Doing the right thing?!
Question: I've decided to see the school counselor after years of what I expect is depression. I can never sleep, sometimes I'm never hungry and other times and starving. I also attempted suicide twice in 2004, although I'm not sure if I was that serious (I know it sounds weird, but I was only 10). I find the idea of self-mutilation absolutely repulsive, but whenever I start bleeding, especially around my mouth, I find that the sight and taste of blood is freakishly calming (I sound like such a vampire!) At school I'm always all smiles and I've been told I've got a really bubbly personality, but it's all an act (I've been putting it on for so long I've kinda lost the real me). Anyway, the point is, do you think I've made the right decision? Do I have depression? What will the counselor say to me and ask me about? Thanks!
Answers: I've decided to see the school counselor after years of what I expect is depression. I can never sleep, sometimes I'm never hungry and other times and starving. I also attempted suicide twice in 2004, although I'm not sure if I was that serious (I know it sounds weird, but I was only 10). I find the idea of self-mutilation absolutely repulsive, but whenever I start bleeding, especially around my mouth, I find that the sight and taste of blood is freakishly calming (I sound like such a vampire!) At school I'm always all smiles and I've been told I've got a really bubbly personality, but it's all an act (I've been putting it on for so long I've kinda lost the real me). Anyway, the point is, do you think I've made the right decision? Do I have depression? What will the counselor say to me and ask me about? Thanks!
Yes its the right thing to do... the counselor will ask you lots of stuff but she/he is only asking you so much because she/he will want to help you. And everything you say to her/him... he/she will not tell anyone about it.
She/he will help you undertstand what you're going thru
You may have somethign else...or it might be depression...Ive been suffering since i was 13...im 26 now. I need to talk to someone too...sometimes Im really depressed and sometimes m really happy...but the depression last longer...I just take it one day at a time. i still cut myself with razors...I love the blood...it calms me down. I also take percocets to put me to sleep cause I can not deal with it sometimes.
seek advice
Does it help to give yourself a label of depression?
Understanding yourself is what your counselor will help you to do.
We all wear a mask to the outside world, it takes great courage to take the mask off and see yourself as you really are.
Take care and work with your counselor. Help yourself to help yourself
Good luck
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