Please convince me not to kill myself! Or atleast just see my story...?!
Question: I'm at the end of the bridge called life.
I really want to kill myself, and I feel that I will so I'm
hoping you guys could please just give me some support, so I don't. I feel so alone.
My mother keeps threatening to put me up for adoption,
and she almost did.
She told my sister that either she'll take custody of me, or I'm going to a foster home.
The sad thing is,
This whole thing happened because of a Marilyn Manson jacket. Maybe some more stuff..
My father died 2 years back, and ever since then
I've lost all aspiration to learn, so naturally my grades
suck sh*t. Then my mother thinks I PLUCKED MY EYEBROWS.
Hello, I am a guy, I wouldn't do that!
She hasnt believed me, and keeps calling me a liar. Then, I gave myself a haircut and she got pissed.
It's not even about what I do, it's just the fact that I didn't ask her PERMISSION.
Now to get to the real reason of Why I want to die.
My mother left to go to a party and my sister was at home and *rest in details, sorry*
Answers: I'm at the end of the bridge called life.
I really want to kill myself, and I feel that I will so I'm
hoping you guys could please just give me some support, so I don't. I feel so alone.
My mother keeps threatening to put me up for adoption,
and she almost did.
She told my sister that either she'll take custody of me, or I'm going to a foster home.
The sad thing is,
This whole thing happened because of a Marilyn Manson jacket. Maybe some more stuff..
My father died 2 years back, and ever since then
I've lost all aspiration to learn, so naturally my grades
suck sh*t. Then my mother thinks I PLUCKED MY EYEBROWS.
Hello, I am a guy, I wouldn't do that!
She hasnt believed me, and keeps calling me a liar. Then, I gave myself a haircut and she got pissed.
It's not even about what I do, it's just the fact that I didn't ask her PERMISSION.
Now to get to the real reason of Why I want to die.
My mother left to go to a party and my sister was at home and *rest in details, sorry*
hey bro, suicide isnt the option for you. Yea **** mite suck but it will get better. you need to get out of ur house. Do you have other family you can stay with? i know how hard it can be in the goth lifestyle and the **** you get from people. My home life was similar to yours and i spent so many years hating my life and wanting to kill myself and i tried twice before i learnt theres another way around it. ignore your family and realise it doesnt matter what they or anyone else thinks. Your only young and theres no reason to kill yourself when you have so much mor life left. You really either need to convince your family that this is the lifestyle for you or you need to get out.
What ever you do bro suicide isnt that way, flick me an email if u wana chat i knw what your going thru and how bad it can suck somdays
Oh kid!! Hard to tell you; you will grow up, and all these things will be a bad memory.
It will pass , promise you. I've beenthere. Still hurts after a lifetime but life is for living and fulfilling a "job" God put us here for.
Hang on and concentrate on YOU and nobody else. And..above all..........THIS ALSO WILL PASS!!!
you need to call the cops or someone with some authority right now! this is not right. i dont care what you look like, what music you listen to, or how bad your grades are you do not deserve this.
i really hope you can realize the severity of this. they are not allowed to treat you this way at all! tell your school counselor, your principal, a teacher, anyone! living in foster care is so much better than living with an abusive family member. please let me know that youve done something! email me or visit my myspace - myspace.com/wishup2thestars
How old r u Jade? You must be small if your sister can beat on you. Fight back and keep your head up high at all times. It always turns around. Only good can come from the worst times.
your sister and mother suck. don't kill yourself because of them- they're not worth it. if you can, stay with friends for a while. get out of your house. tell your teacher or a friend's parent whats going on and they will help you
im really sorry to hear about your father my mother passed away about to years ago as well and i know its tough expesaily when the other parent doesnt really help the situation of things . I dont know if you keep a jurnal but it halps me and you should try it if you dont !!!, but hye dont hesitatit to email me if you need someone to talk to !!!!!!! (that knows your situation )
Um is your mom or sister on drugs????! OMG- I think your sister should be like accused of child abuse or something...Try proving yourself to your mom..(improve your grades) Maybe she is just waiting for you to toughen up? I dunno.. But it sounds to me like they both have mental disorders..
please dont kill yourself. i know your situation is hard and you must be going through so much..
is there somewhere else you can go/live? i mean, they are abusing you!!!! you dont deserve any of that treatment. regardless of how you dress/look. you have feelings too. i mean obviously there is something wrong and you are grieving.. so why not give you some support and help you through your sadness? i symphathize for you and i hope that you can get out of this situation. hang in there.
Your sister is being a jerk and not worth ending your life over it
you should never think of getting rid of your life never. God's greatest gift was to give you a life and sometiems we have lot of conflicts and problems in our lives that we think of finishin ourselfes but wrong ok . I think as much as you are very depressed of your dad's death , your mom and sis feel pain too and i guess something gotta do with u being a goth kid becouse i think they're afraid of u that why and i think they love u too and want to picture u a good boy and that emo thing goin on is i think what they don't like so try to tell them that you love them and make them happy if you just have to do some image change its ok go for it. i think u'r a teenager so just one thing keep in mind that life is too precious and you have your whole life to live and have your own family one day and hopefully you will treat you kids different than you r being treated now. you r not the only kid that feels this way but this is not gonna be forever just a tough time ur goin through. everthing will fine. don't worry.
