What is wrong with me? maybe this time around im really ill...?!
Question: ill keep it short, and just for starters i want u to know that im not some kind of dumbass who has no sense of self-worth. i am 23, living in the UK (moved three years ago from eastern europe), just finishing my degree. i don't go home very often, but when i do i feel truly happy. u know, this holiday feeling u get when u go to ur parents house.. anyways. whenever im there i feel that all my life HERE can be easily sorted (ive had some rough times here, but im finally finishing my BA degree in 2 months). once am back i get low, low, and lower. and yet i do like my life, i enjoy the things that i do. but deep down am not happy, and this feeling strikes me every time i come back here. firstly i thought it was just a matter of getting used to the same environment again, but now even positive thinking dose not help. im low. distant. sad. i did use some meetings at my local GP, was diagnosed with anxiety syndromes, told to work on my relaxation... but what if its more than that?
Answers: ill keep it short, and just for starters i want u to know that im not some kind of dumbass who has no sense of self-worth. i am 23, living in the UK (moved three years ago from eastern europe), just finishing my degree. i don't go home very often, but when i do i feel truly happy. u know, this holiday feeling u get when u go to ur parents house.. anyways. whenever im there i feel that all my life HERE can be easily sorted (ive had some rough times here, but im finally finishing my BA degree in 2 months). once am back i get low, low, and lower. and yet i do like my life, i enjoy the things that i do. but deep down am not happy, and this feeling strikes me every time i come back here. firstly i thought it was just a matter of getting used to the same environment again, but now even positive thinking dose not help. im low. distant. sad. i did use some meetings at my local GP, was diagnosed with anxiety syndromes, told to work on my relaxation... but what if its more than that?
first of all, never ever quit doing things that u enjoy doing because it will help u feel emotionally lifted. 2ndly, try to think of a reason, any change, any thing that made u sad in the first place. was that going away from ur home again? because , when u'll have the reason, u can work on that and ur problem will be solved. simply thinking positively doesnot help, if u dont believe ur thoughts. right now, wat i can see is that u r believing that u r sick (which infact u r not). believe that if i have a problem, i can solve that even if i have to take help. work on ur relaxation as told by ur doctor. but u should see a psychiatrist, becuase, sometimes, sudden hormonal changes can cause such symptoms, and it can be easily handled by pstchiatrist. its likely if there is any history of a mental health problem in family(if any)...sometimes, we feel bored because of our same routines and want some change, maybe thats what u need right now. try going somewhere for vacations, or doing something like a different part time job,or something like that. also, u r going to complete ur degree in 2 months, there will be lot of changes in ur life. so, dont worry:-). am sure, u'll find ur reason for sadness and u r going to be really happy again....but u know, life is unexpected, so just believe that watever circumstances u'll face, u'll stand strong, and wont let urself go, even in ur bad times. stay strong...:-)
Dont worry about it, your just dying, Its no big deal :)
I think God uses depression sometimes to get our attention--to let us know that something is missing that only He can fill. Blaise Pascal, French, mathematician, and genius from the 1600s is famous for this quote "