Please help me...im scared of myself?!
Question: okay, here's the story in cliffnotes version: i used to cut, i stopped cuz it hurt my friends and my boyfriend, but i did it again like, 3 weeks ago and i told them and we had like, an "im so sorry"/crying fest and since then its all i can think about. i dream about it and i want to so badly.
anyway, so tonight i hacked off the bottom of a razor like a used to and i pressed it into my leg...and then i cut and now i can't stop...i left the room but...im so scared im going to lose control...
i have a therapist. i have a rubber band around my wrist to distract myself.
i guess...can anyone...i don't know, remind me how much my family loves me and how much i'd be hurting them? does anyone have personal experiences?
if you're going to tell me that people who SI are looking for attention, you can f-ck off cuz most of us aren't and have real problems...and i can't talk to my parents or friends right now cuz i don't want to freak them out and i feel so selfish....
Answers: okay, here's the story in cliffnotes version: i used to cut, i stopped cuz it hurt my friends and my boyfriend, but i did it again like, 3 weeks ago and i told them and we had like, an "im so sorry"/crying fest and since then its all i can think about. i dream about it and i want to so badly.
anyway, so tonight i hacked off the bottom of a razor like a used to and i pressed it into my leg...and then i cut and now i can't stop...i left the room but...im so scared im going to lose control...
i have a therapist. i have a rubber band around my wrist to distract myself.
i guess...can anyone...i don't know, remind me how much my family loves me and how much i'd be hurting them? does anyone have personal experiences?
if you're going to tell me that people who SI are looking for attention, you can f-ck off cuz most of us aren't and have real problems...and i can't talk to my parents or friends right now cuz i don't want to freak them out and i feel so selfish....
I have been there. I have done that. I am still here. This is going to sound so silly but it worked for me...I kept all those Corny cards I got from my friends and family and I toOK pictures of the ordinary things that made me happy...not just the regular staged friend/family photos. Most of them were ordinary but funny, like I had a picture of a jack-o-lantern in there, a pic of a strange mask, ... just stuff that made me giggle. I made a book out of all of it and painted it to make it art.
I made a list of things I wanted to do, movies I wanted to see to distract my feelings of gloom with something to be curious about. That is how I dealt with it. Since then I meditate a lot. I found a lot of different genre meditations and it sounds so silly but it does work at least for me.
I'm not sure what will help you, but do whatever you need to do to be 'ok in your own skin' which is how I put it. Talk to your therapist, talk to your family, your friends if you can, but don't stay alone.
Remember, as a child of the Universe you are loved. That's all I can say. Don't give up.
old enough to do without the friends and stand on your own.
Can you see a psychiatrist that will recommend some type of medication
you know, if you're family loves you so much, why are you cutting yourself? you have more than most ppl. get help and keep talking to someone. if everyone cares about you, theres no reason to hurt yourself and hurt others
Try to meditate. Did your therapist teach you this. Just lie down and don't think of anything but breathing. Real slow. Just think of something real nice that you like.
i'm sure your family, friends and boyfriend all love you. And they just want the best for you. Sometimes it may not seem like it but they do. Just try and take control of the situation. I know it's hard and it's up to you but it might help to talk to someone that your not close to until your ready to tell your family and friends. i hope i helped.
my friend use to that too because of family problems but just think about theres a world behind this that u want to live anf i know think about ur boyfriend and parents they gave u live so yeah dont tell ur parents they will freak out but just stop doing it =]
If you were MY friend I would be very upset that you didn't call me when you needed me the most. I can understand not wanting to upset those that are close to you but you end up hurting them more when you don't ask for their help.
Please consider calling a friend so they can help "talk you down".
I don't know much about "cutting" but what I do know is that you have a strong desire to feel physical pain. I do NOT think you do it for attention. I really do hope you will call a friend or family member. What you do hurts more than just yourself. It makes others around you feel helpless at a time when all they want to do is help you. Let someone help you.
Awh wow. Well you know what at least your mature enough to ask for help and do something about it. Your family and friends love you alot and they are probably really worried about you. But honey, it will get better.. just try and get more hobbies.. spend more time with family.. you know.. distract yourself. you seem to be loved alot.. hope i help..
i know exactly how you feel..
first of all, i cut myself too...
everyday is a struggle not to..and i've been able to not do it for a month an a half now...
Though it may seem better to just do it, don't you ever miss wearing short sleeve t-shirts, or showing off cool wristbands?
And hiding it can get to be a hassle, and who knows how someone will react if they see it..
If you're cutting really deep, like i do, it's best that you stop all together....permantly.....
Do not get prescribed for any sort of depression medication if you're under the age of 25. Your brain is not developed enough to handle it, and it could cause suicidal and even homicidal thoughts, especially if you stop taking the medication.
I suggest talking candidly to your therapist until you're able to summon the courage to speak to your friends and family about your issues.
I'd call your therapist and let him know what is going on. If need be they could put you in the hospital where they can watch that you don't hurt yourself. You are not selfish you are a girl with a problem. You can recover from this. Please look for a way. Your Friend, Baddogg
You Need to contact therapist ASAP
Have your friends write you a letter how it makes them feel, why you should not do it. Then when you feel like cutting you can read them. Try using a red marker, that works great for me. Try keeping a jounral on, why you feel like cutting and what you are feeling and write down things you tried to do before cutting. Godd luck hun, I know what you are going though. I know you can do it.
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