I cut myself..but even I don't know why?!
Question: I am 15 years old. several months ago I made my first "cut" it wasn't a cut though, for I used a pen to scratch myself until i started to bleed. this was for attention. a cry for help if you will.
i still have the mark on my arm (hopefully it'll go away soon) but recently I've started to actually use scissors to cut myself.
my friends (two of my closest) know about it. I don't want them to get involved with this because I don't want them to think I am seeking attention, but I feel like at some level i AM. I tell them everytime I cut because I know if I don't tell anyone, I will end up hurtin myself too much.
I do it for pleasure and emotional comfort, but I tell my friends to keep it under check. All day today all I could think about was cutting myself - even now I feel a need to. I am scared. I don't want to accidentally cut a tendom and paralyze my arm..:/ am I selfish? a freak just desperate for attention?
sad part is i LOVE my scars. and the blood. what's wrong with me??
Answers: I am 15 years old. several months ago I made my first "cut" it wasn't a cut though, for I used a pen to scratch myself until i started to bleed. this was for attention. a cry for help if you will.
i still have the mark on my arm (hopefully it'll go away soon) but recently I've started to actually use scissors to cut myself.
my friends (two of my closest) know about it. I don't want them to get involved with this because I don't want them to think I am seeking attention, but I feel like at some level i AM. I tell them everytime I cut because I know if I don't tell anyone, I will end up hurtin myself too much.
I do it for pleasure and emotional comfort, but I tell my friends to keep it under check. All day today all I could think about was cutting myself - even now I feel a need to. I am scared. I don't want to accidentally cut a tendom and paralyze my arm..:/ am I selfish? a freak just desperate for attention?
sad part is i LOVE my scars. and the blood. what's wrong with me??
i made my first cut when i was fifteen. When i started i had no clue why because it wa so hard to hide it from people and i didnt want people to find out. I dont know what it was but it gave me a good feeling to watch the cuts fill with blood.
What i will tell you is that you need to stop. Its hard to do but you need to do it.
The only person i ever told was my boyfriend because i knew he was going to find the scars. when i told him he made me realize how stupid it was.
You should tell your parenrs about ot. they will help you out!!
I hope it all works out!! Good luck
it may have started for attention or because you saw someone else doing it, it could have been a stranger, a relative, or even a friend.
you saw how much people really care about you and you might not want to give that up yet. maybe you dont have a perfect home life or social life.
You cant stop thinking about it because your bored!!! find something to do, something productive. Try drawing, or calling a friend on the phone.
I think it is a subconscious cry for attention. Probably because you have heard of other people doing it and want to get noticed. Its not a chose, just something you mind had picked up.
dont listen to those aholes
most teens now a days dont know who to talk to about their emotions. they think that cutting themselves and someone seeing them will give them the opportunity to be confronted about it, therefore giving them the chance to talk about whatever is bothering them.
your not emo. you just need someone to talk to.
man im sorry that you're going through a rough time right now. i've had a lot of my friends deal with it, and it's really tough. you most certainly are NOT a freak for doing this at all, a lot of people do it, but it doesn't necessarily mean that it's okay. cutting is a way of trying to cover up emotional pain with physical pain. even though the physical pain you might not even feel. i know this sounds impossible to do, and as much as you don't want to resort to this, i think your best bet would be to talk to a school counseler or your parents. i know you don't want them to freak out over this, but it's their job to care about you. you could see a psychiatrist and actually understand why your doing this to yourself, and its the easiest way to stop. good luck <3
I think eventually the habit will go away people handle stress differently some people will eat a lot, cry, not eat depending on the person, don't worry about what people think what if they were in your situation.
I would suggest seeing a therapist for this. Talk to them about how you feel. Usually there is always a deeper reason why people harm themselves. Maybe there is a reason why you are seeking attention. For example, do you feel loved by your family? Thats just an example, you could have a different reason entirely. Try talking this through with a therapist. They might be able to give you some insight. Good luck! =]
I used to know a girl like this.
My cousin. She was 19, and used to cut herself. Her reason was that it was "pain on the outside would numb the pain on the inside".
She had a pretty spoilt childhood. Her mum did everything for her. Still does. I guess the pain she was talking about came from the arguments her parents have almost every night.
She also likes blood and pain. But she eventually realised that cutting herself wasn't the best way to see blood and pain.
She went to a psychologist, and while she was only there for about 2 months, she stopped cutting herself. She still likes blood, but not to the extent that she will harm herself.
I think you need to talk to someone. If not a councellor, then ask your parents. If they're not supportive of you, remind them why you started doing it in the first place. Go to a family councellor, and see if they can change their ways, while you change yours.
Good luck.
you should try to talk to someone about it, your parents or a school councler tell them why you think you do it. and you need to find a way to ween yourself off of cutting like reward yourself in someway when you go a few days without doing it. you don't want to take the chances, because one day the cutting will become boring and you with start doing more drastic things to hurt yourself.
To jump on the band wagon YOU ARE A F***ING EMO EMO!No offence but u is girl!
it is a mental disorder. my guess is you enjoy pain to a point. a lot of people do. it is not always a cry for help sometimes i do it to avoid hurting others
Actually, there is nothing wrong with you.
When you cut, your body releases endorphins.
Endorphins are what make you happy.
You may love your scars, but it is really not healthy.
I'm worried about you! So many teens and adults die due to cutting!
This site has a lot of things to do that release endorphins (like eating a chili pepper :D)
Think about it... soon you can stop thinking about cutting all day and think about... CHILI PEPPERS!
http://yourtotalhealth.ivillage.com/diet...
Also, I knew someone who stopped cutting by wearing elastic rubber bands on his wrist and snapping them when he got the urge to cut.
And, finally, you are not emo, don't listen to the others. But seriously, take my advice. Please, please please please don't hurt yourself anymore.
ok first people should not call you emo because you arnet.
you just need to find out why you want attention ok i know how to because i have thaght about it befor
I use to cut myself too.Not for attention but so I could say that "this cut is why I hurt" or"I do it to make sure I still have feeling" both of those were just poor excuses to hurt myself.To this day I'm still struggling with the temptation to do so.All you can do is find someone to talk to that you can trust and pray to God to help you.I hope this helps.