I'm dis-satisfied with my life, why?!
Question: I got clean five years ago after being addicted to heroin and crack for 15 years, I am now 100% abstain-ate, I have a job, am married to a kind man, have one good friend, a dog, a home yet I still feel empty. I don't connect, I still lie, steal and feel different, why/
Answers: I got clean five years ago after being addicted to heroin and crack for 15 years, I am now 100% abstain-ate, I have a job, am married to a kind man, have one good friend, a dog, a home yet I still feel empty. I don't connect, I still lie, steal and feel different, why/
the key is ...you said " im not fullfilled."
thats it.
you gotta find out what it is that might fullfill you.
without it.... is like looking for keys to a car that doesnt exist.
and im wondering about the " ..feel different" part.
different about what ?
see... if youre harbouring some deep inner demon... then it doesnt matter what you do to feel happy and fullfilled... you wont find it...
you gotta deal with the demon first.
i quit smoking weed after 20 years.... ( not the same i know but roll with me.)
i am in a monogamous(sp?) relationship with a guy for 14 years. I have 2 great danes. one good friend, A lowrider truck. A ninja 1200 sportbike. A 1966 streetlegal dunebuggy. A 36 ft motorhome.
A 2400 sqft house with an indoor pool...and a ride-on lawnmower..and Im retired at 41.
I couldnt ask for a better world to live in than the one i do.
yet... i couldnt more unhappy with my life.
why? i didnt know until recently.
Inner chaos was my daily menu. Every single day I waged war against myself inside, and couldnt understand why.
I didnt fit into this world, i couldnt find people i could relate to or even wanted to get to know.
I wished everyday was the last day.
then i found out what was wrong. (and NO , it wasnt God )Once i did... i discovered from that knowledge what it was gonna take to give me fullfillment in life... inner peace and satisfaction, a stop to the constant inner torture i would put myself thru.... a sense of pure and true happiness... a sense of purpose.
and it was so simple, yet until i knew... my world was dark and lonley... despite the love and care my spouse gave me.
thank god he hung on for me tho.... i couldnt say i would have waited so long.
i dont have yet what I need to be happy with my life...but i know where it is... and im going to get it. Right now.
Time to connect pal...with yourself.. get selffish and dig deep.
life is too short not to have a meaning for you. Find it.
i hope this helps... i wish you well...i really do.
if u need to just ...chat... msg me.
Stop lying and STEALING! That is a very bad thing, you should know that. And get more friends, the more you have around you the more you feel loved. And don't bottle things inside of you.
you are not working your progam go back to step one. get in touch with your HP! you have to discover who you are with your new life.
If you stopped lying and stealing maybe you would feel a connection. You need to get help and get rid of these "habits".
Addictions are very complex conditions. Be grateful that you have what you do. It is a good thing that you acknowledge the other sideline problems, too.
The answer is that you have a spiritual need that has not been fully addressed. Are you in enough pain and turmoil to make a move on this crucial issue? Remember how bad it was right before you stopped using? Don't wait until last minute to change. Be well.
Perhaps you originally covered up your dysfunction with substance abuse, now that you are clean you are facing it again.
This could be a very positive step for you, allowing you to deal with the root of your problem and maybe solve it once and for all.
I recommend doing some very deep introspection, asking yourself the hard questions and being honest in your answers.
Seeking the advice of a professional might also help ( only the right one ). Good luck!
maybe you need to find guidance, something in your life to aspire to, something to look forward to, try find a new hobby, activity or routine to keep you busy and entertained. maybe som spirituality. i would just try a few of these things and see if they help