I get scared when i think of large quantities?!
Question: ever since i was little, i have been having dreams where theres just open land and it goes on forever. i wake up in a cold sweat, crying hysterically. they're terrible nightmares. at disney world, there are these lifesize dinosaurs made out of legos. it scares the sh!t out of me thinking about how long it took them to make those and how many legos there are. it gives me goosebumps. i was just pouring a bowl of cereal and put sugar in it and thought of all the grains of sugar in the bag and i just freaked out and i didn't know what to do... could someone explain this to me and tell me what's going on and whats wrong with me! it might not sound bad, but i seriously get so mad that i feel like i should lock myself somewhere where i can't experience these weird things..
Answers: ever since i was little, i have been having dreams where theres just open land and it goes on forever. i wake up in a cold sweat, crying hysterically. they're terrible nightmares. at disney world, there are these lifesize dinosaurs made out of legos. it scares the sh!t out of me thinking about how long it took them to make those and how many legos there are. it gives me goosebumps. i was just pouring a bowl of cereal and put sugar in it and thought of all the grains of sugar in the bag and i just freaked out and i didn't know what to do... could someone explain this to me and tell me what's going on and whats wrong with me! it might not sound bad, but i seriously get so mad that i feel like i should lock myself somewhere where i can't experience these weird things..
You somehow have the ability to experience or "fathom" large numbers. I've experienced this to only I was on a rather large dose of a psychedelic drug....
I thought it was pretty cool at the time, but completely overwhelming. It was ok then because I was tripping. I wasn't expected to function at any level during the experience, so it wasn't really a problem. That's not to say it couldn't have been viewed as scary. That's just not the way I took it.
This bizarre concept you have of "infinity" could be seen almost anywhere that you look could for it. It's everywhere....
-The only thing you can do to get away from it is to not look for it.-
Try to forget about it. I'm not sure how you're going to do that. You might try going to a therapist. It couldn't hurt.
Good luck.
Learn to be patient.
sorry needed 2 points.
Perhaps if it bothers you so much, you should see a psychiatrist? It seems that something like this left unchecked could cause many problems in the future. Also, I can't really empathize, but I loose my appetite in the presence of large quantities of food. So, at least to some degree, you're not alone. Good luck.
I'm not really "scared" of the concept, but I really have a difficult time trying to get the concept of infinity, especially about the size of the universe. Sometimes I just can't quit obsessing about the idea.
I can understand your "fear" of large quantities. The only way that has worked for me is to realize that there are some things I will never be able to conceive, and this is one of them.