Am I depressed or is it something more severe?!
Question: I am a 19 year old female, i have friends and a boyfriend who put up with me to a GREAT extent. I feel like I am never good enough, I cry for no reason. I am so insecure, I am constantly comparing myself to everyone. I never feel truly happy, I have an older brother who I absolutely HATE for his achievements and I feel like my parents love me less because I have less ambitious aspirations and i will never go to law school.
I cannot let go of the past. I hold grudges and I bring things up that shouldn't be brought up. I just want to be happy. But i feel like i am destroying everything in my path.
Answers: I am a 19 year old female, i have friends and a boyfriend who put up with me to a GREAT extent. I feel like I am never good enough, I cry for no reason. I am so insecure, I am constantly comparing myself to everyone. I never feel truly happy, I have an older brother who I absolutely HATE for his achievements and I feel like my parents love me less because I have less ambitious aspirations and i will never go to law school.
I cannot let go of the past. I hold grudges and I bring things up that shouldn't be brought up. I just want to be happy. But i feel like i am destroying everything in my path.
this is depression, i suffer from minor depression, so try these:
1make a list in ways you are better/equal to others and good things about you.
2talk to friends about how you feel.
3on rainy or cloudy days, take cod liver oil (it's gross, i know, but bear with me please?)
4see a doctor for medication
you seem depressed. every night before i go to bed i make a list of 5 things i am thankful for it helps a lot you will be amazed by what you can be thankful for. another thing is look back and see the good things you have accomplished in life.
Start by being greatful for the things in your life, actually there is this great book out called The Secret by Rhonda Burnes. My mom told me about after sharing some not so great things in my life. I kid you not it changed my life forever.
honey, there was a point where i nearly felt identical to a lot of what you're saying. it's not easy feeling like you're more of a burden than help.
if your boyfriend digs you though and is still with you, there is something about you that is worth it, ok?
maybe you two should go to therapy. i don't know you that well at all so i could be reaching but maybe there is an underlying problem to all of this.
just trying to help...
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p.s. and you sound very aware of things. maybe too aware. and you're sensitive. i could never call you insecure for i again don't know you that well.
to be honest, i was very self-aware and insecure after i lost my job at walmart. i hated to be around that store and i totally didn't like the way some felt the need to make me feel guilty about quitting or not coming back.
thank goodness that i have recovered from that era in my life! :D
you can too. have faith. it doesn't necessarily have to be in a God, but if it is, that can help wonders too!!
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it seems to me like you are self sabbotaging yourself. That coupled with depression is never a good thing. Go see a doc and get an evaluation, it may mean meds, therapy or a combination of both. But you really should go check on it.
I hope this helped at least a little.. Good Luck Sweetie.. Take Care