Why am i so crazy?!
Question: i am so insecure. i feel like i am the most awkward person in the world, although no one else thinks i come across this way. i feel hideous, like literally disfigured. but a lot of people think that i am pretty (although i feel like they are all lying). i am super shy but it comes across and snobishness, i feel like everyone i meet is just staring at me thinking how ugly i am. i really love my bf, but i constantly think that he secretly hates me. he's taking me on a family vacation in may, but i still feel like he wants to leave me. the only time that i am happy is when i am with him, but i still feel like he hates me. what will i do if he leaves me. i worry about stuff that might happen all the time. i feel like a failure although i am going to get my masters in august in special ed. i know that i shouldn't feel this way and that it is irrational, but i feel so alone and isolated. i can't go on meds or go to therapy because i don't have insurance. help me!!
Answers: i am so insecure. i feel like i am the most awkward person in the world, although no one else thinks i come across this way. i feel hideous, like literally disfigured. but a lot of people think that i am pretty (although i feel like they are all lying). i am super shy but it comes across and snobishness, i feel like everyone i meet is just staring at me thinking how ugly i am. i really love my bf, but i constantly think that he secretly hates me. he's taking me on a family vacation in may, but i still feel like he wants to leave me. the only time that i am happy is when i am with him, but i still feel like he hates me. what will i do if he leaves me. i worry about stuff that might happen all the time. i feel like a failure although i am going to get my masters in august in special ed. i know that i shouldn't feel this way and that it is irrational, but i feel so alone and isolated. i can't go on meds or go to therapy because i don't have insurance. help me!!
Oh brother!! You just described me. Except I live in Canada and I get all the meds I want. Hooray! What you probably want to do is drink a lot because then you won't feel as shy or as awkward. Better yet, move to Canada!
You are right, you are SO insecure. Let me start by saying there is nothing wrong with you. People in general are funny looking, lumpy, rude, awkward, mental creatures. You have nothing to be ashamed of.
Why oh why would he be with you if he hates you? I'm sure that he notices that you hate yourself, and that cant be helping the relationship at all!
Only you can decide what you need to do to make some self inprovements, do you need weightloss, a makeover or just an attitude adjustment?
Or maybe you just need a friend? Let me know.
Sounds like you are kinda crazy and lack alot of self-esteem. But you are definately intelligent to almost have your Master's in Education. Do you know how many people that don't even have a HS diploma. It should be something to be proud of young lady. Hold your head high. Look in the mirror everyday and tell yourself "I am a Child of God. I am a somebody. I'm beautiful and worthwhile." And, you'll start believing in yourself again.
you're juat a lyiile bit insecure. You can't control how yr emotions only yr actions. So try to do +ve things and get self development books. There are many good ones out there
If you watch Joyce Meyer and Joel Osteen, you'll learn to have a more positive, confident attitude toward yourself.
http://www.joycemeyer.org/
http://joelosteen.lakewood.cc/site/PageS...
A local Christian church might offer free counseling or a medical clinic. You could ask! Some larger churches offer support groups for specific problems, or general "home churches" (sometimes called kinships, life groups, home groups, etc. depending on the church) which are basically Bible studies in someone's home. The ones I've been to sometimes have a meal, and worship singing, Bible study, prayer, and time to talk.