I'm on your side
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dude just be strong, I know what you're going through sucks major ***, but nothing is worth killing yourself over....that is the most selfish thing anyone could ever do....you are being abused very badly, you might want to get ahold of the police or social services or something because nobody deserves to be treated this way.....best of luck to you dude and God bless....I'm on your side
Okay, first things first: I think the whole goth/emo thing is kinda hot. Two, your sister is a *****!! How old is she? I woulda kicked her a$$!!! She's the one who should just die. Your mom is also a ***** and the sorriest excuse for a "mother" that there is! I see other's have answered and you don't really need my advise that much but I just wanna tell you that your not alone and that your life is worth living.
I know things are hard right now and it seems like things can't get better. But trust me they can. I've been though the same thing your going through and trust me it gets easier I promise you.
While the future looks bleak right now; it wont look like that in a couple years. You've just got to get through these hard times now because your not in the wrong here.
Just because you listen to a different type of music or you have poor grades is no excuse to treat anyone the way that your being treated.
You can either try and tough it out or seek help from someone. I know its terrifying but it just might be the best thing for you.
by the way I am very sorry to hear about your Father.
Best Of Luck;
Maura
Wow..I'm sorry.
Your mom is crazy and you need to get out of there fast...even if you run away...I suggest you not do that...but, call the cops or something...but whatever you do, do NOT kill yourself...okay?
I have no idea who you are...but, I care about you and your life is too precious to give up on...
I hope you can overcome this...
Best wishes...
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Please don't kill yourself because of your Mum and sister.
If you are old enough to move out do so, if you arent stay with some friends for awhile. You colud also try hostels or backpackers which are very cheap to live in. some backpackers will allow you to stay for free if you do a certain amount of cleaning for them each week.
Anywayz good luck
dude...do you have any adults in your life that you trust??? Because what I think you need to do is call the police...and talk to that adult or friend or whatever about staying with them for a while. and I know this is going to sound bad...but take yourself to a psych. hospital. they will help you through this. and they will straighten things out with your family. and the whole time you will be safe. they will provide food, shelter...and you could talk to people who know what you are going through. it is a great place to learn trust for some people.
I honestly think that is your best bet for now. while you are going through all of this stress-you could have someone to take care of you. and you could have a break from things for a while.
Dear Jade,
What you are describing is sibling abuse and it is not that uncommon. Research is just beginning to look into the damage it can cause people long term in their lives. I imagine your goth thing is the only thing you feel you have any control over to fight back with. I also imagine that maybe your manhood is being thwarted by your mother and sister. For your mother to threaten to give you up for adoption is cruel. My mother used to threaten to give me away too and it really hurt and frightened me. I am so sorry for the loss of your father, is there any connection between you and your stepdad? Can you talk to him man to man?
If you can't talk with him, then perhaps you could find an ear at school. A teacher you really like or trust, the school counselor, the school nurse, yeah--believe it or not the principal or vice principal can sometimes be very supportive! You can also call 1-800-SUCIDE in the USA and that number will connect you with your closest crisis clinic/hotline and they can help you find someone to talk to on an ongoing basis. Maybe you could get help from Big Brothers even. That could be very cool to have someone just for you. Meanwhile, I am praying for you this very minute. Some churches have teen groups that can seriously be a lot of fun and comfort too. Ask some of the kids at school you know who are Jesus freaks. I know that it might seem uncool for a Goth to do that, but hey, we are talking about saving your life here, right?
i'm so sorry about your father I too have lost my parent ,my mom died dec.13, 2007 your sister sounds very evil !your mom and sister are probably angry that your dad died and are taking it out on you.you really need to stick up for yourself
when your sister hits you ,you need to tell a cop and have her arrested or call an abuse hotline she needs help!maybe you should dress normally instead of goth be yourself ,you should try to talk to your mom if you can't you need to go to counseling before it is too late!don't kill yourself over this it's not worth it! Is there a near by relative you could stay at there home for about a week ,to let them know you will not tolerate this anymore!
1st of all; how old are you? If you are a minor then you must change your ways & do as your mother says. I know this is just a stage you are going through & your mom & sister should understand this too. You have everything to live for so don't be thinking of doing anything to yourself. There are a lot of people that care for you. You don't have to know somebody to care what happens to them. I care what happens to you. Tell you what---can you maybe get over this "goth" stuff for even a little while? Let things cool down. Us older folks don't like the way you younger generation act; BUT we must stop & think---how did our parents act when we were going through a phase such as you are. I argued with my dad all the time as a teenager but as I grew older I realized he was right about so many things but not about choosing my friends or the way I dressed. That was always a BIG issue. Maybe you would be happier in a foster home; I don't know. I tried to kill myself when I was a teenager but it's not worth it!!! Get that out of your head. You can get through this. Believe me. Things will get better. You can contact me if you like & we can talk some more. Promise you won't do anything foolish? By the way, where do you live? USA? or some other country?
Sounds like life sucks right now for you and while your mother and sister sound like there completly unstable, it sounds like you should give up the fight to be the 'manson/goth/emo' image you enjoy just for the sake of sanity and peace. You can always be whoever you want to be outside of the house and away from their eyes and ears, but in the house, just conform, after all, once your 18 you can move out and do whatever you wish and save yourself the mental drama from your family.
Jade, The fact that you lost you dad, at such a young time in your life is the cause of most of your problems, and you have chosen to suffer alone. Really the only thing I can say, in an attempt to help you past this, is that time will heal. and life will bring great pleasures in your future. I know this because I have been where you are.
You may feel free to email me, or better yet IM and we can have a conversation, I do however live at this point in Indonesia, so my day, is you afternoon and evening.
Anyway, from your question, it is evident you, are intelligent, and I assure you that you will get past this. Sincerely
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