Is all of this bipolar?!
Question: Sometimes, I'll go off on a stranger if they rub me the wrong way. Sometimes cursing them loudly in front of everyone. It's mostly b/c of how rude people are these days that gets to me and I swear they are getting ruder by the day! Believe it or not, I've always been told I'm a nice person. Afterwards, I feel horrified, shocked and dizzy like, not wanting to do anything. Then I dwell on it and obsess 24/7 for days. I am anxious, dwell and obsess on most things. My doctor told me I need to have some control myself too. That is WAY easier said than done. Isn't it? I do this more as I get older and I've been on Lithium for 5 yrs. Most meds give me a rash. It seems like my outbursts are more frequent either b/c I'm older or b/c I'm on meds, or are anger issues coming to a head?
Answers: Sometimes, I'll go off on a stranger if they rub me the wrong way. Sometimes cursing them loudly in front of everyone. It's mostly b/c of how rude people are these days that gets to me and I swear they are getting ruder by the day! Believe it or not, I've always been told I'm a nice person. Afterwards, I feel horrified, shocked and dizzy like, not wanting to do anything. Then I dwell on it and obsess 24/7 for days. I am anxious, dwell and obsess on most things. My doctor told me I need to have some control myself too. That is WAY easier said than done. Isn't it? I do this more as I get older and I've been on Lithium for 5 yrs. Most meds give me a rash. It seems like my outbursts are more frequent either b/c I'm older or b/c I'm on meds, or are anger issues coming to a head?
This does seem like 'kind' of bipolar. But judging only by what you have said its not enough to satisfy the bipolar condition. You can look over other symptoms on the net and then see if there is anything else you have which might be a symptom. When doing this however, PLEASE keep in mind that over analyzing everything makes things worse than they are so try not over analyze things.
Also, drugs like lithium can weaken your 'impulse control' which is why you now shout instead of staying quiet. And then because you shout you feel bad as any other person would. And since you are already kind of pre-disposed towards thinking that you have mental issues.... all of this pops up into your head and as a result you over-obsess :)
I hope this makes sense. :)
Feel free to contact me if it doesn't.
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you have just added additional comments - and i have to say that all what you are saying is normal 'shy' behavior and I would say it is OK to be what you are. We are humans and every one has unique personality traits which help us define who we are. The only problem would be if it is getting too much in the way and you really cant accept it and cope with it - which is when you should talk to some one about it!
Fairly classic bipolarity.
It sounds much like me, so it might be.
Unless you have the other characteristics of Bipolar you are probably just an anger problem...
Bipolar is a disease that is hard to ignore
From what I've noticed
It includes highs that make other people ask you (and be serious about it) if you are high on ecstacy or cocaine..
You'd be cleaning a lot and talking very fast and not being able to control your thoughts.. you wouldn't sleep at night
Then you'd go through a period where you couldn't get out of bed, talk to people, eat, think about anything
You would probably be hallucinating too..
So no, you don't.
From what you've explained it just sounds like you have anxiety (this causes dizziness and often mild disturbance of vision) and anger issues ....