Why do I like being unstable?!
Question: I don't really know why, but it seems like I want to be this way. my mom and some therapists have said that I subconsciously sabotage myself to make things worse. recently, I feel like I want to be unstable and seen as a threat towards other people. I smile when I think of the possibility of being in a psychiatric ward again, and want it to be for a long time. I think of how easy it is to commit crimes and if I get caught just plead insanity because I like to be in a psych ward anyway so it isn't really punishment. it has gotten to the point where I want more things wrong with me. I don't know what I should do about this. therapists have never helped me. 3 different medications made me much worse. any advice?
Answers: I don't really know why, but it seems like I want to be this way. my mom and some therapists have said that I subconsciously sabotage myself to make things worse. recently, I feel like I want to be unstable and seen as a threat towards other people. I smile when I think of the possibility of being in a psychiatric ward again, and want it to be for a long time. I think of how easy it is to commit crimes and if I get caught just plead insanity because I like to be in a psych ward anyway so it isn't really punishment. it has gotten to the point where I want more things wrong with me. I don't know what I should do about this. therapists have never helped me. 3 different medications made me much worse. any advice?
I used to be like that... sort of. I used to think about every little thing that was wrong with me.... always dwelled on my problems... I personally think this was my subconcious way of dealing with the lack of attention I was getting... it was my comfort to look at all my problems and know what was wrong with me... it's hard to explain, but I think I would use my problems as an excuse for being the way I am today... if that makes any sense... my REAL problem though was not getting help for any of my problems... I would just dwell on them but never get up and fix them! I think you just need to start fixing your problems... one at a time... it's hard but everyone can do it... I'm still trying to work on it myself... good luck to u :]
i'd like to know the same thing.
instability, or rather the possibility of antithetical behavior, gives the illusion of power and control
If you truly like being the way you are, why would you be in here asking for advice? Either you're completely full of it and just asking this question to get all kinds of negative attention, or you do have a problem with being "unstable."
Yeah, just stop it.
Realize what you're doing is immoral and unethical. You know what you're doing...
Study ethics, and live by them. Find a positive driving force in your life.
If the medicine is making you worse, you should probably stop taking it, and if you really want to be in a psychiatric ward, tell your therapist that you think you are a danger to yourself and suicidal (self-destructive) and that you think you should be in a psych ward. Usually if you mention psych ward, they will 10-13 you any way, but you can also be a voluntary enter.
Be careful, the insanity plea does not always work.
Use your cleverness to do something more positive.
You may need attention or help.
sounds like you really need help,but its hard to get help from someone wroking for a pay check not to make you bette, is there anything that makes you feel good (thats not wrong)? and remember that by doing somthing criminal you'll be hurting alot of people including your self and your family
print out this whole thread of comments to your question and take it to your therapist and show your parents.
Here is my note to them:
If he wants to be in a psycho ward, cant hack reality, and isn't going to try to be a man and control all his little boy urges give him what he wants because at least it keeps him from mating and making more of whatever he is.
Also he should be viewed as a potential menace if not just a liability and/or harmful. I wouldn't even want to be on an elevator with a person like this and I am a big dude. I might end up having to injure him myself to avaoid radiating ignorance poisoning.
i don't know if you grew up with mental problems, but sometimes when you've felt 'insane' for a long time it becomes your identity and you aren't really sure who you are without your illness.
i was in a psych ward twice and the first time i also felt weird about liking it there. i didn't feel so out of my element. it can be positive, but it can also cause reclusiveness and dependence. i don't recommend relying on the hospital to help you.
um, i'm sorta that way but not to that extent. you sound like a schizophrenic. lol but on a serious note, if you keep this up you'll probably regret it and eventually have a **** load of your own problems to clean up after. being a little bit unstable is cool in a way and can be fun, but you're taking it to the extreme. dude, get a grip. this is your life we're talking about. if you want it to amount to nothing then just keep doing what you're doing. if you don't then i strongly advise you to bring out the positive aspects of yourself immediately and to get out of this psychosis you're in, cuz making yourself this unbalanced can NEVER end up being a good thing.
Its great for getting attention. It is risky and it is you indulging yourself. So, how are the nightmares? If you are a danger to yourself or others get the help you need to at least get past this area of fascination.
Living the rest of your life in jail isn't very fulfilling and then the risk is over and you hand your life over to the authorities. Counter-productive and boring. Banking on a psyche pass isn't always guaranteed. Jails are full of anti-social people.
Maybe you could consider getting into some sort of creative field which will allow you to live in la-la land all the while be rewarded for being - you!
you've noticed that this makes you feel good and it's scaring you. kudos for trying to get help.
i'm not sure.
go to a therapist and talk about this PROMBLEM
not commiting crimes and being in psychwards
talk about how it makes you feel good, and you're addicted to it.
what medicine. and the plea does not always work and if it does you wont enjoy it
Before you can change you'll need to heal your inner child but maybe for now you prefer to have things just the way they are. In that case just expect more of the same. When living like this becomes too painful to bear and you hit rock bottom that's when you will take the initiative to change.
You don't want to grow up. You want others to take care of you even if that means you have to hurt others to get that.
Sounds like prison might be a better place for you.
I hope your mom sees this and shows it to a therapist.
It sounds like you've found a nice little place to be where there are no consequences to any of your actions for the rest of your life. Honestly, I don't think anything anyone says to you or you read is going to knock you out of this way of thinking until you have an experience that does it for you. Think about what you really want to do the rest of your life or who you really want to be. Do you want to be an independent successful person that people look up to and that can help others. Or do you want to continue doing what you are doing now forever? I'm not asking what you feel comfortable doing right now because it will probably be not to change. Getting rid of your comfort in the mental health arena has to be something within you.
you need to try harder then what you are doing. see if they cant put you on some meds that will work. nobody wants to be around someone who is unstable
Just up and stopping the medication is going to make things alot worse, Prozac is a medication you are suppose to be weened off of. And the reason i believe you like this is because it causes people to sort of keep a distance from you and you enjoy the impersonalness of it. And yeah insanity plea only works less than 1% of the time. And i believe you crave the personal attention paired with the professional environment you can only get in the ward. But then again this is just one mans opinion...
You're not an Emo right?
Creative juices flow faster in a river than a puddle:)