I have this horrible feeling that I am a failure?!
Question: Ok so I dont know what the heck is going on with me??! I am soo depressed and its all of a sudden I am usually a pretty happy girl. But all of a sudden I feel like I mess up everything, that my son deserves a better mother, that I cant possibly do anything right. and worst of all I feel like i should just die. I really do not want to die AT ALL! But this feeling is horrible, and yes i know i need to go for help, but i just cant bring myself to it right now. But why would these feeling come all of a sudden? I thought depression was over a period of time and got worse not that is just started out as bad as it could possibly be. Could it be something causing this?
Anyone that could be help, i will really appreciate it! In need of some support right now.
oh and i havent had anything major happen in my life lately to have me feeling like this.
Thanks again.
Answers: Ok so I dont know what the heck is going on with me??! I am soo depressed and its all of a sudden I am usually a pretty happy girl. But all of a sudden I feel like I mess up everything, that my son deserves a better mother, that I cant possibly do anything right. and worst of all I feel like i should just die. I really do not want to die AT ALL! But this feeling is horrible, and yes i know i need to go for help, but i just cant bring myself to it right now. But why would these feeling come all of a sudden? I thought depression was over a period of time and got worse not that is just started out as bad as it could possibly be. Could it be something causing this?
Anyone that could be help, i will really appreciate it! In need of some support right now.
oh and i havent had anything major happen in my life lately to have me feeling like this.
Thanks again.
Depression is can be caused by a chemical imbalance of your hormones. It is possible for your hormones to go out of whack and this could cause your depression. My suggestion is to seek medical advice, however if you just cant try to focus on being positive. Tell yourself that you are a great mom, and you deserve to be around. This may sound cliche, but just stop and smell the roses so you can realize how beautiful and precious life really is.
Yeh life sucks sometimes I know how u feel & its quite normal you need counselling by someone who can help you talk & understand why you feel as you do & what you can do to try & change, your Doctor should be your first call.
omg i just started feeling like that today!
i've felt that way a lot, before, of course, then it went away.
now i'm sooo depressed in like one second, and i don't know what's wrong.
well you're like an adult, and i'm only 13...so i have a reason to die, you don't.
i was just about to OD on some meds i found in my mom's drawer. she has about over 100 of these blue little pills and i was thinking about using them...
then i was like "NO i'm not suicidal."
trust me, i'm the least expected person to commit suicide.
i'm just really mad at my parents, here's the story:
my dad moved our whole family to a completely new, small town. this place sucks so bad, but we have to live here, because my dad's becoming a doctor (he's a resident at first). i hate it, because i just realized that when he's actually a rich rich doctor, i'll be in college. right now i'm living in a reaallllyyyy bad house. it's kinda like a townhouse but it's for rent. it's horrible and then today i just started freaking out about how i won't get to live through the rich period of my dad's money. my sister will. she's 8 right now, lucky her. i feel awful, knowing that i'll spend my childhood in misery and in a small house while my sister gets the good life.
that's why i felt horrible. and also cause i've been getting some bad grades in school and my parents are reaally strict about getting straight A's.
i was crying really bad, then i started playing the piano. and then i felt much much much better. now i'm okay again and i don't feel depressed.
you should try that. don't listen to music, make it.
GOOD LUCK! don't worry, you can relate to me. i know how you're feeling right now cause i'm living throught it too.
don't let your son down.
It sounds to me like you are undergoing an episode of depression. Depression is often treated with both an antidepressant and counseling.
Both are an important part of the treatment. Depression causes us to feel poorly about ourselves and to withdraw. It robs us of energy and the desire to get help.
It is hard to tell what is causing your depression. Often depression is caused by buried feeling especially of anger. As we fail to deal with the anger it begins to turn on us. But other feelings can cause it also.
You have said that you have been pretty happy until recently. So it must be something recently that has begun to trouble you. Every story is different. Your age might be a factor or your career. Most of these things will be looked at by an appropriate counselor.
You indicate that you can't bring yourself to counseling right now. If the reason is financial, you should know that there are clinics where students see you at a greatly reduced cost. Also many pastor have experience with counseling and can give some help for free.
I hate to discourage you, but this isn't as bad as it can be. So I urge you to get some counseling and support. If worse comes to worse, look up suicide or depression on the internet and you will find some hotlines where you can call and talk to people.
However, this is a short term solution. I have been in the arm of depression for most of my life. I'm under treatment and feel pretty good most of the time. However, my depression is chronic and will likely always be a factor in my life.
Your depression sounds acute and you should be able to find help in dealing with it and removing it from your life. Don't let it get a foothold in your life. Get help now. :-)
Pastor John