get up early in the morning say to yourself "me, jennifer was not in the best of the healths few dayz back and my subconscious mind which is the master of all the works is healing me progessively day by day and i am now able to find the "Me" inside"
say these things when you go before bed or u in a drowsy state atleast for 3 mins for 10 dayz............and see the change for sure.........
think of the moment when you were a small child and u were happily living with your parents....experience that moment.......never thing negatively .........
ask to yourxelf who you want to be n see the change...it will work 100% for you ...a gaurantee.......
plz tell me ur progress and any help needed contact me....
get help..
It could be that by having all these other "yous" in your head, what you are really trying to do is make other people happy with that you think they would like you to act. Does this sound familiar? Perhaps a first start would be to be less conscious of what others think of you, and act how you want to act.
Stop trying to act as other would have you, instead act how you want to. Take pieces of other "yous" and that can be the new you.
It Is Time To Seek Professional Help. I don't mean to sound mean but you need to before those voices tell you to do something really bad, and they will.
I have bipolar. Stick with a dr and start taking some drugs (prescription). Sounds like you're in psychosis from being sick so long without treatment. Get a dr and stick with the programme. Spill your guts to your family and friends and ask them to support you with getting better and taking meds. With bipolar and no meds, it's just going to get worse. Believe me, I know!
I think you really need to listen to your doctors. You are obviously feeling upset by this, and there is support there for you if you need it which you obviously do. Dont be embarressed you are an ex cutter you are brave to stop that behaviour and you are brave to be on here now asking for help. I think you should ask your mum or a close friend or even a councellor at your community centre to come to the doctor with you so you have someone with you and dont need to run away. Give the doctors a go, try the things they prescribe for you, it doesnt have to be forever and is worth a go. Maybe that will stop the voices in your head for a while so you can get some peace. then you can think about what kind of life you want turmoil and pain or something calmer maybe. Then you can work out who you are. You need some rest from this.We all have difficult periods in our lives its nothing to be ashamed or embarressed about.Its all up to you. It can be dangerous if you keep acting the way others want you to, so you do need to find your own self. Obviously you are ready to get some help please dont be afraid you are stronger than you think. We all need help at times. Take care you are worth it
Hi Jaqueline,
I'm the same age as you and have been trying to work through my own stuff. I found that I was at my worst when I was constantly trying to self-analyse. It was only when I focused less on myself and more on the outside world that I started to improve. Medication and seeing a psychologist really, really helped.
If you're in Australia, you can get free access to psychologists. If you're in the US, I found that some psychs charge on a sliding scale. It's not surprising that you would run away if you felt someone was just categorising you. Try to find people who listen more than they judge; talking aloud really helped me organise my thoughts.
All I know is internalising my problems just made them much worse and led to me withdrawing more and more. Try and get help, this is a lot to go through on your own.
Feel free to contact me if you want someone to talk to. Good luck!
Amy
You poor girl, this must be a very hard situation for you.
firstly just know, these voices have no power over you.
they cannot make you do anything
you are in control of yourself.
you need to find a good psychologist/councelor and talk to him regularly. if you have supportive parents, ask them to help. or if you have good friends you trust.
just dont listen to the voices. block them out.
you are you, you can have lots of different sides of you and that is normal.
but definately seek help from a psychologist ok, and just let them help you, for your own sake
I'm so sorry you feel this way.
You've gotten some wonderful advice, but I wanted to offer my two cents.
There was something about your question that really struck me. My sister suffered from a similar mindset and was diagnosed with schizophrenia. I'm not trying to diagnose you. I'm just trying to give you an alternate explanation to your behavior.
You need to talk to someone as soon as possible, even though it might be difficult. I hope things work out for you.
Hi Silentwhispers85,
It sounds as if you might be suffereing from dissociation and or post traumatic stress disorder.......not sure cos i am not qualified to diagnose.....
you said you were sexually abused as a child.....and beaten often by your mother as a child.....this can cause ptsd and dissociation. Being grown does not make the hurting go away....you need help dealing with it
if at all possible try to find a therapist who specializes in abuse trauma therapy
if you cant then try to find some online support....type in child abuser survivor support..........i have one listed below
The silent whispers you hear need to be silenced and only you can do that. We are very impressionable when we're little girls and it's so unfortunate for us that some of the people we had to grow up around didn't recognize or care that we had and have tender souls that they could be damaged so deeply. But you listen to me baby girl, child of God, they can NOT take from you what God gave you when you were born. The only time the demons can do that is if we LET them. So it is of utmost importance that you understand, FIRST and FOREMOST, that you are a child of God. Surrendering your pain to Him can be difficult because "WE" have a tendency to not want to inflict our pain or inflicted shame on any one else. But please understand me here and now that, that is YOUR GOD GIVEN RIGHT!!!!!
