Depression, or fluctuating hormones ?!
Question: I will be 18 in August.
I have started to notice that my state of being seems to go in cycles. Overall I am happy. Although every 1-2 months I will have a spot of time where I am just, melancholy/sad, which usually lasts 2-7 days. I always try to see the best in every situation, and I am beginning to wonder if that is a good thing.. in the long run. I dont know if it is unusual to think about death, or suicide but I do. I don't think about actually committing suicide, but usually death in general, you could say that I am philosophical about it. Currently, for the pass few months my sleeping patterns have been terrible, where I stay up late into the morning, and crash around 4am to wake up around 8. My eating habits are bad, sometimes I feel I cant ever get full, and I just keep on eating. While other times, I wont eat much of anything. But I always feel extremely guilty about eating excessively, as I try to stay healthy, and keep my body in shape. I cant focus on my school work, I procrastinate, for no reason at all. Sometimes I just feel sad. I do not believe that I have any reason to be sad. My family loves me, I have a good job, I am respected by my peers and school administration, and honestly I have the ability to almost do anything that I please, with out getting in trouble for it. So why , randomly do I just start to feel sad?
I dont know if this is all due to hormones or if this is something I should take note of. I just dont know, but I am getting worried. I just feel like what I am feeling, isnt normal.
I am pretty good at convincing myself to feel a different way. Mind of matter. But now I dont know what is real, like for example, when I am sad, and when I try to be happy, -for a while I am. Then, I sort of fall down, figuratively speaking, and start the process over again.
I apologize for this being so fragmented. You could say that this form of writing could be similar to how I have been feeling lately. Any thoughts or opinions would be appreciated, please just honest and open.
Answers: I will be 18 in August.
I have started to notice that my state of being seems to go in cycles. Overall I am happy. Although every 1-2 months I will have a spot of time where I am just, melancholy/sad, which usually lasts 2-7 days. I always try to see the best in every situation, and I am beginning to wonder if that is a good thing.. in the long run. I dont know if it is unusual to think about death, or suicide but I do. I don't think about actually committing suicide, but usually death in general, you could say that I am philosophical about it. Currently, for the pass few months my sleeping patterns have been terrible, where I stay up late into the morning, and crash around 4am to wake up around 8. My eating habits are bad, sometimes I feel I cant ever get full, and I just keep on eating. While other times, I wont eat much of anything. But I always feel extremely guilty about eating excessively, as I try to stay healthy, and keep my body in shape. I cant focus on my school work, I procrastinate, for no reason at all. Sometimes I just feel sad. I do not believe that I have any reason to be sad. My family loves me, I have a good job, I am respected by my peers and school administration, and honestly I have the ability to almost do anything that I please, with out getting in trouble for it. So why , randomly do I just start to feel sad?
I dont know if this is all due to hormones or if this is something I should take note of. I just dont know, but I am getting worried. I just feel like what I am feeling, isnt normal.
I am pretty good at convincing myself to feel a different way. Mind of matter. But now I dont know what is real, like for example, when I am sad, and when I try to be happy, -for a while I am. Then, I sort of fall down, figuratively speaking, and start the process over again.
I apologize for this being so fragmented. You could say that this form of writing could be similar to how I have been feeling lately. Any thoughts or opinions would be appreciated, please just honest and open.
Hate to tell you this but it's called life. I've been through it for most of mine and it started when I was about your age. I'm almost 30 now. I actually congratulate you for your form of writing. I'm learning to deal with writing myself. What I consider is to just plain and simple write everyday about how you feel about your life. If you have a true friend that does not judge you, than talk to him/her. If you don't then write your heart out. It has helped me with the dark years of my life and I have never been more in tune with my life.
I've often had to convince myself of things as well. I recently lost my job and have never been with out a job since I was legal to work. I've had to convince myself that I Do have a purpose and just go by that. Seems to be working so far. Never been happier.
Depression, or fluctuating hormones.... could also be lack of vitamins and minerals
I think you really need to see your doctor. Everyone is different but you if you feeling this way and you are concerned it would be best to talk to an expert. I hope you get this figured out for yourself.
Hiya, i sometimes get those things you have mentioned.
It sounds a bit strange, but what i tend to do is when i get upset, i go out for a jog or out on my push bike for half an hour or so, it normally seems to help. - give it a go
Hope this helps.
Both.
could be depression or fluctuating hormones
I don't want to scare you or anything but the symptoms sound like you've got bipolar disorder. It's a form or depression when you go through periods (episodes) of being depressed and then feeling really high (mania). If something traumatizing happened to your recently you might have got the disorder through depression but it can also be genetic. I know you might not like it but you need to go see a therapist or a psychiatrist. There's nothing wrong with you, you just have an illness which is probably genetic. If you don't go see someone your problem might start to interfere with your life so much that you get sick of life and get suicidal or something.
Take care.
Either or both. You might want to google PMS. In any case, see your doctor for a check up and basic lab work including thyroid. You might also want to see a psychiatrist that specializes in mood disorders. My personal bias is that they are the MD experts in mood issues, and also are better at diagnosing and treating them than GPs. The messed up sleep is the main reason I mention the pdoc instead of just working with your GP.
EDIT: Guess I could have looked at your name a little more closely! Maybe the PMS google isn't necessary. Btw, the radical change in exercise probably is a factor.
You need to mark on the calendar the days that you are down and out that will help you know if it is likely to be hormones or not. Go ahead and feel what you are feeling, don't feel like you have to just put on a happy face all the time.
You could be depressed as well as having PMS or PMD. It seems the symptoms set in or get notably worse between the ages of 16 and 24 or so, so it is likely that is what is happening. They have meds for those problems that really do work! so after you mark the calendar for 2 or 3 months and see whether it is hormonal or cyclic then go to the doctor and let him know.
Of course it would be best if you go in to the doctor right now. It sounds like you are not doing very well for the most part--and it does sound a lot like depression. Ask for some welbutrin samples or a prescription. It has helped so many people (including me =) I think it might actually help with hormonal fluctuations as well as depression. Ask the doc about that.