Can u help me????plz?!
Question: I am extremely pissed off right now.I don't know why God always does that to me.I am so mad right
now that I just wanna bang my head in the wall.My head feels like exploding because of anger.
So let me start off by saying what happened.
Right now I am studying in a University of information technology.From the very beginning some guys
have been jealous of me,saying things like you can't get good marks or we are gonna outscore you in the semester.But that does'nt bother me cause I knew that I was gonna top in my class.I have
been looking forward to the results all semester to rub their face in it(six months).So I trusted a guy to tell me the date on which the results will be declared.But that asshole did'nt tell me.
25% of my anger is on this guy.The remaining 75% is on myself.I just wanna kill myself.
So as I did'nt know,I did'nt know that the results were declared.Today I went to the university to pay my fees and found out result was declared three days ago.I actually did top in my class but nobody knows that as they wont tell you another student's marks as long as he is present there.I so wanted to prove everyone wrong(which I did)but nobody knows.Plus I can't tell anyone right now cause we are having semester break right now.Also if I keep on telling it to everyone I
would come off as an arrogant and kocky jerk.
my problem is how do i calm my anger.I can't control this rage.Plz don't tell me to get professional help or counselling cause I can't afford it right now.
How do I make myself feel better knowin I was looking forward to this day for almost six months.
Thinking about it almost every minute of the day,the feeling I will have after proving everyone wrong and the look on their faces.
Sorry it was so long.I had to explain the reason of my anger.
Answers: I am extremely pissed off right now.I don't know why God always does that to me.I am so mad right
now that I just wanna bang my head in the wall.My head feels like exploding because of anger.
So let me start off by saying what happened.
Right now I am studying in a University of information technology.From the very beginning some guys
have been jealous of me,saying things like you can't get good marks or we are gonna outscore you in the semester.But that does'nt bother me cause I knew that I was gonna top in my class.I have
been looking forward to the results all semester to rub their face in it(six months).So I trusted a guy to tell me the date on which the results will be declared.But that asshole did'nt tell me.
25% of my anger is on this guy.The remaining 75% is on myself.I just wanna kill myself.
So as I did'nt know,I did'nt know that the results were declared.Today I went to the university to pay my fees and found out result was declared three days ago.I actually did top in my class but nobody knows that as they wont tell you another student's marks as long as he is present there.I so wanted to prove everyone wrong(which I did)but nobody knows.Plus I can't tell anyone right now cause we are having semester break right now.Also if I keep on telling it to everyone I
would come off as an arrogant and kocky jerk.
my problem is how do i calm my anger.I can't control this rage.Plz don't tell me to get professional help or counselling cause I can't afford it right now.
How do I make myself feel better knowin I was looking forward to this day for almost six months.
Thinking about it almost every minute of the day,the feeling I will have after proving everyone wrong and the look on their faces.
Sorry it was so long.I had to explain the reason of my anger.
Eventually every one will know, think of it as a closely guarded secret that like wine only gets better with age. In the meantime focus on the fact that it's what YOU think that matters, sooner or later you have to give up on the idea of letting others control your reactions. They're yours and only yours, no one else can make you feel good about yourself and no one else can make you feel bad about yourself it's your opinion of yourself that matters. Now go read If by Rudyard Kipling every day for a month.
so what is ur question......?
A mild anti-anxiety pill like xanax or atavin would help a lot. Ask your doctor. But, you should probably also go to a therapist because life always has those sort of frustrating events. Besides, surely they know you scored better than them so they made sure not to find out. You won this contest a long time ago, and maybe you've been rubbing their faces in it for awhile, too. At any rate, your accomplishment hopefully means a lot more to you than it could ever mean to them.
Don't waste your time or energy on those arrogant guys. You know your the top of the class and that's all that matters. Don't bother going and trying to rub it in their face when you get a chance either, it was just give them all the more reason to pester you. Their thing isn't that they want to be on top, it's that they want to get your reaction.
First of all calm down, relax and breathe.
Second, I think it is so great that you are top of your class. You should be very proud of yourself.
Look, those guys are just trying to piss you off. Some people just enjoy getting people upset like it is a hobby. If you were not there, they would grab the next guy as their target. It has NOTHING to do with you personally. They are jealous yes but KNOW that you are smarter.
Like I said, they are trying to piss you off and you know what, it's working.
To me, the most powerful thing you have is controlling YOUR reaction. Right now, they are controlling how you react. They do this, you get mad. Now you are obsessed with letting them know your grade. You know, it doesn't really matter if they ever know. They will still make fun and try to piss you off. They will not say "Oh you were right, you are smarter than us" they will never say that.
You have to learn that there are sooo many jerks out there. You have so much going for you and it would be horrible to diminish your great accomplishments because of them. One day you will look back from your desk as CEO of some major company and think "Why did I ever waste my time thinking about those idiots?"
Make your grades for yourself. Make yourself happy. When you pass those guys, don't even look at them. When they say something to you and I mean anthing, ignore them.
Take care of YOURSELF ok