I am starting to get depressed again....?!
Question: I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I am currently a junior and graduating early due to financial reasons (and also because I hate the university that I attend). I was thinking of getting an entry level job after graduation but because the recession I am afraid that it might be hard for me to get a good paying job. I was then thinking of going to graduate schools to get my MBA in HRM but most schools require at least 2-3 years of work. Lastly I was thinking of doing an internship abroad with the Mountbatten Internship Programme (mountbatten.org) but it's too expensive for my budget. I don't know what to do anymore. The more confused I get the more my depression worsens (I have been depressed for about 9 years now almost 10). I feel so lost and confused. I don't know which way to turn. I feel like a failure in life...
Answers: I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I am currently a junior and graduating early due to financial reasons (and also because I hate the university that I attend). I was thinking of getting an entry level job after graduation but because the recession I am afraid that it might be hard for me to get a good paying job. I was then thinking of going to graduate schools to get my MBA in HRM but most schools require at least 2-3 years of work. Lastly I was thinking of doing an internship abroad with the Mountbatten Internship Programme (mountbatten.org) but it's too expensive for my budget. I don't know what to do anymore. The more confused I get the more my depression worsens (I have been depressed for about 9 years now almost 10). I feel so lost and confused. I don't know which way to turn. I feel like a failure in life...
Your not depressed, your confused and need an attitude adjustment. Think about all the young people out there who don't have your options. They are working at McDonalds. They CAN'T EVEN consider going to college, but going to GRADUATE SCHOOL? It's not even a small dream because it's impossible. They will be working at low paying jobs all their lives with no way out and you are worried about higher level education? Why not go get a job at McDonalds. Just for a day and you will better appreciate the options you have because working at McDonalds is hell. Imagine yourself at McDonalds for the rest of your life as your only option and you will truly feel depressed.
Then after your day at McDonalds, instead of trying to make decisions you obviously aren't ready to make or something is telling you they might be wrong, do something out of the box...hitchhike through Europe for a year, join the Peace Corp, volunteer for the American Red Cross in Central America, go work at a orphanage in a third world country. These are common things college graduates do to get a grip of their lives often between college and graduate school. Do something worthwhile instead of worrying about how much USELESS education you might need to live some fancy dream. Start living your life instead of sitting around worrying about HOW to live your life. And when you come back after a year or two, the schools will all still be there. But while you are gone, living your life, ask yourself, "Was school every really for me? Was I on the wrong track creating my constant feeling my life is wrong?"
As I read between the lines all your worries about money. It's all about money and all these different ways you want to spend money and can't. Life isn't all about money. Stop worrying about money and start doing things to LIVE. Instead of feeling obligated to spend money, why not contribute/give back to society by volunteering for a worthy cause and make yourself feel useful. Education is not only about which school or program you pay for - its about learning, learning through life. Stop feeling lost and find yourself. Find your true self and your true path. You won't be satisfied until you do. You are not allowed to feel like a failure until you are 80 years old and look back on life and realize too late you didn't DO anything with it. How many years away is that? 60? I'd be depressed just thinking about a degree in HRM (I almost got one myself then one day I felt like vomitting and changed it to art...)
Having said that, there are all kinds of environmental stuff that can cause you to have real depression, the kind that makes you feel out of control....caffeine, perfume, fragrances, drugs, medications...if you have any addictions to anything like this, get rid of them and you might feel more in control, but there is a big difference between being confused and feeling lost in decisions and actually being depressed.
Im sorry you feel like this....do you take anti depressants? If i were you i would write down all the pros and cons of your different options.....if you cant make a decision just take a break for a month or two or even a year....just work and clear your head...go out have fun...get work experience or travel....just think you are lucky compared to other people who have terrible lives and nothing, especially not an education....a career isnt everything and you dont have 2 rush.
Maybe u need to take some anti d's or increase your dose just to relax u a little?Talk to sum1 about how u feel like a family member or a counsellor....try not to worry..u only live once and we're all just little ants on a huge planet. gd luck
I feel your pain.
Life is way to confusing.
But like most others things you usually get through it fine.
Hey, why feel bad? You're a top contributer, man!
Talk to family and friends about your problems. That might help. See a therapist as well.