Do not let those voices, the alter ego's that haunt you, take you away from what is RIGHTFULLY yours. Being a bad @ss will never lead you to happiness. All you have to do is look around you and you will see the truth. Always look at the children and you will see the truth, regardless of what the children look like. You DO know the difference between right and wrong, your insides tell you at every split second because that's how God works. You have free will and HE will never interfere with that. But it's that still small voice that LIVES inside of you at the INSTANT you're choosing that should guide you. Ignore THAT voice and you can take a wrong road, in the blink of an eye.
You have to live with your self for the rest of your life. Every one else will come and go, and that should be your choosing, in fact it MUST be your choosing. You have to abandon what everyone else thinks and get REALLY clear with your SELF. Your first obligation is to get real with YOU, because no other has to live out the rest of their days with you, except YOU. YOU must choose what you want those days to look like. What weather are you most happy in? What will you no longer tolerate? What is the job that will make you feel the most fulfilled? What environment do you envision that you will raise your children in?
YOU are the GRAND architect of YOUR life. Get responsible and design your OWN road map for your LIFE. Where you came from does NOT dictate your future, unless you let it, unless YOU choose it. What you think most, you shall become!!!!! It doesn't sound to me like that's what you want your destiny to look like. You DO have a choice sweetheart!!!!! But YOU are the decider of which road you take and that will always be the TRUTH.
Grab YOUR steering wheel Darlin' and drive your car of life in the direction that YOU want it to go. To hell with whatever you've heard, whatever has been done to you, and DECIDE
RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!! that you will TAKE BACK your persoal power that GOD GAVE YOU AT BIRTH. Leave ALL the demons behind you. They can NOT follow you if you cast them out for good. Do it sincerely and GOD will take care of it for you, I promise you that with all my heart. But the catch is, that you have to KNOW and BELIEVE that WITH ALL OF YOUR HEART.
It may sound quircky to you right now, but your focus and perception are PARAMOUNT to your outcome and well-being. You can spend thousands on counseling, and you might find some crutches to hold you up for a time. Please understand that all pain that we experience in life is to DRIVE us to a search for something better. Don't let the victim role overtake you. Recognize that it's a PUSH for you to go farther in your search for truth. You have to find your SELF. And you have to know that the discovery of your SELF is the MOST important job you have in your life.
Stop thinking that you're weird. You're not. We ALL go through hell but we can't compare one hell against the other. Hell is hell. Again, it's all a matter of perception. Be careful of what you allow your mind to focus on.
I can't go further without stressing the importance of your nutritional intake. The human body and mind were designed for gargantuan success. When they're not functioning at optimum levels, then something is amiss and every single affects the other. It's a chain reaciton. Our emotional health depends on our nutritional health. EVERY vital organ in your body has to be supported with the proper fuel in order for the beautiful machine (human body) to run at mach speed.
I heard your cry for help and it hurts my heart, so please pay attentinon because I'm telling you the God's honest truth. It's a MASTER design and if you follow along, it will work. Instead of hurting yourself, start HELPING your SELF. Get rid of all of your old beliefs since they aren't working for your betterment. Grasp some truth and self love here and STRIVE for happiness and health. I have been through crap that I don't even want to talk about so instead of going there, let's just talk about real SURVIVAL, coming from a woman who KNOWS cause in the end, the proof is in the pudding.
Start with taking high levels of a B vitamin complex. That's a MUST!! B 12 & B 6 are of great importance for all women. The national RDA is NOT sufficient. I'm sorry this is so long, but I SO felt your hurt and despair so I'm going to give you links to sites that I believe can really help you. I have no affiliation with these sites but I have researched their products and I believe them to be excellent and beneficial to all who use them.
I pray with all my hear that you find your true happiness and fulfillment. Sweetheart, get away from the bad environment and race toward your true health and happiness, it's your RIGHT! May God Bless you with relief from all that ails you. I wish you all the happiness in love and life.
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