Have you ever experienced ' troubled sleep ' - is it a ptsd symptom?!
Question: i have bpd and ptsd - ive had a severley traumatic life, im now 30 years old- i live alone in a small apartment no possessions except a computer.
ive never built up any relationships in life - and never been employed ever.
im waiting for therapy right now and iam cooperating fully with my mental health team.
i feel lonely, empty and abandoned in life - directionless as if im drifting no where in life and that everybodys moved on without me, left me behind.
like everybodies got happy fullfilling lives except me- i see everybody grinning broadly in magazines- outside etc.
often times i have a troubled sleep where i have disturbing nightmares- not the type of sleep where you feel comfortable and secure, its more of a souless- black empty sleep filled with deep insecurities..
where the whole floor to my world threatens to fall from beneath me.
i often wake up alone, frightened, lonely...and my lonely flat then takes on a pitch darker look as i wake from the slumber.
Answers: i have bpd and ptsd - ive had a severley traumatic life, im now 30 years old- i live alone in a small apartment no possessions except a computer.
ive never built up any relationships in life - and never been employed ever.
im waiting for therapy right now and iam cooperating fully with my mental health team.
i feel lonely, empty and abandoned in life - directionless as if im drifting no where in life and that everybodys moved on without me, left me behind.
like everybodies got happy fullfilling lives except me- i see everybody grinning broadly in magazines- outside etc.
often times i have a troubled sleep where i have disturbing nightmares- not the type of sleep where you feel comfortable and secure, its more of a souless- black empty sleep filled with deep insecurities..
where the whole floor to my world threatens to fall from beneath me.
i often wake up alone, frightened, lonely...and my lonely flat then takes on a pitch darker look as i wake from the slumber.
When I am alone my thoughts haunt me, I have a wild imagination and it is my worse enemy. When my boyfriend and I first got together I spent alot of nights alone and I would wake up and stare at the four walls, my imagination running wild, every noise I would hear. I often have the same nightmares but I haven't had them in awhile.
All of my life I have felt like I was searching for something that I never did know what it was.
Yes troubled sleep is normal.
You seem to have anxiety as well I had the nightmares aswell with depression and post traumatic syndrome and anxiety to top it off the nightmares would send me into a panic the next morning also the other things you mentioned about your paranoid emotions will need medicating.This will be a long recovery but stick with it you are taking the baby steps by reaching out to talk to people.Best wishes
no, this is something a lot of people suffer from from extreme stress...I think a lot of us have been down that road
Mental health and sleep problems sometimes are circular. That is, they both can directly affect the other. If you have PTSD or even ordinary anxiety, or a neuropsychiatric learning disability like ADHD or even a neurological disorder like epilepsy, you will often have disordered and nightmarish sleep. Disordered, nightmarish sleep is often a symptom (not a *cause*) of the various health problems listed and can aggravate other waking symptoms of the illness. Sleep processes are regulated by neurochemistry, which is compromised in you because of the PTSD, BPD, depression, etc. Admittedly, it is very difficult to overcome childhood trauma and the damage it inflicts on the mind, but I believe there is a way over it and a way to compensate for it ,and you are taking steps to do so. You need medication to better regulate brain chemistry and you need psychological counseling that will assist you in changing thought and behavior patterns. You also should consider some form of physical exercise that will strengthen your nervous and lymphatic system. I would NOT recommend meditation practices until you feel much more mentally and emotionally strong. Meditation practices can sometimes have negative effects in persons who are emotionally or psychologically vulnerable.
Simple stretching exercises, gentle deep breathing, and simple relaxation of the body before sleep may help. Visualization exercises (ones in which you imagine yourself in happy and beautiful environments) -- that you should do under guidance of a health care professional --*may* help you sleep a little better in the meantime.
Wishing you health and the best in your endeavors to heal.