I locked myself away for five yrs and wouldn't leave my house couldn't even walk out the front door:( They have put me on so many Meds it isn't funny anymore. They just don't seem to work for me because of a Thyroid condition i have and they can't seem to stabilize it. Going thru the change has made it even harder to cope with. Take any kind of help you can get, pls!! Your husband needs you by his side it appears so you must take care of yourself for you as well as him.
BI-POLAR'S runs in my family i couldn't ecsape it!!
I have been able to work in the past actually had my own Business for ten years then had a really bad car accident and that finished my working outside of my home. Work out of my home doing Babysitting as long as i could, about six years, but since then i lost so much of myself the Depression has run my life no matter how hard i fight it, but i won't give up!!! And don't you.
I have a 16 year old. She has been dealing with the same issues herself. I would love for her to have just one good week, then a month if I can even dream this. She has been hospitalized twice so far. She is on meds for this mood and that mood, Along with the Bipolar , my daughter has adhd, asperger syndrome, and borderline personality disorder with anger traits. Plus she is a cutter to top it all off. This is just too much for one kid to deal with. I never know what mood she will be in until she she swings. I never know what she is going to say, or do when we go out some where. It seems like she is always in trouble in school. When she does do her work she is a great student. I read your post and it scares me on how my child's life will end up. I wish I could find the answer to your problems. And no you are not the only one.....And yes her meds are checked all the time, the ones she is on now seem to work better then any other ones. So many of them her moods to never stop swinging.