Something is wrong and I don't know what it is?!
Question: My entire life I've always been quiet, antisocial, spent most of my time with animals. I only have a few friends, and rarely leave my house. I quit my job last September, and still haven't found another. I get call backs from resumes I send out, but I hate calling back because I know I'll have to go for an interview, which totally freaks me out and intimidates me. I hate waking up in the morning, all I want to do is sleep. Then I'll have these periods where I'll get up and be happy as pig in crap, clean my whole house from top to bottom and feel really good about myself, only to wake up the next morning feeling like a useless, lazy piece of lard again. There are days where I'm so down, I don't even get up to shower or brush my teeth, its disgusting! I rarely laugh, have no interest in sex on a regular basis, but occasionally get these bizarre sexual urges. I have 2 kids, that I love with all my heart, but I have a really hard time showing love, not just to them, but anyone.
Answers: My entire life I've always been quiet, antisocial, spent most of my time with animals. I only have a few friends, and rarely leave my house. I quit my job last September, and still haven't found another. I get call backs from resumes I send out, but I hate calling back because I know I'll have to go for an interview, which totally freaks me out and intimidates me. I hate waking up in the morning, all I want to do is sleep. Then I'll have these periods where I'll get up and be happy as pig in crap, clean my whole house from top to bottom and feel really good about myself, only to wake up the next morning feeling like a useless, lazy piece of lard again. There are days where I'm so down, I don't even get up to shower or brush my teeth, its disgusting! I rarely laugh, have no interest in sex on a regular basis, but occasionally get these bizarre sexual urges. I have 2 kids, that I love with all my heart, but I have a really hard time showing love, not just to them, but anyone.
You sound bi-polar to me. Get yourself some medication, dust yourself off and get back to life. YOUR CHILDREN need a mom who is present in their lives! They need your nuturing and you can't do that in your condition. No one can help you until you help yourself first. Think of them, not yourself! Blessings!
You are not disgusting, you are suffering from depression I think? You sound a bit like an avoidant personality too.
The good news is life can change, but start by small steps. make the phone call. Get some therapy, there are all sorts of ways to deal with depression now.
You NEED to pick up the phone, dial, and ask for help. It's easier than the posting you have already done!
You are intelligent, that's why you realize this is a problem. This is not something you can control...it sound like it's a chemical imbalance of some type. Please get help before it gets too bad..and trust me..it will. There are many things that can be done to help you and people willing to do it..but they can't if you don't ask..
Well, you can always do what society considers the 'norm' now,and get a ton of prescription medication.Other than that,nobody on here or even in a shrink's office can give you an answer.You have to find it inside you.
You just described me- 15 years ago. I think you suffer from clinical depression. I, of course, can't say that for sure- go to your family doctor. Do you have a friend or family member that can help you through this? Set up the appointment- take you there? If not, I promise, find the strength to make the call, you will never regret it. You know this isn't how you should be feeling and there is no reason to live like this--there is help. You maybe a little bi-polar, I am. The way you talked about every now and then you get up happy, clean the whole house- and have bizarre sexual urges- I go through cycles also- but with medication I have really leveled out into a normal mood- no more mostly depressed with some mania. The most important thing to remember is: this is a chemical imbalance in your brain- that is not your fault but can be controlled. Please seek help-- you deserve to really live your life- and enjoy it!!! Best to YOU!!!
Well I am NO expert but it sounds like you could be depressed. You should speak to your doctor about it.
It sounds like you suffer from a form of anxiety called agoraphobia.
Even though it may seem normal to stay in the house all day, there is a life outside that will make you happier and more fulfilled.
Anxiety is the main cause of depression and when you stay in bed all day - that is your depression. Its just too much stress and pressure on you to have to deal with the normal every day things of life.
You need help with your anxiety first off. And the agoraphobia is not the only anxiety you need help with - you seem to be anxious about other things too. Your thoughts run away with you.
You should try to see a dr who can prescribe you with something to help you cope. Not that you should be on this drug forever, but it will help you adjust and it will help you see how great life can really be.
Then when you are ready, you can wean yourself off the drug and continue to use the coping mechanism taht you have learned. One good program to teach coping mechanisms is Lucinda Bassets "attacking anxiety and depression".
It's an awesome program and it will help you get your life back. http://www.stresscenter.com/
Go to the doctor you will get the help. Some of what you describe is not illness but some is. Sounds like it's not bad but there are things you can do with the proper help. Do not let other people's attitudes run your life. You do what you need to for you and your children. And by the way wanting to be with your animals more than people is just fine. They are better company most of the time anyway. Good luck.
Take the TV out of your bedroom , Always dress up Every morning watch TV only in your living room , go to bed only to sleep ,, anytime you are awake get out of the bed room , just do that as a matter of fact ,,,, your life will change