I don''t know what to think about life anymore?!
Question: My grandma died when i was about 10, this was the first death i'd witnessed. I didn't really know her so i never grieved over her death, i just watched everyone else cry over her.
I seem to have depression and anxiety, i try to fix it myself but when something really bad happens in my life, i can't sleep and i feel so alone. I'm 15 and i feel like i'm wasting my life, i don't get to do anything i want, i feel like im living in a box and i'm trying to push it open but i can't.
I have to have something to do or something to distract me or i start to think about life, which makes me depressed. I feel like no1 really knows me. I need a new way to look at life. I use to look at it like my future when i'm older and can do whatever i want i'll start to enjoy life. But that's not working anymore.
Should i get help? i can't tell my parents.
i feel so alone and i don't know what to do.
I need some motivation? i can't do this on my own anymore.
Answers: My grandma died when i was about 10, this was the first death i'd witnessed. I didn't really know her so i never grieved over her death, i just watched everyone else cry over her.
I seem to have depression and anxiety, i try to fix it myself but when something really bad happens in my life, i can't sleep and i feel so alone. I'm 15 and i feel like i'm wasting my life, i don't get to do anything i want, i feel like im living in a box and i'm trying to push it open but i can't.
I have to have something to do or something to distract me or i start to think about life, which makes me depressed. I feel like no1 really knows me. I need a new way to look at life. I use to look at it like my future when i'm older and can do whatever i want i'll start to enjoy life. But that's not working anymore.
Should i get help? i can't tell my parents.
i feel so alone and i don't know what to do.
I need some motivation? i can't do this on my own anymore.
A lot of what you're going through is normal teenage angst, so I wouldn't get too worked up about it.
Trying to fix what's going wrong in your life works for a lot of things, but you do need to realize that sometimes you're out of your depth and you should talk to someone, like a parent or a school counselor. Remember, they've already been your age and they did pick up some tricks along the way that they might be able to give you to help you cope.
You're right in your assessment that nobody knows you, because the "you" is changing almost daily right now. YOU don't even know "you" at this point, and it'll be a few years before the conversion process is complete. All that you can do at this point is keep the communication lines open with your friends and parents and ride the changes out.
It WILL get better in time - I can promise you that, at least.
A new way to look at life - well, here are a couple of things that worked for me;
1. Whenever I used to feel lost, I'd go for a walk in the woods and really look at the ways Nature worked. If you look around, every plant, every tree, every animal has it's place and it's purpose. I realized through these walks that if all of those plants, trees and animals had a purpose, then I must have one as well, even if I didn't know what it was at the time.
2. Meditation is a wonderful way of battling stress. I suggest that you try it.
3. Realize that it may not be necessary for you to know where your life is going at this very moment. The time scales for each life move at different rates - it may just not be time for you to discover your life's direction right now. The answer will come to you when it's supposed to. Don't worry about it in the meantime.
Cut yourself some slack on all of this - there's no standard that you have to live up to here.
Good luck.
i think you need to live life one day at a time. when you lie in bed, each night, think about the good points of that day. always look at the bright side. think of the jar as half full, not half empty. live in the present, look forward to the future.
Okay,
It'll be OK. Your definently not alone. Just dont look at the bad side of thing, look at the BIRGHT side :)!Maybe you could go to the guidence counselor at your school and talk about it? or talk to your friend if you cant talk to your parents, but really try to get the courage to talk to your parents.
You'lll be okay!! Dont worry :) Im here for you.
You people on the Y! mental health board really get to me.
Just from my personal experience, I'd say the worst years of my life were about 13-15...I would get so depressed that I would have out of body experiences. One day I told my sister and she said "you do that too?"
Anyway, I think being your age is the worst of times. I got a girlfriend about then, and life started getting better and better.
Good luck.
When someone close to you dies it can be very hard to deal with. A few years ago I lost my grandfather. I was always close to him but after my father left us I grew closer to my grandfather. After he died there was a major void in my life. It still hurts to talk about it. But I think what helped me was I had people I could talk to. You need to find a friend or someone you can trust to talk to. Everyone needs that someone to talk to during hard times. I don't know if you are religious or not but my faith in God has gotten through so much and it helped me so much just to know that if I couldn't talk to my family I could talk to God. He is never too busy and ALWAYS there.
Don't be so sure that it was your grandmother's death that triggered your depression (if you indeed have it.) Sometimes nothing triggers it. Depression, ACTUAL depression is a mental condition. Can you beat it without medication? Yes. Can medication help though? Of course.
I've suffered with anxiety and depression for 15 years now. Only two months ago did I decide enough is enough and seek a way to fix it. I'm using a self-help guide, reading books about it, praying, and seeing a christian psycologist. Life is tough right now but I know five years from now when I look back, it'll be worth it.
You may not want to, but you NEED to seek help. Tell your parents. Make them listen. Write them a letter and watch them read it if speaking is too difficult. Go to a doctor or psyciatrist that can properly evaluate you to see if you do have depression. (Let's hope that you don't.) Just remember: It IS all in your mind. Fight it. Don't let it take your life over. Take it from someone who suffered for far too long.
Whenever i start thinking like you probably were when you wrote this, i just turn on some music and go onto sites and listen to other peoples problems and look up some quotes on life and being sane. I guess it's just kind of a weird thing that works for me, but really the best solution i have for myself, and i think for you too, is just to get up and walk around and turn on the TV and watch a sope opera or something.. sometimes that false image of a perfect drama filled high school life just makes me laugh. Just anything to get me to stop thinking in my head, and get back to reality. If you ever like... want to talk to someone who is kind of going to the same thing you could message me or email me or something. I always wish i could have someone to talk to about stuff like this without seeing their face or worrying about their reactions.
At your age the feeling you feel all quite normal, you are in the in between stage, still half child, half adult, and for the next couple of years you will junp inbetwee wanting the attention and things of a child and wanting the emotion and things of an adult,
Because I don't know you the other thing that could bring on these emotions are drug enduce, any kind of drugs at this age mess around with the dopamenia in the brain and can bring on skitzaphrenia,
Your parents seem old to you but remember they were also teenagers like you and went through the same emotional truma ,so speak to them honestly and openly or pick out one of your trenty aunts or cousins every one you know who is older was young like you once, we were not born old, you would be supprised by the things we did and felt in our youth.