Do you know wht its like to live in fear?!
Question: Yeah! When I was in my mid teens and the dogs would bark in the middle of the night, with a certain pitch in their barks, without communicating with each other, I would slip out the back door with my shotgun as dad would slip out the front door with his shotgun. We would stand in shadows and look around until we felt that everything was okay. When everything was okay, we would quiety return to bed.
And that was a relatively uneventful night! When I was 10 years old, I was trained not to answer the questions of strangers, and I could recognize plain clothes cops. Of course, back in those days it was easier to tell a cop from a criminal. Everything is different now. Now, the cops and criminal aren't as different from each other as they once were.
One time my dad moved his hand near my face, and I involuntarily flinched. He got really mad, "Goddamn you! Don't ever ask like you are scared of me! I'll knock the (*****) out of you!"
I lived in daily fear of being beaten, stabbed, maybe killed for a couple years. Always looking over my shoulder. Always watching who was around me and were I was at.
What made it so bad, is that those were rational fears that supported survival.
Today, I live a completely different life. My children and grandchildren have never known fear like I have. Ahh... They're all soft, too. Soft lives make soft people!
Answers: Yeah! When I was in my mid teens and the dogs would bark in the middle of the night, with a certain pitch in their barks, without communicating with each other, I would slip out the back door with my shotgun as dad would slip out the front door with his shotgun. We would stand in shadows and look around until we felt that everything was okay. When everything was okay, we would quiety return to bed.
And that was a relatively uneventful night! When I was 10 years old, I was trained not to answer the questions of strangers, and I could recognize plain clothes cops. Of course, back in those days it was easier to tell a cop from a criminal. Everything is different now. Now, the cops and criminal aren't as different from each other as they once were.
One time my dad moved his hand near my face, and I involuntarily flinched. He got really mad, "Goddamn you! Don't ever ask like you are scared of me! I'll knock the (*****) out of you!"
I lived in daily fear of being beaten, stabbed, maybe killed for a couple years. Always looking over my shoulder. Always watching who was around me and were I was at.
What made it so bad, is that those were rational fears that supported survival.
Today, I live a completely different life. My children and grandchildren have never known fear like I have. Ahh... They're all soft, too. Soft lives make soft people!
i do it alot from panic and health disorders
however God is helping me everyday
try praying and believing in the healing power od God
call friends and go to church
Yeah, and its a waste of time.
fear of what?
of what athletes foot
yes i was abused for a long time when i was young then i suffered domestic violence , now everything getting better slowly thanks to talking therapy and antidepressants
yes...
i suffer from panic disorder and agoraphobia....and a fear of the unknown...it's scary. When one has panic disorder, it's stressful enough(i mean..i'm 15!) but when it is mixed with agoraphobia..i dont think that there can be anything else worse mentally. It's scary and really unnecessary bc deep down u know that nothing is going to happen to you, but when your heart is racing, you cant breathe, the world is spinning so fast that you feel like u are going to fall off, it's extremely scary. Luckily, i am getting better because i am trying to stay in the reality. with this condition-one often drifts off into the unreality....almost like euphoria ( except 1000000000 times worse) but...with the support of my family, journaling, yoga, seeing a therapist that i am very grateful for, and sometimes just talking about it, i am getting better =) and i couldn't be more grateful =)))))
yes...its only killing yourself more and more..
I certainly do because I lived in fear for many, many years. There is nothing worst then that! Whatever the fear's subject, It unables you to LIVE. It's like living in a cell in the middle of an outstanding garden. You can see all the beauty around you, but you can't get out........
Try to get out...maybe someone has the keys
yeah have you noticed how big spiders are getting these days :-)